#saddiary

I am here.

Working at AMH, transferring to a surgical floor in January (exciting).

I am adored by a very good man. He opens doors and attends to me appropriately. He buys me everything (what a life!). Mueller says the right things and never lets me down. He is the best man I've ever had. I even think I love him. But. I am still bottomless.

He chose to stay here for me. He says no one has ever made him this happy. He bought me a beautiful necklace for xmas. He invited me to NY to meet the rest of his family. He is amazing yet tortures me exactly how I like. He does anything I want, but he's strong and critical. A masters degree in philosophy. We go everywhere and he thinks I'm "hot". We fuck in the kitchen and outside under the stars. I think about the moon and what he will cook me next. 

I am only for him now. All others are cut out. 

He knows how to use me but make me feel special.