#sadisideas

need new inspiration.

new situations

and conversations

a change in scenery

study a new theory

watch as the world gets scary

waiting for new ideas

something that can free us

from this drought

I sat directly under the full moon

I felt all the blessings shining down that are coming soon

I got life

Energy vibrating from within

I glow love

Because that’s what always wins

I am not as complete as the moon

And I prefer the sun at noon

But the light of the moon

Really makes me swoon

I’m falling in love with the life I’ve been given

Loving this energy that keeps me driven

Focused on my destination

I’m fighting the biggest battle within myself

And with him.

I wanna leave

But something keeps me here

I go thru this time and time again

I remember a time when

I said I’d never leave

Now I’m not so sure

I had my chance to walk out the door

I keep telling myself “no more”

I had several chances to walk out the door

Forever

But I stay

I go thru this time and time again

I always remember the time when

You said that one day we’d win

Together

Where is our forever ?

What is together?

You said we aren’t even together..

My flower

I watched as the seed was planted in my brain

That you would grow

And only be for me

But I no longer see the possibility of you becoming the best version of you

Not now at least

Because you don’t drink enough water

My lovely flower

You were growing

But still showing

signs that you weren’t ready to be picked

Silly me, I tried to sit by you and wait

I thought seeing you blossom was my fate

You were taking too long, my heart was filling with hate

Because you were consuming all of my energy

Turning me into someone I thought I’d never be

Mood swings

Pacified with the promise of a future wedding ring

My beautiful flower

I can’t keep sitting here waiting for you to grow

The process is entirely too slow

That’s your fault tho

Because you don’t drink enough water

So..

I’m going to go.

Because unfortunately, while I was waiting for you to grow

My own petals withered

My own feelings weren’t considered

But I’ve been drinking more water

And the suns energy is now mine

I’m healing

And feeling

But as for you, my precious flower, I cannot say the same

Because you’re too busy running game

Baby youre my drug

You get me high

As we get high

I lie down next to you you

And you lie and say things are fine...

Come here sip on this henney like it’s fine wine

And unwind your mind

For me

Let me pick you apart lovingly

Explore the universe in your eyes

Watch you as you make your way down to my thighs

Spread me like butter on your bread

Eat away my sorrows, give me ..

Head in the clouds

Sweet oblivion

Why bother coming down?

It’s you I’m with, I’ll forever be down

dont look down

LOVE,

I’ve called out your name before, you were never there

But here you seem to appear

On this screen, but are you really here?

Or are you fooling

To get a taste of what I’ve got brewing

Deep in my soul, be careful with me, I’m bout to grow

And I don’t need anything stopping my flow

Your words were pleasing to me

But it’s difficult for me to see

your true intention.

Are you a bad wave passing through my aura to slow Down my ascension

To my crown chakra?

I’m tripping how did I get here from you just saying let’s collaborate on a stanza

Give me a second, lemme calm down, focus on my mantra...

That’s my mind, always thinking the worst

So that’s a place Where I don’t think you want to immerse into

Or maybe you do..

Tell me LOVE, who sent you?

Sincerely,

because he had hurt me

I was just trying to give him “a taste of your own medicine”

I was just textin.

It was supposed to leave him crying..

Instead it left me crying

I was supposed to feel like a “savage”

Man, I was so busy trying to hurt him

Because he had hurt me

So deeply

I wanted him to feel my pain so badly

That I ended up hurting him...

And hurting a man who really loves you

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