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Author's Note: OMG. I finally found a way. I just needed to delete the app qnd write it on the platform. Damn. Anyways. My dear followers, I tried a new fandom and character and really hope you like it. Also I changed my style a bit. Anyways have fun reading.

~ Shadow Warnings: self doubt, some crying but nothing too major just some fluff, if I forgot something please tell me __________________________________________ Author’s PoV.: Love. It didn't came easy for Tendou Satori. Since he was a child, he got bullied for the way he looked and how he acted. He grew up believing that he was a monster and that no one could ever love him. Of course  now he had Wakatoshi as a friend, but he wasn't really good at expressing his feelings or show any kind of affection. So Tendou closed himself off and just lived his life with the knowledge that he would stay alone forever. That was until his first year at Shiratorizawa started. He was one of the first to be in the classroom, so he had already a place in the back when you entered the room. You looked around for a moment before walking up to him, asking if the seat next to him was free. He simply nodded at you and you smiled at him and sat down. Tendou on the other hand was a bit confused. No one ever wanted to sit beside him. It made him happy that you now did. And when you then introduced yourself to him, he knew that the two of you would be going to have a lot of fun together.

... This day is now laying back two years. You and Tendou are now not only best friends but also lovers. He had asked you out in your second year together and who were you to deny this lovable ball of fun and energy. Of course Tendou immediately called Ushiwaka to tell him and the whole team the news. And of course all of them were very happy for you two and you all celebrated it the next evening after school. At the beginning of your third year, you got the chance to go to America for a few months to study. You were hesitant at first, not wanting to leave Tendou for so long. But he was so exited for you and always told you that you should use that opportunity and that it will help you in your future life and so you caved in and went to America. But Tendou soon realized how lonely it really was without you by his side and he slightly regretted telling you to leave. He knew that it was a great chance for you, but he was scared. Scared that you would find someone else and that you would leave him or that you would stay in America. His insecurities and past experiences didn't help to ease his nerves nor the fact that there was a big time difference between you two. It was hard to communicate with each other, which made Tendou feel lonelier, then before. You also weren't feeling the best. Of course it was fun to experience something like this, but you still missed him. So when one of the organizers came up to you, saying that you could go back early for Christmas, you obvious said yes, exited to see Tendou again. You wanted to call him but decided against it, wanting to surprise him for Christmas. The only people knowing that you were coming back early were your and Tendou's parents. Your parents were happy to see you again so soon, but understood that you wanted to spend the holidays with Tendou. Tendou's parents were just as happy that you would come back early, seeing how much their son missed you. They promised you to invite him over to their house, so that the two of you could spend more time together. You could have hugged the world with how happy you felt to see your love again.

... 8 days. Then you would finally see him again. You were practically counting down the minutes, it was hard not to call him and tell him. Tendou on the other hand wasn't so happy that Christmas was coming around so soon. It would be the first he spent without you since you started dating and it made him just feel lonelier and sadder. But he was thankful that his parents had invited him over to their house, maybe there he could forget all of this. As requested from his parents, Tendou showed up on the doorstep of their house on the 24th December.

...

His mother opened the door as soon as he rang the bell and he was sure that she stood behind it, waiting for him. She pulled him into a hug  immediately, his father following shortly after hers. And for the first time in weeks, Tendou smiled. He was just so happy to be home again, that he completely forgot about you and all the other feelings he had since you left. Together they played a lot of board games, laughing about old stories and just having a great time. That night, Tendou went to sleep quite tired, his body catching up to the nights he spend awake, lost in his thoughts. It was no wonder how fast he slept in, not even making it to fully put the blanked on himself. And while Tendou was fast asleep  you were sitting I  the plane back to Japan, exited to see Tendou's reaction. Before you had stepped into the plane, his parents had informed you that, after you arrived, they would leave the house to you  going and staying over at his aunts house for the holidays. And while you were looking out of the windows of the plane, you realized how grateful you were that your and Tendou's parents were so understanding and supportive with tour relationship. It felt as if you were already a family. Just imagine being a family made you feel giddy  thinking about marrying Tendou, having children with him, waking up with him every morning..... All these thoughts made you feel so warm and fuzzy with the love you felt for this man. All these thoughts now flooded your mind for the while flight, making you more and more impatient to finally be reunited again with your darling Tendou.

... It was five in the morning when your plane finally landed. Your parents were already waiting for you at the exit, welcoming you with open arms and a big hug. And even tho you were really tired, due to your jet-lag, you couldn't help but talk the whole ride home about how great it was and the differences, about the things you did, your parents carefully listening. You only stopped when you entered your house, seeing an already packed bag at the door. "We figured you might like to go to Tendou as soon as you get here, so we already packed you a bag with a few things like clothing and some snacks." your mother spoke, watching the smile grow on your face. You quickly hugged her before going up to your room to take a quick shower and to change your clothes into something more comfortable. It surprised you with how fast you could shower and change your clothes, but you believed that it was because of the excitement and anticipation to see Tendou again. Knowing that you and Tendou lived only a few minutes away from each other made you feel giddy again. Looking at your watch on the bedside drawer, it showed that it was already six in the morning, so you made your way quickly down the stairs. Giving your parents their presents and one last hug, you grabbed the bag and left the house, making your way to Tendou's. You had already written his mother, telling her that you were on your way to them. You didn't want to ring the bell and possibly wake up Tendou, so you wrote her again saying that you were standing in front of their door. With a smile Tendou's mother opened the door, letting you into the warm and familiar house. His father was standing I the open kitchen packing away some food, smiling at you as well. "Tendou is still sleeping. We didn't want to wake him up. In the fridge is some food for you two to warm up and eat." His father informed you. "Thank you." "If you need something, you can just call us, alright?" "Of course." And with that Tendou's parents said their goodbyes and wished you a merry Christmas, before leaving the house, making their way to his aunt.

