#s.trysi

they’re sooooo *tearing my hair out and sobbing uncontrollably* like, do you get it?

honestly, they are peak high school romance to me… the epitome of “true love between inexperienced teens, both facing the outside world and life after high school and realizing that they will never be with each other forever”…. i like the romance of “childhood friends to lovers” as much as the next person, but i think that tris and chrysi’s love story is so good on account of the fact that there’s a definite end to it. there’s a point of no return, and it’s just a part of growing up and growing apart.

((if you’d asked the memorie of two years ago about how she viewed tris and chrysi, i think she’d burst into tears… the trysi love story is kinda the way that i’ve come to terms with this in-between age of watching all my high school friends move to different states and go to different colleges and to drift apart because of life. so that’s a huge part of why it kinda hurts to think of trysi, and also why it’s so compelling to me))

the impact they have on each other is also indelible, since they’ve been a huge part of each other during those formative years. they haunt each other to no end. all of chrysi’s romantic blockages come from her breakup with tris (he’s “the one that got away” for her, just like she’s the same for her… they’re not soulmates, but they definitely have a connection that makes them wish they were…), and obviously all of tris’s art—music and writing—revolve around chrysi.

i just… love their relationship and the way it’s centered so much around nostalgia, wistfulness, and the wish to go back in time just to experience less conflicted moments. their attempts to get back together in the present is also just… very painful. an attempt to go back to being those teenagers with simple ideas of love, when they’re both adults with a lot of pain and more world-experience, is very difficult for them. and in the end, they’re both not mature enough to do it.

your trysi post was the last thing i read before going to sleep and i think it seeped into my subconscious because i had a dream about chrysi and tris arguing. seems normal yes? actually no, we were in a car and they were arguing in the front seat while i was stuck in the backseat like a toddler

(don’t remember the details of the argument but i think it started cus tris got mad at chrysi for constantly putting her life in danger without caring how that affects the ppl around her, namely him, and it was getting HEATED okay)

but the funniest part was. every few minutes i’d interject like ‘hey do you guys wanna play i spy’ or ‘hey did you guys see that bird? tris quick turn around so we can get a second look at that bird’ and id just be. Completely ignored.

that’s all i remember from the dream btw. but im just baffled because like… wow. What did i learn from this? i have no future as a couples counselor