#satansdad

My 12 year old dog is getting put down tomorrow and I can't even be in the same room as him it's too painful I've cried twice today. This sucks so bad he can't even use his back legs the only thing that made me feel any comfort is the disease he has isn't painful I love that dog but I'm never going to ever fucking forgive myself for always bitching about taking him outside or carrying him up and down stairs (he's huge btw) or calling him mean names when he wouldn't stop licking or barking and I especially won't be able to forgive myself for saying and I quote "I can't wait till we fucking put you down" it's just so hard knowing your dog can barely walk and partially the reason I would be angry was cause I know he needed to be put down way earlier than this and the anger I shoulda had at my parents for procrastinatonating it instead I was rude to him and I'm feel so guilty cause I'm so sorry pharaoh i love you and I'll never forget how good a dog you were you were my first dog and only dog I'll ever own simply because this is too painful to experience again. Rip to a good fucking boy