â you could still be what you want to be. â
how treacherous hope could be.  naivety,  fools tongue  &  heart.  adely looks on,  sees the light that flickers within the girlsâ hues and wishes she could snatch it for herself.  allison has known grief,  so fatal a company,  and she stands with fairness  &  offers so delicate of thoughts,  yet.  how has she fostered such strength?  how has she not given to the addictive weight of a saddened,  sorrow-lorn heart?  mortal flesh rang so purely,  bones grown weaker with time,  when such a concept had become long lost to herself.  Â
dusk had long since tangled itself with the dawn, Â and still she was not able to keep still, Â could not find solace in the idea of home. Â it was a faithless duty to protect that which was destroyed so maliciously; Â she could not be everywhere at once. Â Â
trees have fallen  &  stems snapped in her absence.  every moment was precious and yet she could no longer tell the difference between an hours past and merely a brief instance.  what she wanted to be held no matter  ââ -  a girl,  a lover,  a vessel of age  &  grief.  something death could touch.  (  so divine it must be,  becoming one with the soil beneath their feet.  and yet every being she had crossed who would know such a fate found themselves defined by the years they had left,  rather than sapping them for what they were worth.  )  she had no choice.  she had no choice.  this is what she needed to be.   this was all she could be.     â  iâve grown tired trying to believe such things.  you are kind,  to see in me what i canât for myself.  iâm not quite sure who i am anymore,  let alone what i wish to be. âÂ