#sams analysis

So I definitely agree that Sun is tired of Moon constantly hating himself to the point that he doesn't see nor realize that people just love and care about him..

Without a reason..

Because guess what you don't have to have a reason to love and care about someone..

And Sun is like that with Moon..

And Nexus as well..

But both Moon and Nexus hated themselves so much that they can't accept that others would do anything for them without a reason.. without wanting anything in return..

Because that's how love works.. or at least should work..

I was trying to be more considerate about both Moon's and Nexus' feelings and I still am..

But the truth is that their self-hatred made them to not be considerate about feelings of others..

Because everyone should hate them..

Or if they love them it's actually because they're useful..

That's why Nexus said that Sun used him.. because Nexus didn't see Sun's love as unconditional.. Sun definitely loved Nexus because he needed a replacement for Moon..

Which is untrue..

Sun since he saw that Nexus doesn't remember anything from the time when he was Moon he realized that his Moon is gone..

Sun didn't share what happened to him and Moon solely because he wanted Nexus to be Moon.. no

He had to explain them what's going on..

Both Nexus and Earth were there..

It wasn't specifically targeted at Nexus to force him to be Moon.. no

Sun never wanted Nexus to solve problems..

He wanted to do so that's why he became conduit for star's power..

And I think that it scared Nexus.. he became paranoid that Sun will die.. which was reinforced by V2 Eclipse..

But Nexus never told the truth.. he died lying to himself and everyone else.. hurting Sun with awful lies..

And getting back to Moon..

I think that Sun is tired of how Moon doesn't seem to be able to understand that one simple thing.. that he's loved..

But I think that Sun won't stop supporting Moon..

I think that Sun didn't try to argue further with Moon because Moon doesn't want to listen just like Nexus..

Both Moon and Nexus never listened to what Sun tried to told them..

That he thinks that everything is his fault so that's why he tried to do something..

"you indecisive, unchoicemaking.."

Really, Nexus?

But you never cared to listen to why Sun decided to be conduit for star's power..

This was his decision and choice so what that makes you, Nexus?

A liar..

But it's so much easier to get angry at Sun and hate him and blame everything on him when you just never cared to listen what Sun has to say or why he wanted to be conduit for star's power.. Nexus.. or why he wanted to kill Eclipse.. Moon..

That's why Sun said that Moon and Nexus are the same cause holy moly they never listen!

Sun times and times again tried to explain how he thinks that everything bad that happened is his fault but none of you wanted to listen!

But hey those of you who read this may say "but Ika isn't Sun doing exactly the same as Moon and Nexus with blaming himself and feeling guilty?"

Yes but also no.

Sun doesn't shout out everytime something bad happened that it's his fault. He feels guilty but he tried to do something about it. Ofc he makes tons of mistakes but that's what happens when you try to communicate with a person you share struggles with but they never listen..

Sun feels awful and yet he tries to do his best again and again..

He doesn't run away like Moon or Nexus..

When his family needs him he's right there even if he feels like it's all his fault..

Sun would love to talk about everything with Moon and later with Nexus but they never listened!

It's tiring.. it's exhausting..

That's why I don't blame people for wanting Sun to run away or stop caring or just snap and heck even start killing..

Cause Sun went through shit and he still loves people who hurt him and keep him at distance..

And he always wanted Moon and Nexus to understand that he loves them without any reason..

He wanted them as brothers.. nothing more nothing less..

And it's so tiring that they never seem to get it..

But I personally hope that Sun will be less able to express his emotions - this is what I can accept as Sun becoming emotionless - like he's still there for his family he cares about them and would do everything for them.. like he does all the same things like usually..

But his family slowly realize that there's something lacking in Sun's emotions..

Like when he says "I love you" there's something missing.. Sun has a weird tone..

But Sun doesn't even realize that himself because for him he's still the same.. he still put his whole self for everyone.. he still cares the same but his emotions are now becoming less and less..

Dazzle would definitely be the first one to see that zgvzbxvxvxvvx

Cause I don't want Sun to stop caring.. but I can see him being less able to express his emotions..

And then his family would be more and more concerned about him cause "what happened to Sun?" "why he sounds so weird?"

And then they'd be "why you sound like you don't care?"

And Sun would be "what do you mean? I care.. I care so much"

But he sounds flat.. and he can't even yell.. he doesn't understand what they're talking about.. why his family is concerned..

He rarely cries but when he does he doesn't wail.. he doesn't even realize that he's crying at first zbbxbxbxb

This is the "Sun becomes emotionless arc" I want jdndnxnxnx

Because if he'd be uncaring it'd hurt too much.. at least to me QwQ

But VAs can do whatever they want ^^

And hey maybe we won't even have an "Sun is emotionless arc" at all cause who knows what VAs will do ^^

It's all up to them bxbxbxbbxxvvx

I have my fears but for now I won't think about them cause nothing happened yet dvvdbxbbxbxbx

Something I personally don't see talked about enough is Lunar's trauma with Eclipse.

*TW/CW*

Thinking about the parallels between Bloodmoon and Moon and all the untapped potential. Like, Bloodmoon represents everything Moon would've been if he didn't have Sun to keep him grounded. (Mostly pre-reset Moon but who knows? This could apply to New Moon at some point if shit really hits the fan...Again. Also I'm referring to the Bloodmoon twins in the present-tense bc uh I'm in denial and if they don't get revived-)

First of all, the code thing was super smart of Monty. Here I was thinking that Moon and Monty had developed some plan offscreen when the later was just tricking the siblings. Brilliant!

