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ămaxence danet-fauvel & nonbinaryăâž samuels, viktor, the senior radcliffe studentâs records show that he/they are a capricorn and 24 years old. he/they are studying visual arts, living in noland and can be observant, ingenious, reticent & dependent. when i see him/them i am reminded of a sculptorâs hands clay-ridden, the insistent hum of tv static, and a crying preacher inside a dusty funeral home. â˝ăjames & 21 & est & they/them.ă
hllo !!! iâm james n hereâs one of my big idiot muses <3 heâs not actually dumb heâs :/ a bit evil. bt thts okay hes still <3 beloved <3 LKDSFHLSADLKGFSHLKD anyways!
TW DEATH, HEAVY GRIEF, OVERDOSE / DRUG ADDICTION, HOSPITALIZATION, HYPERSEXUALITY, RELIGION MENTIONS, MENTAL ILLNESS
aesthetic.
old tvs and their static, worn tapes, horror movie screams, spilled ink, a sculptorâs hands, clay-stained, chicken scratch handwriting, messy notes, messy hair, scoffs and eye-rolls, bruised knuckles, sore throats, funeral homes and a crying preacher, shattered ceramics, knife fights, high ledges, vertically-striped pants, red lights, the moon shrouded in clouds, cigarette butts, graveyards and half-empty wine bottles, sitting there for hours and talking to nothing, about nothing, a god complex, gold rings adorning both hands, barbwire baseball bats, having never played baseball in your life, deep eyebags and broken mirrors, a permanent chip on oneâs shoulder, yearning, longing, wishing.
basic info.
full name: viktor phillip samuels
nickname(s): icky vicky :/
b.o.d. - jan 2nd
label(s): the black hole, the crepehanger, the impious, the opaque, the tempest, etc.
height: 6â˛1âł
hometown: rochester, new york
sexuality: pansexual uwu
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inspired by: beetlejuice (beetlejuice), sid (toy story), jack sparrow (pirates of the caribbean), francis wilkerson (malcolm in the middle), azula (avatar: the last airbender), vicky (the fairly oddparents), stu macher / billy loomis (scream), marshall lee (adventure time), bojack horseman (bojack horseman), any itâs always sunny character :/
biography.
born to mama and papa (preacher) samuels in rochester, new york - fifteen minutes after his twin sister, tatiana samuels. years later, rosa samuels joined the gang.
was an awkward, quiet kid growing up, he didnât interact well with others and preferred being left alone to dig up worms and draw on the walls of their childhood home. the only exception was his twin, really.
as he got older he grew out of this, but instead became like ⌠sort of an asshole? maybe to compensate for years of childhood awkwardness. heâs the sort of person who will bite the hand that feeds him & developed into a full time nuisance by middle school, unlike tatiana who was much more subtle about her conniving manners.
always has been a fan of âdarkerâ materials. grim & creepy morbid shit. probably the biggest tim burton fan, ever since he was a kid ⌠not a good look for a preacherâs son, but he never really felt âinâ with the rest of his family to begin with. classic black sheep syndrome.
drew disturbing pictures as a kid that probably prompted one or two or five phone calls home to assure everything was fine.
just really had a knack for art at a young age, from drawing to painting to playing with clay. itâs always been his Thing and probably is the only thing heâs good at.
being twins with tatiana was hard. they were near opposite besides both being quite mean-spirited. tatiana handled being in public better, left a better image behind - but viktor had talent, more than she did. they loved each other deeply - yâknow, those unbreakable twin bonds as cliche as it sounds - but found each other as competition for their parentsâ attention. a rivalry for affection.
in high school is when viktor really started to act out. it started extreme, like losing his virginity in their church and vandalism around the neighborhoods. faked being possessed in the middle of sunday service & almost had an exorcism performed on him.
his only redeemable trait was like ⌠just his sheer talent in the arts. was in a 3D art AP course and specialized in sculptures. he could pretty much create anything he wanted with enough dedication.
because he was the problem child, the one who deserved to be disciplined for all his antics, tatiana could sneak away and get away with whatever she wanted much easier. on the bright-side, for her, i guess.
not a very motivated person - wasnât planning on going to college, much less going to radcliffe but his parents literally wrote & sent his college application for him because they werenât going to house a deadbeat but had too much heart to kick him out onto the streets. cool!
heâs actually pretty smart but he just doesnât apply himself. has a minor in english because he didnât care for an extra course-load, but heâs good at writing & analyzing literature. is going to use it to write and illustrate his own series of children books with a style similar to tim burtonâs. not for the kids, but because he likes to leave a trail of terror in whatever he does.
has been experimenting with himself since high school but college is where he really had started to crack down on himself. was out as pansexual & nonbinary by his sophomore year of college just ⌠not to his parents, who donât really need to know.
if you asked him if he believed in twins having a psychic connection with each other - heâd tell you he wouldnât know. it felt believable at times, but sometimes he had no idea what was going on inside of tatianaâas head. on the other hand - viktor had always felt oddly transparent to her, like she knew all of his moves before he did. the only person who could predict him accurately.
( TW DEATH, GRIEF, OVERDOSE / HOSPITALIZATION BEYOND THIS POINT )
when tatiana disappeared, viktor knew something was up. it was a twist in his gut, pure instinct that something wasnât right. and it wasnât right - and when she was proclaimed missing, they couldnât find her.
and when tatiana died - viktor knew. it felt wrong, something cut so severely in him he could pinpoint her death to the second. he didnât know how, or why, but he knew it. knew it before anybody else had.
afterwards he went on a sort of bender. heâd begun to struggle with a mild drug addiction late senior year of high school / early college, but he was managing it up until this point.
his mental health had also sunk to an all-time low, when itâd never been great to begin with. (manic & depressive episodes. once fixated on a sculpting project for six months and then knocked it off the table and destroyed it as soon as he finished it for no apparent reason.)
tatianaâs body wasnât found immediately, and when it was ⌠viktor went off the rails. ended up overdosing & being hospitalized. spent six months in & out of psychiatric care after that.
came back to radcliffe to finish his senior year because ⌠for the reasons above, he hadnât been able to complete it. just wants to get his credits and get out of here.
is still dealing with a lot of trauma & grief, especially since the one year anniversary of tatianaâs death was this month (january) - causes him to spiral and be unpredictable in regards of his mental health. he stopped taking his medication, so. :/ some days are alright, other days are pretty bad.
