i wish i was not lonely but i am very lonely in this awful world, i also decide to be cuz no one understands me actually. i wish i could flee this country. i hate everything here. especially the people. i don't feel actually free as my free self. really. it's sad, so i will escape here in tumblr where no one knows me. i hope i'll get over this eternal sadness in my little own world here. most times i suppress my real feelings round very close people. i began to suffocate fr. i will write here. that's my own solace for awhile. till i will be really free. and see this hopefully in the future while i'm free and can be really myself.












