#ryuspooki

1. who is your most hated anime character? if you don’t hate any character, which one is your least favorite? why?

l lawliet. fuck that guy. i hate that guy. get that fucker away from me i will literally eat my laptop i hate him so much. (no but I DON'T KNOW i've not thought about this question it never occurred to me like ??? idk ask me about my faces not my least faves)

2. what is your #1 ship? 

*romantic music plays in the background* *and by romantic music i mean the second death note opening* l x light oops

3. how did you get into the main fandom you’re in right now? how long have you been in it?

it was laura's fault. i read/watched dn originally in 2011, was all like "the fuck is this????" read a bunch of fic and wanted to write some but figured the fandom was dead so eventually lost interest. then like a year ago-ish? i ran into her brill fic while looking for dn porn and i was like WOW THIS PERSON IS COOL I WANT TO BE HER FRIEND and when she got a dn blog i got a dn blog (mostly to talk to her because i'm a loser). that was like february?? and then i discovered that dn tumblr fandom, while small, does exist and i've met some of the most important people in my life through it and god, i love you bunch of fuckers so much, did you know that?

4. do you speak any other language other than english? 

~the language of love~ no but i took 4 years of spanish and still have no idea what hola means so no.

5. what is your favorite game?

video game? board game? sex game? YOU HAVE TO SPECIFY. (no but my cousin, who used to work at gamestop, told me that people would come in all the time and ask if they had monopoly ahahahaha)

idk man i like the dragon age games.

6. do you ship eremin? how hard do you ship it?

heh heh not really? i don't have any major ships in snk (i like levi x haji, levi x erwin, levi x everyone first and foremost) but i have nothing against any of them, eremin included. it's just like, armin is 12 okay. i don't care if he's 15, ARMIN IS 12 AND I CAN'T SHIP HIM.

(although that may not be it bc near is 12 - HE IS 12 - and i ship him and mello twice around the block thank you)

7. what is one thing that never fails to make you laugh?

8. if you could start your life over, would you?

are you for real tho? maaaaan no way, my life's just begun. maybe when i'm like 80 and have made a bunch of stupid mistakes or else just have a bad back, but not no way. living through the whole 'being a kid with barely-formed opinions who no one listens to anyway' thing once was bad enough. i like who i am. i wouldn't want to undo it.

9. what other animes have you seen?

in rough chronological order:

bubblegum crisis: tokyo 2040 (seriously i watched this with my sister and my dad when i was like 8???), full metal alchemist (the first one), baccano!, black butler, no. 6, last exile, eden of the east, speedgrapher, yugioh (some of it anyway), nabari no ou, durarara!!, attack on titan, free!, probably more?

10. has a fictional character’s death ever made you actually cry? who’s, if any?

fucktons, man. curiously, i never have cried while reading or watching death note, but i find it's probably because it's such an emotionally distanced piece of fiction. like, i have def cried over characters in death note VEHEMENTLY, but not ever about them dying.

11. if you could live in any anime with a guarantee of not dying until you’re really old, which one would it be?

man, probably durarara!!, honestly, just because the tone is so enjoyable and it's the kind of thing that feels like it has a place for the ~everyman~ (aka me). also MODERN TOKYO /swoons

1. so what the fuck do you want out of life? do you know? do you care?

2. what's your favorite book? (i'm p sure i asked this last time i did one of these, but it's an important question to me.) if you don't read then idk talk about a piece of fiction or a song or a quote that's had a tremendous effect on you.

3. what's the worst thing about you?

4. what's the best thing about you?

5. describe your otp in ten words or less. go!

6. how do you feel about aiber? (note: you will be graded on this question.) (disclaimer: no you will not.)

7. describe your favorite kind of weather.

8. finish this sentence: "death note au where everything is the same except… "

9. but how do you feel about beyond birthday???

10. tell me something nice about your day?

11. have you changed much in the last year? do you hope to change by next year? tell me about it, man.

the people i'm tagging:

- fascisting

- agothicletterl

- ryuspooki

- dreaminginthebackseat

- mssrlawliet

- femslashes

- imstilltakingyourcake

- spookygevanni

- ladyalchemist

- lawlieting

so if you need to talk about anything tonight, i can stay up with you and go through it with you

ryuspooki replied to your post: hello world i’ve been lagging a bit on the...

honey you are amazing and you don’t need to be apologizing for anything. also i love you and you’re one of the nicest people ever and if you need to talk about anything i am here anytime. i’ll be staying up studying for chemistry anyway

heather you are so so sweet and you don't know how much i appreciate the offer. i would take you up on it if i needed to but - the thing is, i'm not really sad right now? i'm so much less sad than i've been in such a long time and i think it's probably because i'm finally being honest with myself. i have fucked up. i have done things wrong. i have been very selfish and treated people who i care about a lot very unfairly. maybe it's not obvious from my blog but there are certain people who i'm sure it's very obvious to.