UPDATE: now that summerâs come n go ... viktor hs been thru <3 a lot <3 recently. switched therapists (his :/ last one got her license revoked) & started new medications, went to a treatment center briefly âcos .. he wasnât doing too well :/ bt now heâs back baybey! trying to be better n trying to be sober but ... :/
personality.
the human embodiment of a gremlin that was fed after midnight. a goblin, if you will. one of those cats with a narrow head and really big ears ⌠thatâs them!
a big horror & halloween enthusiast. loves the old campy horror movies & probably has an abundance of masks from different movies. dresses like a grimy millennial beetlejuice more than they should because they just ⌠love those black & white vertical-striped pants.
can appreciate the lore & cryptids at radcliffe and likes to feed into the fear that surrounds them. is probably the cause of a few âanomaliesâ and âparanormal sightingsâ because theyâre just ⌠a jerk.
fashion alternates between e-boy (they would be tiktok famous if they were 17 & didnât think that a majorly minor based app was weird.), millennial beetlejuice, and goth in a crop top & sweatpants. big fan of crop tops and a big fan of sweatpants.
they can be really fucking mean? petty, aggressive, a major instigator. will literally spit in your face for little to no reason, you could just look at them the wrong way. the kind of person who will stick their gum into someone elseâs hair. other than that? theyâre like ⌠sort of okay. theyâre not always mean, just a dick about 90% of the time lmao
like okay yeah theyâll call someone a stinky bitch for no reason except they feel like it and believes it. itâs fine, theyâre fine, weâre fine.
despite the fact that theyâre probably getting into a fight whenever, considers themself to be a lover and not a fighter but thatâa primarily because they fuck a lot. uses it as a coping mechanism, like theyâre this big fancy carnival show thatâs like âcome one, come all! fuck the dead girlâs twin brother!â and itâs ⌠a Lot. might have a problem with hypsersexuality but theyâre not fully aware of it.
the preacherâs whore son, basically :)
pansexual & nonbinary, switches between he & they pronouns often and without a pattern, but they have such a fragile grip on their identity that you could call them âdog-faced bitchâ and theyâd turn around like. sup.
vastly impulsive ⌠like i said, they destroy their own creations for the fun of it. spends all teir money on useless shit, will cheat on someone because they feel like it & likes the thrill, screams into the night sky frequently like a cat in heat.
will also spend months creating useless shit for no reason too. spent six of them sculpting a hollowed out tree the size of them & then took a sledgehammer to it.
theyâre very super dramatic. would play the organ at church when nobody was looking after them and service was about to start. would just churn out these super haunting, creepy melodies like they were phantom of the opera. would do the same exact thing at home on their keyboard with the pipe organ setting whenever they got grounded until their parents took it away HBDSJFNGKH
will absolutely not talk about their âtime awayâ because itâs not anyoneâs business, not even their own younger sister. still refuses to talk about tatianaâs death, or their mental health, or their addiction (fallen back into it but it hasnât gotten severe ⌠yet :/), or anything involving their own emotions.
will just change the topic abruptly, no warning. asks about the jonas brothers instead and they fucking hate the jonas brothers.
that being said theyâre absolutely not over tatianaâs death & itâs to the point of obsession over it. like thereâs some kind of secret that needs to be uncovered, even though there just. isnât. tatiana was their rock and they were pretty much dependent on her. kept them grounded. could control them when nobody else could, got into their head easier than others. itâs sort of like rosa lost two siblings that day because viktor hasnât been the same since.
emotionally unavailable while also crying twice a day. cries during their brawls but still wins. is stony-faced when they tell you they cheated on you with your much hotter best friend.
will tell you straight up what they want from you, no bullshit & no beating around the bush. just blunt. if they want to fuck, nothing else, then thatâs it. if they feel deviation or developing feelings then theyâll ghost in less than a second. is awful like that but feels no shame.
but also emotional as shit and itâs confusing. will cry on a whim and then flip you off if you try to console them or ask them whatâs up. will bite you.
they go to therapy but they just fuck around and wastes their therapistsâ time ⌠also is fucking their therapist, but thatâs neither here nor there. so theyâre not really getting the help they need.
likes to be intimidating but not ⌠with their body or anything because theyâre a TWIG but uses their love & knowledge of horror and creepy shit to their advantage. has an abundance of fake blood. has channeled the energy of jack nicholson and used it on tatianaâs boyfriends before (also is a big fan of sfx makeup & has dabbled in it)
probably chases kids around with a chainsaw without the chain on halloween every year.
generally never doing good, both mental health wise & morally. would probably steal candy from a baby for funsies.
i donât know if thereâs a good to them somewhere deep down, but they donât see any issues with themself either. nothing really breaks through to them anymore because the only person who ever made them stop and think about their actions was tatiana, and well, yâknow. :/
an introverted reclusive type who doesnât like most people or going out, but does so anyway if it means a quick high & a cheap thrill.
pretty observant and likes to analyze people even though theyâre often like ⌠partially wrong. judgmental because they like to make people feel bad, not because theyâre a righteous mighty person. because theyâre not. so like, a hypocrite!
wanted connections.
a roommate⌠but itâs an absolute nightmare to live with him.
enemies⌠because viktor would have a lot of themâŚ
familiar faces⌠people who knew tatiana or of her / were her friends. maybe even those who dated her, and who viktor wouldâve tried to intimidate / scare at any given chance :/
pitiful glances⌠people who take pity on viktor and he hates it sooo much.
hooligan gremlin kids⌠just a friend group of grown ass adults who do drugs and fuck shit up around town like theyâre edgy teenagers.
high school girlfriend⌠probably the one he lost his virginity to inside his family church :/
childhood acquaintances⌠people who knew him from his youth.
exes⌠good & bad terms, but mostly bad terms because viktor is an actual demon. probably cheated on them.
soft⌠i donât know if heâs soft towards anyone and/or is capable of it but we can try. we can try.
unrequited⌠either viktor just doesnât like them or heâs holding back because heâs :/ got issues with relationships & is self-sabotaging as one does
enemies with Tension⌠of the ⌠spicy kind if you know what i mean. wink.
friends⌠old friends, new friends, bad friends, good friends, close friends, frenemies, etc. i donât know how many he had but if your muse likes to cause a ruckus and fuck shit up then viktorâs your man.
hook-ups⌠current or old. friends with benefits, one night stands, anything and everything because he fucks around a lot.
ride or die⌠friendship but make it extreme.
bad influence⌠heâs just toxic to be around and brings out the worst in people :/
bad egg⌠heâs gotten into a few fights :/ maybe you witnessed it. maybe you were in it.
ăluke hemmings & cis maleăâž evans, dominic, the senior radcliffe studentâs records show that he is a cancer and 23 years old. he is studying business management, living in perkins and can be reliable, intuitive, irresolute & temperamental. when i see him i am reminded of an extra set of hands to help carry groceries, cold leftovers eaten after hours in the glow of a refrigerator light, stinging eyes and stubbly cheeks.Â
hello! iâm ella and iâm excited to rp with everyone. apologies for the late intros (iâm playing dom & freya) but if ur down to clown (plot), hit that like and iâll message you!!
