#sahf

aight umm first of all thank you so much for having an interest in these two’s relationship!!!!😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💕💕

im really comfortable to talk about it but honestly it’s obviously complicated and i dont really know the exact answers myself (for the time being i guess, because this concept is still new to me and i do plan on doing more of course)

*coughs* i’ll try to explain as best as i can. it can get long so i hope you dont mind reading this till the end😅

What is it??

the series is called ‘seungbae and his fan’ we short form it to ‘sahf’the girl/fan is basically me. seungbae is seungbae. ummm… okay so i am a fan of seungbae because i really like him for his physical appearance which is soooooooo my dream man (physically), both his clean tidy version and the scruffy messy version. seungbae is fucking handsome okay please agree with me😂 (i admit i drool over him a lot☠)

there are only either two of these meanings behind my sahf illustrations:

1. my love/hate relationship (as a fangirl and a ks reader) with seungbae. i hate him so fucking much because of everything he has done to my baby sangwoo duh😡😡😡😡😡😡😡 and i just love him because he’s soooo my type of guy 😩 EXAMPLE FOR THIS

2. portrayal of my feelings of a current situation that happened in my life, mostly the stressful/dark ones. for example if im mad at someone and i dont have the rights to talk back to them, i draw myself being mad at seungbae and make him fucking listen to me. if im sad af and there’s no one to comfort me, i draw seungbae comforting me. no one irl gets hurt🤷‍♀️ EXAMPLE FOR THIS

i decided to make it have a darker concept, so thats why i make it gore (poor seungbae.. but it dont matter cuz he’s immortal amirite *winks*)

Story??

it doesnt have a proper storyline. but you can see it’s post-chapter 67. the characters and whatever’s implied in the illustration is based on ks, with a little fanmade add ons.

seungbae and his fan live in sangwoo’s burnt house. sangwoo’s ashes are still untouched and scattered on the floor. the girl (me basically) sees sangwoo like her son and tries so hard in her own fucked up way to show sangwoo that she loves him genuinely, she can be his source of motherly love, he can always depend on her. she behaves around the house as if sangwoo’s still alive, she believes sangwoo would like to see her trying to kill seungbae. so she does as so. but yeah in this series seungbae is fucking immortal.🙂 about bum, im not sure. but i’d like to say the girl kept bum somewhere in the house. knowing that sangwoo constantly needs bum, they have to be together. so that’s why bum’s actually somewhere hidden in that house.

basically, she’s a yandere? but a motherly version; a mother who is obsessed with protecting and showering her child with all the love he needs. whoever makes his son sad gets killed - kind of yandere. please understand that the girl is NOT ALL about me, i just wanted to add a darker concept to it. so thats why it’s fucked up. will they have a character development? we’ll see. i do think it’s possible and will be more interesting too 😍

thats all i guess! i hope you understand even a little bit hahahah

here’s a smol comic i made that i posted on my ig story, about everytime they gon go to the basement they have to lean by the wall and move very slowly so that sangwoo’s ashes dont move.