#rxphaels

I like you // I love you // I’m indifferent toward you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’m jealous of you // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’m attracted to you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I respect you // I want your respect // I feel protective of you // I’d like to cut loose with you // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // You’re nice // You’re mean // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I want an apology from you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better

I like you // I love you // I’m indifferent toward you // You’re one of my best friends // You’re like family // You are family // I dislike you // I hate you // I’m jealous of you // I’m scared of you // I would adopt you // I’m attracted to you // I’d date you // I’d sleep with you // I’d marry you // I’m worried about you // You confuse me // You’re annoying // I respect you // I want your respect // I feel protective of you // I’d like to cut loose with you // You’re good-looking // I’m suspicious of you // I’m hiding something from you // You’re fun // You’re boring // You’re nice // You’re mean // You’re smart // You’re stupid // I think you’re a better person than me // I think I’m a better person than you // I want to apologize to you // I want an apology from you // I wish I’d never met you // I never want to forget you // I want to get to know you better 

He hates that Raphael can’t see how good and worthy he truly is. He hates that he doesn’t see himself the way Abel sees him. He hates that there aren’t enough languages to say “i love you” in, and that there aren’t enough variations of the word to suffice. He hates that Raphael is in such close quarters with Asmodeus; and by the same merit, he hates himself for being jealous of something ridiculous. He hates that he’s not good enough for Raphael, and he hates that one day he’ll have to admit it. He hates that Raphael is so much better than him at so many things, because how can he deserve someone like that? He hates that Raphael has to be strong enough for the both of them because he’s stuck in the rut that he’s not good enough. He hates that Raphael doesn’t see what a pure and godly soul he is, and that he can’t tell him because he’s weak -- that’s what he hates the most. 

“Am I turnin’ red? Oh gosh, I can feel my cheeks goin’ -- don’t look at me, I’m turnin’ all red! Listen, listen, look, just -- Raphael’s -- he’s just -- I’m still red, aren’t I? I just wanna kiss him all the time, and hold his hand, and hug him, and kiss him some more, and listen to him tell stories, and hold his hand while he tells stories, and then kiss him again, and then -- what? Oh, he just -- he’s m’best friend in the whole world, and I want to make him as happy as he makes me, which is a tall order because I’m the happiest person in the whole world when he’s around. And I want to make him that happy too, becuase he deserves to be happy, becuase he does so much good and doesn’t even realize it. Gosh, he’s so good. So nice. So nice. So good. I just love him so much; he’s just my favorite thing in the whole world, even more than... well, than anything else. He’s just so smart, and so funny, and he tells the best jokes, and has the best stories -- and did you know that he speaks a ton of languages? I know how many, I just... can’t really think of ‘em right now. But he speaks so many languages, and he’s so good at singing, and at art, and he writes so well, too. Have you ever heard him tell a story? Bet anyone could fall in love with him, just from listening to him tell a story. But that’s too bad for them, becuase I fell in love with him first! He’s my Raph. My wonderful, perfect, beautiful Raph. Love him, love him, love him.”

“You got a muffin, too? I don’t have one; where is everyone getting these muffins? Raph, will you share yours with me?”

[text]: !!!!!!!!!!!!!![text]: COME BE WITH ME THEN[text]: i’m serious, i don’t want just anyone[text]: and for the record you’re the most beautiful bitch