#runninglist

-its possible to have feelings for more than one person at the same time, but do not act on those feelings at the same time. Pick the one who is worth fighting for.

-remember that other people have feelings too

-guilt is perhaps one of the worst emotions one can experience

-acting without thinking is one of the worst things you can do

-do not start a relationship with someone until you are over your ex

-Just because you want something to happen does not mean that it will. And when it doesn't happen, it does not mean that the world is ending. It probably happened for a reason.

-not everybody heals the same way as you

-ADMIT WHEN YOU ARE WRONG. you gain nothing by not doing so.

-Do not lie to yourself

-You learn something from everybody who walks into your life

-when the universe tries to tell you something, listen to it

-You are allowed to be selfish sometimes, as long as it does not hurt others

-you are allowed to make mistakes

-YOU ARE ALLOWED TO MAKE MISTAKES. some are just harder to come back from.

-the ones who forgive you are the ones worth keeping around

-let yourself feel in order to heal

-it's possible to meet the right person for you at the wrong time in your life

-do not EVER give up on yourself.

-you WILL be happy again, even if it seems too far out of reach right now

-NEVER set unrealistic expectations for yourself

-DO NOT assign yourself the role of being somebody's everything

-you are NOT just "somebody's girlfriend/boyfriend/wife/husband". That is just one small part of your life, not your entire worth.

-your mistakes do not reflect your entire self-worth.

-make sure your mind is healthy before you get into a relationship

Wilhelm - Wulf

Rory - Macaroon

Edmond - Sunshine

Rasmus - Razzle Dazzle

Jean - Warlock

Gideon - Giddy-Up

Wings - Hail

1. Facebook (first a social network, now trying for a Facebook-centric internet in which Facebook is THE way that humans connect with each other)

2. Google (first a search engine, now expanding onto all fronts to be THE way that you experience the internet; see Facebook)

3. TED Talks (first a publicized conference, now trying to become THE brand for publicizing ideas)

4. Burning Man "Project" (first a ragtag festival for free expression, now seems to be tending toward something more controlled)

5. Central Intelligence Agency

6. Religious Organizations (some, not all)

there seems to be a troubling tendency in human behavior to go from an innocent first expression (and if that first manifestation becomes popular and thereby gains power) to a self-interested entity that often tries to spread beyond its original purpose in order to increase its influence.

i had an analogous experience being involved in a fledgling community art-space in Brooklyn.  it's eerie to observe how grabby and possessive people become (myself included) once they realize that things are coming together and people are enjoying what they've created.

in my own mind i've started labeling this trend as the basic operation of the ego.  all human beings start innocent, do things according to honest impulses (what else could they do?), and in doing so they create a self-reflective identity (that's "me") that eventually overgrows and begins to dictate (rather than simply demarcate) their behavior (oh, "i" can/can't/should do that).

identifying and extricating the parts of you that are subjugated to the ego is the foremost mission of awareness.  most human beings are subjugated to their egos, and therefore are "not aware" or "unconscious," to use vocabulary found in the Matrix and spirituality texts.

i would LOVE to find (or eventually write) a book that focuses on precisely this tendency in human organizations (see: government) and how it can be identified and purged.