So fucking tired of people downplaying my love for Benny Boy just deeming it as ‘thirst‘ or ‘oh you're just another of those stupid girls attracted to the sullen bad boys"
I’m definitely thirst over ADAM FUCKING DRIVER, bc how the hell not, but Ben Solo is not Adam Driver, and I'm not even going to bother explaining the difference between them, bc BITCH, GROW UP.
I’m not this invested in Ben Solo because of a sick boner in villains, you misogynistic fuckers.
I fucking relate to him.
My family history is a big fucking mexican soap opera that still give me so much fucking mental labor everyday and left me to deal alone with 25 years of trauma and rejection. My family history shaped me into this fucking mess even before I was born with the ghost of dead father, an un-loving mother, abandonment, foster parents that still rub on my face every opportunity they have that I'm not really family, rejection, more negligency, more abandonment, intimacy issues, a fucking religious predator that promised me he would be a father I never had, more abandonment, religious deception, the feeling that I gave my entire youth and inocence to a fucking cult and was let down, depression, anxiety, anger issues, more let down, more abandonment...
I don't wanna fuck Ben Solo, bitches.
I wanna tuck him into bed, and give him warm tea, cookies and nice stable home where he can harbour peace and acceptance and belonging and healing and affection with that nice beautiful spitfire scavenger girl who will understand him and eventually fuck him senseless bc, why not, them both seems like in dire need.
I never related so closely to anyone in SW franchise or as a character at all.
I was like him growing up, and those 3 years learning and looking for this character seriously helped me learn how to deal with my own problems.
So, take away your chauvinist, misogynist bullshit, and let me root for my baby's happy end. It gives me a litte more hope for my own too.