(death tw, alcoholism tw) dominic grew up with a pretty decent, loving childhood. it was just him, his mom, miriam, and dad, stephen. to keep it brief, things took a turn for the worse once dominic hit thirteen â his dad had a work-related accident at the construction site he was overseeing and unfortunately passed away. it was tough on the already small family, but dominic never really got much of a chance to grieve. he had to step up for his mom, especially since she fully wallowed in her grief â drinking too much, not able to keep up with everyday demands. things were only made worse as the family got caught up in a lawsuit with stephenâs work. a settlement was reached at a lower sum than promised. his aunt lived with them for a bit, but as his mom spiraled not many people wanted to be around her, so the aunt didnât stay long. his mom went back and forth â some days better than the rest. she started to get reliant on other men and whenever she was in a relationship that was going well, she was back to a semblance of her old self and to a better place.
her relationships didnât last long. through all of this, dominic was just sort of picking up the pieces. he took on a job alongside school to help provide and pick up expenses. he made sure his mom was fed. he kept her on the right path when he could, which was usually whenever she was single. breakups were the lowest points for her. dominic sort of got into the habit of living his life out for her instead of himself, so he was neglecting lots of himself unfortunately.
going to college was something he struggled with. there was the financial burden, the fact that he had to take care of his mom, etc. a part of him did want to do it, get away for a bit, and actually do this one thing for himself. another part of him was overriden with guilt over the whole ordeal. during that point in his life, his mom was in a new relationship and this guy was a mess. dominic didnât approve and he was getting frustrated so he was gonna say fuck it iâm leaving (but lbr he probs wasnât either way) but then surprise! his mom was pregnant. dominicâs half-brother, franklin, was born when he was eighteen. dominic took the year off highschool to look out for him bcâŚ.his mother was Too Busy. her relationship went sour and she was off the rails for a bit.Â
again, dominicâs sweet aunt stepped in as much as she could. she was the one that encouraged him to go ahead and give college a try. he eventually ended up applying to radcliffe bc it was local. he lived at home for the first year, so he was still able to care for his mom and brother. also, more affordable. his brotherâs now five and heâs able to go to preschool, and his motherâs currently on the better side of things -- sober and has a job, although there are lapses in her sobriety. the latest lapse was at the end of his junior year, so dominicâs been more hyperfocused on his family than he usually is (which is still a lot).Â
this is his second year working as an RA at perkins because who doesnât want free board while getting paid and reigning in students who want to be meddlesome! dominic still continues his job at the local supermarket as well when he can pick up shifts, since he has a good relationship with the manager. he makes frequent trips back home and sometimes you can catch franklin hanging out with him at campus.
other fun facts is that heâs a cancer. heâs a pretty easy going, very emotionally intelligent. i think heâs super good at adapting his moods to whatever situation is at hand. for example, heâs able to fuck around and have fun at a party but then when heâs working, heâs responsible. that being said, dominic is still big on his limits. heâs not someone to get drunk on a wednesday night for the hell of it. doesnât get high at all. has to-do lists to keep himself organized. overall though, i think he has a good balance of being able to have fun and remain grounded. he just refuses to be selfish in a way that would hurt his mom or brother or anyone else. as a person, i think heâs fairly well-adjusted despite everything (or at least comes off that way). his biggest faults are that he sacrifices so much of himself for others but it is what it is. drives an early 2000s green honda civic as well.
ăolivia holt & cis femaleăâž nilsen, freya, the junior radcliffe studentâs records show that she is a leo and 21 years old. she is studying marketing, living off-campus and can be assured, exuberant, facetious & remiss. when i see her i am reminded of a missing motherâs found necklace, sleeping through well-intentioned alarms, automated âto accept this call, press 3 nowâ messages seemingly on loop.
ella again! with her second character. again if u would like to plot, smash that like button and iâll hit u up!!
(addiction tw) freyaâs comes from a family that has plagued lovell for years with their stunning reputation! father, conrad nilsen, was a menace and there was more than enough stories about him from his heyday. mother, holly koch, came from a family where everyone was constantly at each otherâs throats. holly dealt with the drama of it all through drug use. as was common in hollyâs family, an accidental pregnancy was the next step and thus, freya was born. their happy family of three didnât last long. the reasons as to why her parents just ditched her are plenty if you wanted to explore them! a real baby is scarier than the idea of a baby, conrad had non-baby plans and holly wanted to follow after him, and finally, addiction is a bitch. freya grew up in her aunt fionaâs care for the majority of her life. Â
itâs not as if her parents suddenly disappeared from existence, although freya prefers pretending that they did. itâs easier to deal with them as nondescript figures in her life. and, at the end of the day, they ditched her. in reality, collect calls from correctional facilities let her figure out that her dadâs been locked up. memories of a woman in youth that looked so much like her and so much like fiona proved that holly was still in and out in lovell. freya also remembers that holly never acknowledged her as her own before disappearing once more. she never figured out if it was done purposefully or if it was because thatâs just the way her mother functioned. that being said, all potential contact with either parent was short and brief and freya learned to not let it mean anything. there hasnât been any substantial contact for years now either way.
as for freyaâs aunt, she was on the younger side when she took freya in and as she was being raised, it was more of a weird friendship/sibling sort of relationship rather than a proxy mother-daughter one. that meant freya had too much freedom, but it also meant there was a lot of screaming matches between the pair and a lot of times freya was left directionless. her aunt also loved serial dating so there was a lot of strange men in and out. not the most reputable guys either, but truth be told those men were providing them with financial support, so fiona was never quick to let them go.Â
very independent. freya has a lot of practical smarts, although most of the time itâs used for nothing good (knows how to shoplift without getting caught, can talk her way out of most things, knows how to get what from who). sheâs someone who does what she wants! discipline is foreign to her and god forbid if anyone tries it. in typical teenage fashion, heightened by the fact that life was set up for her to fail, sheâs always had this aura of apathy. her general approach to life is to accept it as it is but make sure sheâs having so much fun as well. of course, as most people do, there was an inkling of yearning there. the shiny gold possibility that she didnât have to become another nilsen-koch lovell deadbeat staple hung at the back of her mind. that she could possibly get out and have some dreams was encouraged by a few teachers. so she ended up trying as much as she could possibly try in her last few years of high school and proved to herself that she wasnât completely useless. although, it was soon clear that getting into a good out-of-state college requires more than just making an attempt -- extracurriculars and money and other obvious yet non-obvious things that freya lacked. at the end of the day, her best option was the local college at radcliffe, which wasnât a defeat by any means cause she had made it and it was college. still, she was stuck in lovell. she decided to major in marketing after her sophomore year. good at numbers and can talk the talk baby.
kind of always has her foot out the door though. it didnât take long for freya to fall back into old habits because her life is her life. thereâs always a lack of money, another man fionaâs caught up in, another wrench thrown in the works. her education has been spacey and has cracks, and iâll be honest, i donât think sheâll make it to graduation but sheâs here now! unfortunate bc sheâs the kind of person who could accomplish things if she cared or tried, but the problem is that she does not and no, she will not ask for help! she refuses to take anything seriously.
other fun facts is that sheâs a leo! she knows how to have fun and knows how to track down a party. i donât think sheâs someone that would ever bring the mood down. like i said she doesnât really get Deep about things so if your muse needs someone to fuck around with freya is your girl. if your muse needs help with something serious, she is not your girl! her general relationships and friendships are all over the place. i think sheâs someone who doesnât make much of an effort in anything, but will also be totally fine picking things up weeks later. thereâs a handful of relationships she holds closer than the rest, though. careless with people and things. catch her in your museâs favorite sweatshirt that went missing a week ago. currently working at the local diner, which she has been for a few years now. been known to pick up shifts in place of classes. follows paris hiltonâs advice of screwing things up the first time so you donât have to do them again. currently living in an off-campus apartment with lana, maggie, and rosa and lana frequently covers her part of the rent (blows her a kiss).
