#samhel

2. what sort of things does your muse look for in a partner?

Leoni admires independence in people. She knows compromise happens in relationships, but she doesn’t want someone mold themselves to be the perfect person for them, because she won’t do the same for them. And she admires those who can lead their own lives without demanding she be at their side. She wants to compliment and add someone’s life, not take it over.  She has built walls up over the course of her life and isn’t necessarily looking for someone to tear them down, but if they should, they can’t come in like a wrecking ball. Too much prodding and pressure and she’d turtle up and stay tight lipped. So patience and kindness is a must. She would do they same for them.

She wants someone she can trust with everything she is and to be in love with her best friend.

And if they want to partake in sparring to stay in shape, that’s a bonus. ;)

4. what is the lowest and highest age person you’ll ship with your muse?

For Tamralan, since he’s in his early 40′s, I follow the 10 above/10 below rule. 30 is pushing the youngest for him since experience has them both in totally different places, so he won’t actively pursue someone that young. However, he’s not going to turn away someone in their early 30′s should he fall in love with them. Anyone in their 20′s is a huge no. 50′s is fine, but if they’re in their 60′s or older, again, they’re in a different place, so he wouldn’t actively pursue them either.

6. has your muse dated before? if so, how long did those relationships usually last? 

Samhel has dated in the loosest sense of the word. Like he would have crushes and sneak off with people to kiss, but they never lasted long, maybe a few weeks tops. It wasn’t a huge priority to him when he was more concerned with surviving in the Halamshiral alienage and working to help his moms. And after believing he lost them, he’s really not interested in being in a relationship.

15. if your muse is uncomfortable in a relationship, will they address the problem or keep quiet?

Sylathi’s tendency is to keep quiet. It feels safer as she doesn’t like to confront people. Sometimes though, most times, that makes everything worse. Over the years though, with the influence and guidance of her best friends and family, she grows to bring up anything she’s uncomfortable with in her relationship. And more times than not, she and her partner end up closer than before. And she hopes her partner feels comfortable enough to do the same.

19. is there someone your muse has a crush on, but who you don’t actually have a ship with?

Oh lord, like usually if Thel has had any physical attraction to someone, there’s a ship for it, or we work to make the ship possible. I don’t make the rules for my slutty son (I say this with so much affection for him). There’s a couple that comes to mind, but I know wouldn’t happen or become anything more than a fling or hookup. But that’s okay. Thelrand has ~plenty~ of ships.

The first crush that came to mind is Gael Hawke (@lavellanlove)(it wouldn’t let me tag you??). Part of that is wishful thinking on my end because I ~adore Gael with all of my being. They had ~one~ scene together and they had good chemistry and would be a ship that, if it ever happened, Gael would bring out Thel’s goofy side that he shoves down with his perfectionism.

The second one is Delrin Barris. *swoons* I love this man so much and he deserved way more than what he was given. In modern!au, they have a great friendship, and they goof off together and have so much fun, and it’s ~perfect.~ Thelrand would literally be falling in love with his best friend, and he already loves him so much! I don’t know how compatible they would be in a relationship, but that would be something fun to explore.

20.  what would push you to drop a ship?

Is it possible to have so many ships that when you get a new one, it just knocks one off? Of course not! I love all my ships and don’t drop them lightly. However, I have dropped them for the following reasons:

Losing touch with the other person. This one is less of a “drop” and more of a “dormant.” I still have a ship that I hold dear in my heart from like 2010, but I am no longer friends with that person, so I really don’t think about the ship often, but when I do, it’s usually with fondness.

The ship is superficial. Like it’s obvious that the ship exists because they look good together, not because they’re compatible. At that point, I’d just write it off as a fling.

Too much drama. Anyone who writes with me know I *love* my drama. Drama pushes the plot, flavors the writing. But even I have my limits, and I’ve learned them after having to correct the many mistakes I’ve made over the past decade I’ve been rping. I’ve lost ships over this and almost lost some of the most important and loved ones.

I don’t have energy. Again, this is more of a “dormant” thing, but sometimes, especially if the ship is a new idea, I just don’t have the energy to commit to writing a new dynamic. It’s worse if I wasn’t completely into them to begin with.

Entitlement. Sometimes I think I’m guilty of this, though I really try not to be. Having people push me excessively for content makes me less likely to want to do it and it sours the ship they wanted content of.

Drills were done hours ago, but Samhel remained in front ofthe targets. The knives were missing their mark more times than not, thoughthat hardly mattered. The stuffed dummies were the only thing he could throwthem at without getting in trouble. Well, in more trouble than he already was.

Upon collecting his knives from the targets, he heard agaggle of giggles behind him. Every time he moved, or dropped a knife, it feltlike it was louder and more frequent. He snuck a look behind him and snappedhis head back, grinding his teeth. It was Jeremiah and his group of chickenshitfriends he kept around to feed his ego.

Just ignore him. Just ignore him. Samhel went back tohis mark, making eye contact with the man which was his first mistake.

“Hey, Sammy!” Jeremiah slung his arm around Samhel’sshoulder.

“It’s Samhel,” he replied curtly, then attempted to shrughis arm off. “If you don’t want to get stabbed, I’d recommend moving your arm.”

As you can guess from the poster and tagline, the second half of this is a rape scene, which presents some obvious unpleasantness. This is another horror porn hybrid as SamHel's other films have been, so it's not like the subject matter is unexpected or anything, and not judging anyone who gets off on this, because *pulls up disclaimer about sexuality being complicated and what have you*. But I think the bigger problem is that his style isn't as on point as it's been in those other films (the one sort of effective touch is the slurred audio evoking the villain's headspace), so what happens doesn't play with a lot of force or verve. The American flag is displayed prominently during all this, which I assume is an attempt at provocation, especially with the deranged misogynist villain, but it never coheres into any actual commentary.

This is the first film I've seen from SamHel, who I understand does the horror porn hybrid thing, and this one combines both sides of the equation through a pair of gruesome masturbation sequences. Which are honestly a lot less off putting than that sounds, as there are obvious cuts before the movie dishes out any gore. Plus it must be noted that Agatha Delicious, who I was previously unfamiliar with, and Madi Collins, whose work I am familiar with , are easy on the eyes.

There are allusions to Robert Pickton to lend this some level of unseemliness, but for the most part that element manifests in the pig squeals on the soundtrack and the porcine accoutrements adorned by the actresses, and there's probably some forbidden fruit stuff going on in my subconscious as I don't eat swine, but I thought the latter element was kind of sexy.