#s5.2

Um, yeah, well, I almost didn't,  Because, you know, I-- I screwed up, didn't I, and people got hurt. It seems like you figured it out that, um, you know, I'm drinking again, and-- and, you know, I just-- I don't want to be any--any trouble. I'm just sorry it-- sorry it didn't work out, you know.

Ok, Quentin, that's-- that's not going to work for me.

What?

You leaving and hitting the bottle again, ok? No, I think we can do better than that.

I've been to meetings.

Not a meeting. A job. How does Deputy Mayor sound?

You want to--you want to hire a drunk to be your deputy mayor, huh? What, Oliver's approval ratings are not low enough?

If we were hiring a drunk, that would be a very good point, but that is not what we are doing. We are hiring the former captain of the SCPD who-- who just lost his daughter and is honoring her memory by dedicating himself to the city that she loved. Ok, what do you think about that one?

I think maybe the wrong Queen ran for mayor.

Look, Ollie, he told me you said that you needed a reason to stay sober, so I thought maybe this could be it.

Yeah, maybe it could.

As if I neded more reasons to love Thea Queen. But listen – she is doing this because it’s who she is. because she believes in second chances and also because one of the first people that actually gave her a second chance – was Laurel. (oliver doesn’t count because oliver would bail thea out on of literally anything every single time. But laurel went on faith.) When she went to her dad and asked him to give Thea a chance in s1.

And Thea is the person who doesn’t just brush away what people do for her, when they stand by her. She internalizes that. (which is also one of the reasons she has such a hard time getting rid of the shit Malcolm planted in her.) Thea won’t give up on people just because its easier. She will pull you up by the hair If she has to.

Well, that was-- that was going to be my line to you.

For the first time in a--a long time, I'm really starting to feel like myself again. I'm not a killer. I'm--I'm--I'm not a vigilante. I am-- I am a normal version of me. And I think just after everything that happened with Laurel, I-- I really needed to know that life like this was even possible, and now that I do, I-- I don't want to give it up.

Yeah. Yeah, yeah. I--I get where you're coming from. I do. I lost my job, I lost my-- I lost my daughter, I lost my girl, and, you know, I just wanted to hit pause on the world, you know?

Yeah.

But then I, uh-- you know what, I listened to Oliver's speech. You know, that's when I realized that I-- I can't do that. I can't hit pause on the world. I got to get on with my life, you know? Even if that life isn't what I want it to be.

Thea doesn’t want to hit pause on her life. thea doesn’t want THAT life. she doesn’t want the violence. Her REAL ME is not fighting, is not speedy. She wants to be Thea. She has chosen Thea and she has realized that being Speedy hinders that, so she dropped it. She doesn’t want to mesh the two together, because she doesn’t like who she is and the choices she makes when she is in the suit. She KNOWS that she can have a worthy happy life as only herself – she is realizing it slowly working for Oliver. She likes herself this way. Thea is actually making smart choices here.