ălorenzo zurzolo & male/questioningăâž ambrose , elijah, the junior horton studentâs records show that he is an virgo and 21 years old. he is studying classics and econ, living in noland and can be charming, diligent, self-centered & vain. when i see him i am reminded of clenched teeth, pyrrhic victories & a laugh that comes to haunt you. â˝ămomo & 20 & est & any pronouns.ăÂ
âall stories are about wolves. all worth repeating, that is. anything else is sentimental drivel.â - margaret atwood
hi itâs momo ur resident mess and this is adapted from a previous intro i did so pls dont make fun of me if u catch mistakes. if u like this, iâm coming into ur dms to plot and, if u donât, iâm still yearning for connection with ur chara. pls. come validate my cliched average bacchanalian icarus bitch, toxic faerie princeling, dark academia fuccboi, dorian grey in the FLESH.
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AESTHETICS.
sunlight on skin in the morning, like ribbons of gold gleaming between tousled sheets. he throws his head back, laughing. if you do not love him, then you will now. clothes, always pressed. hair, meticulously in place. a dog-eared copy of a streetcar named desire in the crook of his arm. lies. they come so easy to boys like him. lies. tinged honey sweet to hide the fact that there is nothing but teeth behind them. youâve seen his face in a painting somewhere, youâre certain. and if not, then it haunts you in your dreams. kisses that always taste like champagne, no matter what time it is. if you cut him open, heâd be more red wine than blood. secrets. there is something heâs not telling you. secrets. something rotten behind that sweet-faced grin. walden and thoreau in place of a father figure. choosing dickinson instead of the mother he had. clenched teeth. pyrrhic victories. he wins, always, but at what cost? climb into his chest, now. ignore that miraculously still-beating heart. feel how hollow it is here? he has tried to fill this emptiness his whole life. he has never succeeded.
BULLETED BIO
TW parental issues
first off, say mommy issues into a mirror 3x and this bitch appears behind u like the demon he is
âthatâs it. thats the chara.
im jk but not rlly. eli is the only child to one of radcliffeâs esteemed feminism + gender studies professor (prof. vivianne ambrose) and their relationship has always been... rough
itâs not for lack of love. itâs just that-- sometimes, people are too alike. and itâs hard to apologize and express the love that you feel.
halfway âignoredâ by his mother, heâs spent his entire life trying to gain the attention and love of everyone around him. he definitely tries to shift his personality to be the person u want him to be--- but can only really settle on pretentious intellectual + wild child
so ig what iâm trying to say is that ... heâs the duality of man if both dualities were the WORST and most pretentious
mostly, whatâs happened is that the people who like him really like him. and the people who donât-- he refuses to spend the time of day on.
+ like ! i guess the best way to describe him is bright, glittering, hard to look at directly.
he wants u to want him.
but he doesnât want u to know him
classics n econ bc honestly, he wants to be a professor like his mom and teach classics or theatre BUT he refuses to admit it so heâs getting a double major in econ and telling himself heâs gonna be like a politician or lawyer or some other slick shit
he... ............... would make a good politician probably.Â
but still.Â
he rattles off a list of dream roles he wants to play. hamlet. coriolanus. oedipus. caesar. creon. gatsby. some are leads, some arenât. but most of all-- âtheyâre tragedies,â you say, âyou really like tragedies that much?â
he laughs glibly. âno--â he says, âgod, of course not. but theyâre the only things i can play. look, i know what i look like. i know what you think of me. deep down, you want nothing more than to see me suffer. on stage, you can.â
âand off-stage?â you ask tentatively. his eyes flash green, his lips press together almost imperceptibly, Â âoh come on. look at me. no oneâs ever going to deny me of what i want.â
itâs a lie, of course. but itâs a good one. and itâs one that he goes to sleep telling himself.
pls i beg u!! yes, heâs terrible, but, deep down, i think he wants to be good. i think he wants to be soft. but the only time he ever got his motherâs attention was when he was doing something wrong and itâs made his perception of how love is supposed to beâ skewed.
he definitely FEELS like an old soul, but he also probably has a very active thirst instagram using oscar wilde and margaret atwood quotes as captions
i hate him dearly pls
IMMA ADD MORE WANTED CONNECTIONS
people who have studied under/knows his mom -- ur too close. everytime he sees u he flinches. heâll walk in during ur consultation with his mother and the two of them will stiffly update each other on their day and ur like god dang what a weird ass relationship. alternately, heâll sit outside his motherâs office while ur doing consults. and u canât help but wonder... god... what kind of mom, would make her child wait.
friends/enemies/etc. from childhood --- he grew up near the university has always been around town
wld die for a childhood crush on him or from him, but likely from him bc thatâs cute af
a childhood friend that has always been his ride-or-die, even though theyâve definitely grown apart bc elijah has a fear of Emotional Intimacy!! but u knew him once and u know... thereâs a real boy behind that layer of pretense.
step/half-siblings !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! --- his mom might have remarried! his bio dad maybe is lurking out there with another family! who knows!
a tormentor --- for anyone who knows the ambrose family, itsâ not hard to see that the relationship btwn mom + son is strained. and like-- thatâs something eli is always gonna be sensitive abt. ur chara knows that eli isnât the hard shell he pretends to be. heâs just a soft boi longing for approval + that scares tf out of eli
people who eli hates -- mostly softs who remind him of his own failure to become completely unfeeling
rlly pretentious friends
unpretentious not friends
party friends
litcherally anything
neighbors
one night stands
fwbs
exes (elijah is tentatively pan, but objectively hates labels)
i live for apartment plots so pls hit me up if ur chara lives in noland
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giggles impishly as i whip this up........... a lot of u already kno teddy bt some dont n i am so excited fr the new members does a song n a dance fr them (its an irish jog niall horan style) n fr those tht do kno teddy a few updates r under the read more! Pleathe give this a like if u wanna plot :-)
ăharry styles & cis maleăâž lawrence , teddy, the senior radcliffe studentâs records show that he is an aquarius and 24 years old. he is studying dramatic arts, living in moris and can be charming, optimistic, reckless & melodramatic. when i see him i am reminded of yellow sweaters a size too big, laughter so infectious it carries on for minutes, excited cheering that can be heard throughout the entire party.
