ā friends arenāt allowed to kiss one another. ā
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sheād KNOWN what he was going to do. Ā he drops his gaze, drops his hand from her waist, feels his heart drop into his stomach. Ā friends. Ā RIGHT. Ā because that was what he INSISTSĀ that they are. Ā this is his own fault; he is good at fucking shit up, making the WRONG calls. Ā seems like thatās all heās EVERĀ been good at. Ā heās been lying to her, though. Ā heās afraid of having something to LOSEĀ all over again. Ā
fehl prime. Ā april. Ā earth. Ā his uncle.
he couldnāt save them, so how the hell was he supposed to save his goddamn COMMANDING OFFICER? Ā and thatās another thing. Ā sheās THE GREAT COMMANDER SHEPARD. Ā and what is he? Ā some grunt who got attention for making what ended up being an unnecessary sacrifice for some intel, which the brass thought meant he had the BALLS to be a leader like shepard.
maybe he does, maybe he doesnāt. Ā it sure donāt feel like it now, as his eyes find her lips and all he wants to do is pull her to him, tell her that sheās his best friend, the best damn CO heās EVERĀ had, tell her that heād walk through hell itself for her. Ā nah, he looks like enough of an idiot now. Ā thisā¦this is his fault. heās sure she thinks he doesnāt want her, doesnāt care about her.Ā heās gotta own this. Ā even if he loves her.
he swallows the knot that seems to form in the back of his throat, all too acutely aware of cortez trying and failing to give them some privacy, self-conscious of the way his voice cracks like some goddamn kid on her nickname. Ā
āi think you and me both know we aināt been justĀ FRIENDS for a long time, lola.ā