Next, I wasn't too surprised with Eclipse deciding to kill Lunar. The moment Monty said "Kill Lunar", I was 60% sure he'd go for it. What did surprise me is how open he was about it. He doesn't even try to hide it from Lunar. Though honestly, why should he? Eclipse hasn't exactly been unsubtle with how little he cares about Lunar before, and his brother is still helping him despite that. He probably thinks Lunar will let this incident slide, like he let slide all the physical and verbal abuse. That the thing about abusers, it never occurs to them that their victims will eventually reach their limit, does it?

Or maybe they never cared lol

Or they forgot how selfish New Moon acted when he found out that Sun was conduit for star's power..

Or again maybe they never cared..

Virus/killcode or not.. one thing is the same about New Moon and Old Moon.. that they're selfish, egotistic individuals..

Cause remember that virus enhances bad traits.. but apparently people only see that with others (if Lunar's line about everyone being infected is true) and not Moon..

"He was just a little bit mean".. a little bit? Really? Humor me more..

I think that Sun might be not infected or virus doesn't affect him cause Ruin - having Sun in him - was a carrier and carriers can at times be affected by the virus they carry.. but I think that Sun is immune to it but he's a carrier..

I mean I think that we may go way back to Creator focusing more on Sun and that Sun stood on the platform in the lab of both Creators.. that would be funny plot twist.. and I think that there might be something in this..

Still family didn't abandon Moon.. Moon cut himself off the family..

And I still want for Moon to realize how selfish he was and take responsibility for his actions and try to do better..

But if it turned out that Sun is a carrier I can't see him bouncing back from it.. I mean it would confirm his worst fears.. and seeing that he's depressed and is developing psychotic episode (or have it but mild symptoms for now).. it doesn't look good for him.. I'm worried about Sun and I fear the worst will happen.. I really think that this is all leading to Sun's death..

I'm excited to see where all of this is going :)

Also I think that I know what barrels can hint to as of recent.. Sun is stacking them like this - Sun and Moon are on the bottom (cause yellow and blue barrels) and Eclipse is on top (orange barrel).. which is how Ruin was stacking them after he was "cured".. I think that this is hinting to Sun being a carrier of the virus.. and he doesn't know about it..

Cause remember how Sun's first thought after Eclipse returned was that Ruin did that but no one listened but it turned out that he was right? And what happened now.. Sun's first thought after hearing that Moon didn't care if Earth would die, that he almost killed her, was that Moon is infected with virus.. and no one listens because they didn't detect anything.. but I think that Sun is right this time as well..

Yeah you're right, dear anon.

That's what I was trying to explain to people since the beginning..

But I'm glad to see more people seeing it and understanding it..

It makes me feel less.. crazy? Cause when others also start to see what I meant and understand it.. it stops looking like I'm just making things up and that it's just a stretch ^^

So thank you so much, dear anon 💗

Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me ^^

About barrels and Sun again

So in "Moon is missing" episode we see that Sun went straight through the barrels and knocked them down.. it may be because he's more clumsy due to being more stressed out.. but in deeper meaning Sun just ignores himself and his own well-being and mental health..

Sun is tired of cleaning the barrels.. because he's tired of trying to fix himself and by fix I mean.. Sun is tired of trying to make things right.. cause he was proven over and over again that no matter what he'll do or say it's always not enough and things are getting worse.. so he's tired of thinking what else he could do, what else he should change in himself to finally make something right... So he only stack some of the barrels.. which means that he only works on fixing the facade.. to seem that he's fine.. that everything is fine with him...

As for why Canon stack barrels the way he did - two at the bottom and one at the top - it simply represents that Canon is two individuals merged into one - Sun and Moon at the bottom and Canon at the top because that's how Canon was created... - it's a fun little detail :)

In the "Day in a Life of Earth" episode we could hear that Sun hates barrels... which obviously means that he hates himself.. 🥲

But later Earth told Sun that maybe they should try to place them somewhere.. and then she proceeded to shove them into a shoe cabins... which seems ridiculous cause like Sun said barrels are circle-shaped and shoe cabins are square-shaped.. it immediately reminded me of kids trying to fit colourful blocks into holes but with not matching shapes... But in a terms of action this fenomenon is called squaring the circle which means to try to accomplish something impossible, to strive without the chance of success... and fits Sun's character a lot.. no, it's not even that.. this is a definition of Sun's character... Sun always trying to do his best while feeling like he's evil and nothing is ever good enough.. it's exactly that.. it's squaring the circle...

But we got some hope when Sun finally was able to fit the barrel in a shoe cabin because that means that Sun wants to still try to achieve the impossible and it gives us hope that maybe Sun will get better.. someday...

This video was mostly... cheerful despite that the new enemy showed up. But there are two things worth mention.

First, where the hell is Earth?! I hope that @cosmic-kinglet isn't right about Earth pulling of a betrayal twist... but it seems very possible... Read @cosmic-kinglet post about it!

Second thing are... the barrels..! Why?! Sun, why?! Why you hate them?! Why you want to throw them away?! Is it because you hate yourself?! Is it because you'd gladly get rid of yourself?! Obviously Sun doesn't want to throw away the barrels because of this... All I'm saying is that barrels are Sun! Remember? Obsessive cleaning and ordering things isn't a part of your programming, honey... You have OCD. You are traumatised.

I just don't know what to say anymore... I know that I'm repeating this over and over and over again.. but I really think that Sun will try to kill himself.. or maybe it'll be as a sacrifice...