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TWâS FOR ABUSE, VIOLENCE, CHEATING, ALCOHOLISM, DRUGS, AND ADDICTION BELOW!
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name: theodore âteddyâ claude lawrence.
age: twenty-four.
gender identity: cis-male.
pronouns: he/him.
sexuality: pansexual.
birthday: february 13, 1996.
star sign: aquarius.
myers-briggs: enfp.
year of study: senior.
major: dramatic arts.
occupation: n/a.
place of birth: syracuse, new york.
religion: agnostic.
background.
annie holland met theodore rydel when she was 15, and by 16 teddy was born, but theodore wasnât there to see since he left pretty quickly after annie announced the pregnancy /:
ADDICTION/DRUGS TW -Â he was just a child too basically, and an addict alongside annie, just an all around bad person who was selfish and was more concerned over figuring out how to get more drug money than the fact that his âgirlfriendâ was pregnant
ABUSE TW -Â annie took care of teddy until he was around 2 with the help of her parents, but one weekend the neighbours finally called the police when they heard teddy screaming his little head off for 2 days straight - turned out that annie had gone out to score and got too high to head home, so teddy was immediately put into foster care - ADDICTION/DRUGS TW END
for most of his life he was sort of punted around from home to home, shelter to shelter, etc., he found himself in several abusive situations so his childhood? Not Good
he still had a place in his heart for annie though, generally ran away a lot and get kicked out of the homes and shelters he was in bc he was meeting up w his mom -Â ABUSE TW END
eventually he was placed in the lawrence house when he was 16 and when he first came in, he had a giant chip on his shoulder, just refused to let them take care of him or try to be friends with what would soon become his siblings (thereâs a large handful of them)
VIOLENCE/ADDICTION/DRUGS TW -Â around when he started to warm up to them is another time his mother wanted to meet up - a lot of the time if she did it was just bc she needed money, so when teddy met up with her to say he wasnât leaving with her and had refused to steal from the lawrenceâs for her, her boyfriend attacked him pretty brutally and his mom was too high to do anything about it - VIOLENCE/ADDICTION/DRUGS TW END
after that the lawrenceâs insisted on adopting teddy so that he became a permanent fixture in their life and he realized these people were more his family than annie ever was, now he loves and treats them all like theyâd been his family his entire life
heâs still quite close w all of them to this day, n his sister maggie (played by neen) even goes to school w him! :-)
details.
truly the most dramatic bitch who has a habit of saying wtvr is on his mind without thinking of consequence cuz he frankly wasnât raised to have a filter bt he rly does have a heart of gold
head of the drama club at school
has been in like . 2 or 3 commercials before and is tryna work on getting himself out there more bc his dream is to b an actor
more of a Class Clown type than anything else
CHEATING TW -Â used to have a rep of sleeping around w ppl n everyone was surprised when he settled down w blake (shoutout neen again) bt recently cheated n has kinda . spiralled since LKSHDGKLHSDLGKHD - CHEATING TW END
ADDICTION/DRUGS/ALCOHOLISM TW -Â struggles w addiction himself quite badly, is a bit of a coke fiend n drinks a worrying amount
spent the summer at home attempting to sober up cuz his parents were starting to get increasingly worried bt he didnât tell anyone that he got back in contact w annie, at first itâd been to ask how she did it n got clean herself without realizing sheâd fallen off the wagon and she was jst a bad influence on teddy if anything
he was supposed to graduate last year bt had to skip exams etc. bc of how bad heâd gotten n now tht heâs back heâs determined to make ppl think heâs ok when heâs obvs . Not - ADDICTION/DRUGS/ALCOHOLISM TW END
connections.
ppl who r in his major?? or r a part of the drama club/school radio he does both :-)
mayhaps a dealer?? wld love someone evil who knows hes struggling to stay sober bt still sells to him anyway/insists he does fr their benefitâŚâŚâŚ. rubs my grubby paws
mayb ppl he was in the system with beforeâŚâŚ.
exes!! on good or bad terms, heâs not exactly Faithful n also was always attracted to ppl he knew Werenât Good For Him so something fun cld b done there
friends!!! heâs a social butterfly so needs many friends
enemies/rivals fr wtvr reason
heâs in a needed hiatus from relationships rn all things considered bt maybe crushes? requited or not on whichever side
someone helping him who knows hes struggling quite bad
the Polar Opposite n someone whoâs a bad influence on him AND someone heâs a bad influence to?? like someone who wanted to get away from the party scene a bit n he tries to drag them back in to validate him doing wht he shldnt in the first place
ămadelyn cline & cis femaleăâž beaumont, saige, the senior radcliffe studentâs records show that she is a cancer and 22 years old. she is studying linguistics + criminal psychology, living in noland and can be blithe, energetic, evasive & irrational. when i see her i am reminded of the familiar riff of an old song, skinned knees with laughter following, and wishes on eyelashes stuck to your cheekbones. â˝ăjames & 21 & est & they/them.ă
N HERE IS MY LAST CHILD FR NOW ... both happy n sad ... god ... bites fist. alright. letâs go!
TW CHILD ABUSE, DRUG USE, ALCOHOLISM, ADDICTION, DEATH, HIT & RUN CAR ACCIDENTS, GRIEF, GUILT
aesthetics.
stick nâ pokes at 2am â when your drunk and giggling too much in between purposeful stabs, avoiding the cracks in the sidewalk because theyâre bad luck and theyâll break your motherâs back â even if your mother doesnât love you, because you love her, the familiar riff in an old song â one thatâs got you strumming along silently; there is no guitar, only empty air lit by the christmas lights you havenât taken down. itâs may. swallowing down shots, and by default, swallowing down problems. laughing quick, easily, constantly. skinned knees from skateboarding, despite being rubbish at it. wishes on eyelashes stuck to your cheekbones, glitter sticking, running into the ocean at sunrise; feeling at home. excuses, and the many forms they come in. telling people you love them through hand squeezes and fresh muffins, sideways glances and soft, eager grins.
basic info.
full name: saige alouette beaumont
nickname(s): n/a :/ give her some
b.o.d. - july 7th, cancer
label(s): the hedonist, the icarcian, the reveler, etc.
height: 5â˛7âł
hometown: thibodaux, louisiana
sexuality: bisexual w/ a very slight preference towards masc-presenting folks
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inspired by: serena van der woodsen (gossip girl), aimee gibbs (sex education), alexis rose (schittâs creek), elle woods (legally blonde), rapunzel (tangled), clementine (eternal sunshine of a spotless mind), angela montenegro (bones), tinkerbell (peter pan), late 2000 / early 2010s kesha⌠i donât know because sheâs not actually inspired by anybody i made her when i was like 13 HDSJBKFNGHJLDS
biography.