... Excitement filled your body as you walked up the stairs to your lovers room. Slowly you opened the door to his room, the only barrier left between the two of you, slowly poking your head into the room. There on the bed, snuggled up into his blanked, Tendou was laying, his beautiful red hair messy and standing up in some places. You couldn't help the smile that bloomed on your face, as you entered the room, he was just the cutest. Setting your bag down on the floor, you made your way over to his bed, carefully sitting down on it, close enough to to gently stroke the hair out of his face. Tendou slightly stirred to this, snuggling closer into the blanket. A small, quite laugh escaped you as his hair fell right back into his face. Again you tried to put the stands of red hair behind his ear, causing him to stir again. You pressed a gentle kiss on his cheek, wanting to slowly and softly wake him up. To this Tendou stirred again, slowly blinking his eyes open, looking around his room before his eyes met yours. You smiled at him. "Good morning Ten." "Mornin' (Y/N)" he groggily spoke, before closing his eyes again, still being sleeping. Then he jolted up, starting you in the eyes with a shocked expression. Slowly his hand reached your cheek, cupping it softly. You leaned into his touch, having missed it so much. His second hand followed the first one, placing itself on the other side of your face. You hand followed to place themselves on his. "Your here. Your back" his voice was barely a whisper as Tendou spoke, a look of disbelieve and confusion still in his eyes. "But why?" His question startled you. "Why wouldn't I come back to you?" you asked him in return, but Tendou didn't respond. Slowly he took away his hands, placing them into his lap, just to stare at them. You were confused at his words and actions. Why did he think that you wouldn't come back? Slowly you crawled closer to him on the bed, sitting now in front of him. "Tendou what's wrong?" You looked at him with a worried expression. Tendou on the other hand tried to process the whole situation. You were really here. But too early. Why? Did someone from his team call you, saying that he was sad because he missed you ? Did you regret the decision that you left for the exchange program? Did you regret listening and caving in to his words? Were you here to break up with him, because of this ?

Tears formed in Tendou's eyes at the mere thought that you would leave him. Memories of all the moments you spend together came to his mind. It scared him. Then two arms wrapped around Tendou's shoulders, pulling him into your chest. And even tho he didn't felt worthy of feeling your touch at this moment, he couldn't help it. Clutching your shirt in his hand, he buried his head into you neck, letting his tears flow. And you waited patiently, giving him all the time he needed before asking again. "Ten, what's wrong?" Tendou took a moment before speaking. "You are here. But far to early and I can't figure out why! And I thought that maybe you came back so early, because you regret going to America and that you regret listening to me and that you now would break up with me because of this, that that is the reason you came here, just to tell me this." Your arms around him tightened  at his words. "I would never leave you Tendou. And even if I wouldn't have liked it in America, it would never be a reason for me to break up with you." Tendou's sniffling was all that you got as an answer to your words, while your hand wandered through his hair. "Did you felt like this all the time ? Did you think that I would leave you ever since I stepped into the plane?" Hesitantly Tendou nodded, your arms around him tightening again. "Why didn't you tell me ?" "I didn't wanted to make you feel guilty or responsible or sad for leaving." "Tendou, answer me this one question, okay?" Tendou just nodded as answer. "Have you ever felt like this before ?" Tendou nodded again. "When?" "I... I don't know. Sometimes these thoughts just come up in my head. And I try to not let them get to me, but this time it just didn't work." You sighed and Tendou sunk further into himself, thinking that he had made you mad or even disappointed. "Tendou, you are NOT a monster and I would never even think about breaking up with you. I got the chance to go home early for Christmas. And even tho I landed just a few hours ago, I immediate wanted to go to you. Because I love you. I didn't told you to make it a surprise, planning it with our parents. But it seems as if I let you and your feelings out of that. And I am truly sorry for this." Tendou just shook his head at your words. "No. You shouldn't be. You couldn't know that I was thinking and feeling this way....." "But still. I should have at least thought about it from your point. I mean you could have made plans with Ushiwaka and the team." Again, Tendou just nodded and you both fell into silence, before he spoke again. "I'm sorry." "For what?" "I ruined it. You panned all of this for me and I made you feel guilty for it. Just because of some stupid insecurities of mine." "Hey!" You took his face into your hands, looking straight into his red orbs, before continuing talking. "You didn't ruin anything and you didn't made me feel guilty. It's good that we talked about all this, especially your feelings." Tendou looked down. "And don't say your insecurities are stupid because they aren't. And next time you feel like this, please tell me, no matter what time, day or reason okay?" "Okay." With that you took Tendou back in to your arms again, holding him close and tight. After a while, you started to slowly lay down, taking Tendou with you, not once letting go off him. "How about we take a small nap?" You asked, feeling yourself growing more and more tired. "But my parents will call us down for breakfast soon." "No they won't." "Why not?" Tendou's voice held a tone of confusion as he looked up to you. "Well they left when I came. But don't worry. They are visiting your aunt for the holidays, which means we have the whole house to ourselves. And yes they left us some food to warm up in the fridge." "You really planned out everything, didn't you?" Tendou chuckled. You couldn't help the smile that grow on your face, finally seeing him happy again. "Yes I did. Can we take a nap now, I need to sleep out my jet lag." you said a bit pushy. "Alright, alright. Yes we can take a nap." Tendou laughed, snuggling closer into you. You

pressed one last kiss into his red hair, before closing your eyes, relaxing to the feeling of his body on top of yours.