“ i know what i’m doing ! ”
the words were cold and cutting . sharp . very much like him , and very much a lie . the poor woman receded slowly , moving on to other customers while frequently shooting him curious , albeit fearful glances . rabastan hated the assumption that he was incapable of doing something soft . he was not , nor had he ever been unable to adapt .
hadn’t he proven that already ? not only was he a man , living in a horrifying world with all its equally horrifying consequences , but he had outlasted so many weak adversaries . he was strong , and he didn’t need any fucking help .
“ ... i don’t know what i’m doing , ” he whispered in irritated defeat as the woman neared again .
her expression softened as she turned to face the clothing racks in front of him . there were sweaters , dresses , pajamas , some glittery and others with cute little sayings on the front ( or so passersby would comment once every few minutes . he found the puns rather ridiculous ) .
“ is it a boy or a girl ? ”
“ both . ” he finally answered after a moment of hesitation .
“ oh wonderful ! how old ? ”
he buried his pride and bit his tongue whenever she asked personal questions he couldn’t answer . she dragged him throughout the store , explaining how certain things worked . he was on the brink of panicking several times and he assumed the woman ( her name tag read ellis ) was used to this behavior because , within seconds , she lead him to a secluded area and offered him a water . she explained they got a lot of new fathers and that his behavior wasn’t anything new .
father . he was a fucking father . jesus christ .
but despite everything , it wasn’t as big of a shit show as he thought it would be .
he walked up the steps to harper’s house , a medium sized paper bag in one hand and a dragon stuffed animal in the other . he was being ridiculous . he was being stupid . rabastan turned around , ready to leave again before inwardly cursing . don’t be a pussy , he chastised himself . the man turned back around and , without giving himself the chance to rethink his choice , he knocked . // @macmillcns