the fallible daughter of two very infallible people: robert beaumont, US lieutenant general (soon to be US general), and manon lĂŠvesque, world renowned fashion designer on levels par with gucci and versace. both cold, calculating, and purposeful.
no matter how much she wants to believe otherwise, saige is sure that she was not created out of love. it was an action with a purpose, intentions to create the perfect child. the hybrid of both military genius and fashion extraordinaire. a proper socialite. a 1% citizen. molded to their will.
born in thibodaux, louisiana (surrounded by her fatherâs family - a long line of old money southern magnates & moguls with a history of beauty pageant winners in each woman) - it took them no more than six months after her birth for her parents to up and move, thus beginning a cycle of packing and unpacking, flying and driving, state-to-state and country-to-country. the longest saige had ever stayed in one place was two years, until radcliffe. even then - conditioned to never become truly attached to a place, she has the urge to up and run away at any given moment, onto the next adventure.
she was kept on a short leash, home-schooled, and learning skills she had no interest in (from cooking to sewing to ballroom dancing - to fencing and firearm safety and self defense) - more like a pet, a project, than a child. the world moved all around her, but she was bound to what her parents allowed her to see. a bird in a cage of thorns.
it was hard to keep and maintain friends - there one day, gone the next. a ghost you could see, clear as day, but never touch - never fully, at least. even if she tried with all her might.
would run from bodyguards (their version of nannies - robert beaumont is a paranoid man with too many enemies to count) into festival crowds and climb out of windows in the middle of the night to swim in lakes with the locals sheâd met only hours earlier - as soon as she realized that there was something wrong with the way she lived.
even if it resulted in punishment, military exercises in the form of her own personal boot camp (sheâd been forced to do chin-ups, once, when she ripped an expensive gown at the tender age of seven. not since, however, after she wound up sobbing on the floor - instead they moved on. delicate teacups stacked across her back as she did push-ups, the more she did the more that slipped & broke)
she absorbed as she could, as much as she could get; an intense, undying love for a world she always craved to see.
this was the start of something dangerous - a phase that never seemed to end, rebellion coursing through her veins. a wild child in the making, unknowing of limits. she landed herself in any crowd she could squeeze into - bad crowds, in particular and more often than not - they introduced her, the sheltered girl, into a world she hadnât quite known existed until then.
ran away briefly at the age of fifteen with a man three years older than her & nearly ended up in a tabloid magazine because of it - if it hadnât been for her parentsâ money. though guilt from her parentsâ disappointment weighed on her, the thrill fueled something much worse.
from there on, sheâd been labeled as a âproblem childâ - from public intoxication to vandalism, it was clear their daughter was unraveling and nothing could possibly contain her.
boarding school had been an attempt to stop it, enrolled her freshmen year in hopes that sheâd come out a proper woman. but being located in new york with easy access to the upper east side of manhattan - itâd been futile.
thereâd only been a few significant events during her time there - the death of a classmate (one of her closest friendsâ boyfriends) and a ski trip that nearly resulted in her own death, skiing while drunk on a closed off course, in memory of him and the traditions theyâd had. the first time she fell in love, and months of pining - running in circles, fights and hiccups and confessions in the dramatic manner all high school relationships seem to be like. theyâd finally gotten together - officially, no more sneaking around or pretending - when her parents paid a surprise visit. a rare occasion, nerve-wracking. dangerous. to keep a story short - sheâd accidentally exposed her own drug use in their presence, the simple act of pills falling from a purse - and thatâd been it. she was gone the next day, with no word to anybody and hardly a word since.
they told family she needed a change of pace, and rumors in her old school said that sheâd been expelled, that sheâd been sent to the french countryside to live with her grandmother.
sheâd only gone to washington, that was all. france was too good, and she was too undeserving. instead she was enrolled in public school, only a quarter through her junior year. her parents rarely spoke to her - rarely in town, the only eyes kept on her were security cameras and the occasional check-in by family friends (the new word for bodyguards, apparently)
but as always - when left alone, saige scrambled to find somewhere she fit, somewhere to tuck herself away in the comfort of other people. a small group, but a loyal group - harmless minus a few miscellaneous charges that they said every small town kid had, at some point. they were safe, they were family - as close as she could get. at least, she had thought so. had really believed it.
she hadnât intended to go to university after graduating high school, not yet eighteen - not for another month or two, at least. she wanted to travel, meet new people and learn new languages (sheâd learned four, already, but had always been a glutton. craved to know more, as if she unlocked secrets with every phrase she could speak) and just. exist.
maybe she shouldâve. shouldâve left as quick as possible, and never turn back.
saige mysteriously disappeared from the public eye for an entire year, the entirety of her 18th year on earth, before promptly showing up at radcliffe university, ready to learn.
itâd been a year of legal cases & lawsuits & avoiding prison with expensive lawyers and a lot of money.
the getaway driver for an armed robbery at a bank, an unknowing accomplice until her supposed friend ran out from the building and jumped in her car, screaming for her to drive, drive, drive. it had only supposed to have been a quick stop before a road trip to the coast. nobody was supposed to get hurt. but scared, and high, saige had obeyed - and by doing so, led a police chase and, of course, a hit & run that eventually led to saige crashing the car midst breakdown.
the sole victim survived, thankfully - and the beaumonts have been paying the medical bills since. her friend - the one who started it all - was charged & sentenced. but saige got off relatively scot-free. just a year of community service, a slap on the wrist (and the growing wallets of all involved in handling her case). it wouldâve made national news if her parents hadnât stepped in - favors called, resulting in only local headlines.
they hadnât spoken to her since then. three years of radio silence. sheâd think they were dead if it hadnât been the steady flow of money in her bank account. their silence only feels like a threat of whatâs to come if she fucks up again.
ever since - sheâs avoided causing too much trouble, still very much the party girl sheâd like to be, but staying out of headlines and tabloids. partially in fear of her parents finally cutting ties, permanently, and partially in fear that sheâll end up costing someone else their life with her own selfishness.
UPDATE: she did not avoid trouble n got disowned after a high speed yacht chase it was. a lot. anyways sheâs lying to everyone n pretending sheâs still rich while rapidly losing money to lawsuit bills n hospital bills n just <3 a whole lot <3 has had to sell her favorite cars and her favorite bass guitar. sheds the smallest tear. spent the summer couch-hopping bt pretending she wasnât couch-hopping and being :/ really messy. not a good fun look! sucks ... disappeared fr like a straight week n then popped up like hehe watâs up :D. sighs sm.
personality.
she is so ⌠bubbly. so fucking bubbly. sheâs has so much energy in her. goes running every morning and every night and swims almost every afternoon and sheâs never tired, even if she hasnât slept the last night and even if sheâs been dancing for five hours in a club in high heels and nothing but vodka in her system. the personification of a coke bottle shaken up, if the coke bottle in question could laugh and smile at you and make you feel, somehow, at home even though youâd only met her in the bathroom queue.
tries her hardest to be the happy fun friend, the cool friend, the one who can hook you up with whatever you need because she sleeps with her drug dealer and gets discounts, but like, itâs totally okay because theyâre also friends.
generally comes off as very confident of herself, and fearless, and reckless but like - fun reckless. the kind of reckless you wouldnât mind to be around because she takes your worries and acknowledges them and reassures you that itâs fine, that itâs grand, even when it may definitely not be.
takes a lot. so much. could ramble for days, hand gestures and all. never stops talking. never.
if she wants to do something, sheâll do it and thereâs not very much you can do to stop her. stubborn, but at the same time easy going? very go go go. mischievous. even if sheâs trying to do something stupid you kind of just like ⌠have to let her do it, or otherwise sheâll mope for three hours and pout at you and then youâll feel questionably guilty, which is admittedly a little manipulative on her end and isnât the best thing, but i never said sheâs the best person ever because sheâs most certainly ⌠not.
a vegetarian because meat makes her physically sick, like, sheâs got a weird intolerance to it and itâs not quite an allergy because itâs really just red meats but sheâll get a tummy ache.
her vocabulary consists of a lot of âlikesâ and âumsâ and âyknowsâ, yâknow? her statements always sound like questions.
99% sure she has adhd but sheâs never been diagnosed because her parents simply would not allow her to go to therapy so if she does have any neurological disorders, mental illness, and the likes of those - she doesnât know and doesnât know where to even begin to find out. her parents? fucking suck.
like i said, sheâs currently not on speaking terms with them. more of their decision than hers. she still loves them, a lot - and thereâs a part of her that believes that they still love her, that they have to, because sheâs not disowned yet. even though they havenât said more than ten words to her since she was eighteen - as long as they keep sending her money, they still care - right?
owns four cars ⌠bad idea considering her past, but alas. spending her money is a coping mechanism and she likes to drive because itâs a form of freedom. anyways. all her cars are on campus and sheâs probably not allowed to have them all on campus but she does. oneâs a sleek sports car, the other is a jacked up pick-up truck thatâs decked out in like ⌠LED lights and shit, the third one is the same exact fucking mustang from the princess diaries because sheâs obsessed with the movie & usually gets what she wants. the fourth is a mini cooper.
sheâs a photographer (for funsies) and the walls of her room in noland are covered in photographs and art and taped-down plants. her room in general is really cluttered. like, itâs super homey. super cozy. but itâs a mess. clothes everywhere, sheâs got a pile of instruments and other miscellaneous hobbies that she wanted to do and then either never did, or did for a few days and got bored of and havenât touched since.
i mentioned earlier that she was taught a bunch of skills when growing up - and like, she doesnât really utilize any of them? knitting, sewing, cookie, three different forms of ballroom dancing - all gone to waste and sheâs pretty rusty on most of it, but itâs there. in her mind. itâs kind of neat and i promise sheâs not a mary sue itâs just her upbringing HBSJKDFNLG sheâs really nuanced i swear. anyways she can also work a gun and a car engine but hates half of the things she knows how to do because she was forced to learn these things.
she plays bass guitar. loves it, loves her guitar. treasured item. she knows violin & piano too but she fucking hates piano & is mostly indifferent towards violin. she can hold a note in other instruments but itâs like. not great.
got really into languages at a young age due to her constant traveling and started learning them unprompted. her mother is like. literally french. a french citizen. so she grew up learning english & french but from there on sheâs gotten fluent in spanish (similar 2 french) and latin (dead languages are fun) and then sheâs working on a few others like mandarin and german and scottish gaelic specifically but she mostly just knows a few phrases here and there. like, enough to get her through a city if needed.
like sheâs super smart and very talented but sheâs also ditzy as hell. big dumbass energy to the point where maybe you donât realize that sheâs actually really good at a lot of things because itâs not like she really flaunts it either?
sheâs just very reckless, and very much a party girl. has quite the collection of drugs & uses socially, but also alone and throughout the day. rarely sober.
high functioning alcoholic and at this point she doesnât really know what sheâs like when sheâs completely sober? which is really bad but sheâs convinced that if she goes sober sheâll just be miserable and horrible because at her very core she believes sheâs like. the worst human being alive. like very deep issues of self loathing covered by baileys in her morning coffee and 23 crystal lite packets in her yeti cup that happens to be filled with vodka.
this has been a budding problem that was developed since she was a young teenager. the ehem. situation that happened when she was eighteen only amplified it.
is essentially wearing a mask of confidence and giddiness and flirtatiousness because she doesnât want people to think sheâs not doing well, because she isnât.
loves so much. loves everything, so much. everything, everybody. falls in love like five times a day but nothing really sticks to her either, for the most part. i hate to say it but she does flock to shitty people / general assholes because thatâs just ⌠how she is, thatâs what sheâs surrounded herself with her entire life. even her high school boyfriend was an asshole - just like, not to her, which made it Okay in her mind. she finds these kind of people like ⌠super interesting which is really questionable but yâknow what? weâre fine. itâs fine. iâm fine.
she sleeps around often, to be frank. she hates being alone and she rarely sleeps in her own dorm unless someone is in there sleeping with her. otherwise sheâs at different houses. could be a friendâs bed, could be a strangerâs. has slept with the entire baseball team, probably. sheâs also the type of person whoâll try and maintain a positive, good friendship with whoever she sleeps with because she hates the idea of having a regrettable encounter and just. refuses.
this is kind of a problem because she blurs the lines between friendship and Something More too often, and with too many people. wants to be loved but itâs never enough. probably ends up hurting people without realizing it because they think they have something super special but she does this with a lot of people and itâs super :/
does stick and pokes a whole bunch. she canât draw for shit so theyâre not great but she thinks theyâre fun and sheâs been doing it for a while so like, who cares, right? let her give you one :)
gets sent dress prototypes and like. drafts of designs & articles of clothing from her fashion lines that arenât out yet and wonât be for a while by her very own mother. saige absolutely gives them all away, for the most part. or it sits in her closet, and stays there. her go-to gift for birthday presents, or christmas gifts, or whenever she feels like it. like, feel free to raid her closet?
ok thatâs all. love her.
wanted connections.
a best friend⌠someone who sticks by her side even though she is a certified Mess.
a ride or die⌠is it the same as a best friend? maybe. but itâs got a fancy name and i want both so :)
close friends⌠sheâs really friendly and the kind of girl to have been really popular in high school but didnât care for it and talks to everybody like sheâs known them her entire life, so. sheâd have a good amount of these!
grumpy friend⌠to balance her happy friend. sheâll fuck them up in a friendship way. with her cheerfulness.
party pals⌠they donât talk much outside of parties but theyâre practically glued to the hip when theyâre at them. hold your hair back kind of close.
frenemies⌠or fake friends, toxic friends, people who use her for money or like ⌠sex, or whatever? anything? people who barely tolerate her because she gives them stuff sometimes.
bad influences⌠they just encourage her to do more, be worse, never get better.
good influences⌠like ⌠YOINK! stop being an idiot! do your homework! idot!
a tutor⌠because sheâs likeâŚsmartâŚbut sheâs also stupidâŚsuper bad at math & science. help her.
hook ups⌠friends with benefits, a one night stand that is a little? awkward? since then. past & present tenses. :)
exes⌠sheâs noncommittal so they likely wouldnât have lasted very long but? yolo? she can be a heartbreaker, as marina said, as a treat? whether they dated or were fucking ⌠either works. but i do love angst :)
one-sided hatred⌠someone who just fucking ⌠despises her. but she doesnât realize because sheâs an idiot and thinks theyâre just like. joking around! like theyâre best buddies!
annoyance⌠but sheâs the annoyance. sheâs the thorn in their side.
ex-best friend⌠where something happened between them, like, anything, and it ruined their friendship forever. very sad. angst potential, though.
but like. iâll take anything.
steals your mail⌠who knows why?
cat escape⌠he keeps running away and she keeps letting him inside her room even though sheâs allergicâŚ
married old couple⌠the kind of friendship where they always bicker like theyâve been together for fifty years, but itâs purely platonic (or is it? slowburn BAYBEY. DENIAL babyey.)
off and on again⌠i think that one thatâs not good for them because they enable each other & only get like ⌠angry at each other, and itâs like, messy. but itâs super hard to stop. probably reminds her of high school so thatâs why she tries so hard to stick around, but alas. itâs not good. itâs toxic. stop it.
the drug dealer⌠the one she sleeps with⌠even though she can just pay for it because sheâs rich but like. itâs funner this way.
blurred status⌠like, itâs just really confusing of what they are? are they, arenât they? the relationship status is just ⌠muddled. sheâs a mess and gets involved with too many people without intending to. potential to hurt feelings. :)
ănatalia dyer & demi girlăâž carmichael, philomena, the junior radcliffe studentâs records show that she/they are a taurus and 20 years old. she/they are studying wildlife science, living in noland and can be whimsical, patient, apathetic & unpredictable. when i see her/them i am reminded of the gentleness of decomposition, dancing naked around the flames, and whipping wind in your hair. â˝ăjames & 21 & est & they/them.ă
hereâs my second !! baby child i love a lot ... much kinder ... a bit odd .. love of my life ... a classic ... a favorite ..
wildflowers in your hair and bare feet against moss, binoculars and maps, madonna beating out of half-dead speakers in a half-dead van, whipping wind, jumping off cliffs and rolling down hills, a bandaid wrapped around each finger, cryptic bumper stickers and cryptids in the woods, facing the sun and letting the rays hit you, counting stars late into the night, dancing naked in the woods with nothing but fire to light your way, mismatched socks and lucky ribbons, hoarding a box of special treasures, shoplifting and diner-dashing, bleach against roots, pink sweaters paired with ripped fishnets and slip dresses with knock off uggs, willingly wearing crocs, glitter stickers, fungi and feeling one with them, lying down and decomposing, theyâll find us in a week. theyâll find us in a week.
basic info.
full name: philomena brontĂŤ carmichael
nickname(s): philly, phil, mena, etc.
b.o.d. - april 20th lmao !!
label(s): the amaranth, the halycon, the neophyte, the wanderer, etc. etc.
height: 5â˛4âł
hometown: woodside, ca
sexuality: demisexual !!!!
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inspired by: luna lovegood (harry potter), orla mccool (derry girls), cassie ainsworth (skins), alice (aliceâs adventures in wonderland), amelie (amelie).
biography.
a middle child belonging to christopher and imogen carmichael - two stanford professors. christopher specialized in british literature whilst imogen specialized in the classics. hence the name.
the order of siblings goes as such: lysander, elektra, juno, philomena, and twins orion & valora. the deal was that everybody had a greek (or in junoâs case, roman) first name and a middle name inspired by a piece of british literature circa 1800s and under. a family of nerds, if you will.
so, clearly - right off the bat, their parents are ⌠eccentric. theyâre both in love with their respected topic, and with each other, and with their kids. the carmichael family is a happy family.
they each have their own quirks and whatnot - though phillyâs always been particularly dreamy - even as a child, sheâd spend hours watching clouds or caterpillars or the leaves blow in the wind rather than play with other kids. she wasnât a shy kid - she just had her own interests.
hardship doesnât hit the family until philomena is five and starts having splitting headaches. theyâre slow at first - but as soon as sheâs seeing spots and unable to walk in a straight line, doctor appointments are made.
it doesnât take long for them to discover the tumor, though the official diagnosis of malignant ependymoma comes a month later.
itâs grade ii but slow-moving, small enough to not be as much of a threat as worried, but big enough where removal is necessary. philomena earns a scar and brings it in for show-and-tell. for two months afterwards, phillyâs at radiotherapy monday through friday.
theyâre lucky - philomenaâs considered cancer-free by the next year. sheâs babied at first - handled delicately, as if she could break if touched - but with five other children ⌠it doesnât last for too long.
and life continues as normal.
her personality doesnât shift much over the next few years - sheâs awfully independent for a kid, and awfully quiet - when she speaks itâs about faeries and bigfoot, about how the sky is so blue and if you listen quietly, you can hear the leaves whisper their secrets to each other. this is not odd.
sheâs close to all her siblings, but she idolizes her older sister - elektra. elektraâs six years older and dyes her hair whatever colors she wants. elektra bought a knife off a seedy guy downtown. elektra threw away all of her heels and renounced god. elektra is god. her music is loud but itâs not heavy - itâs florence and the machine.
theyâre opposites - elektraâs boisterous and feels loudly, philomenaâs softer and feelsâŚless. when elektra sneaks out, philomena keeps watch. they are a duo.
philomena is smart - but sheâs fifteen and hates school. hates sitting inside all day. hates the same routine - day after day - itâs all the same. her parentsâ routine is the same, philly feels contained and she wants to live.
elektraâs twenty-one and just bought a brand new spanking (used but not falling apart) 19-something volkswagen ⌠van - using her entire savings account. she says sheâs tired of routine, sheâs leaving the next day.
naturally, philomena stows away in the back and isnât discovered until theyâre two states away and sheâs got to pee. elektra nearly crashes the van in shock.
itâs an argument - philomena vs. elektra, then them vs. their parents, then their parents vs. the school, the state - itâs an ordeal. philomena switches to an online program in the end.
it hurts christopher and imogen - lysanderâs not having any of their nonsense, junoâs betrayed and alone - the twins are twins. in the end, itâs alright. the carmichael family is a happy family.
philomena and elektra take their time - itâs not a road trip, itâs their new life, permanently on the road. they stop and explore often - they do odd jobs in whatever town they settle in. they dine-n-dash, they shoplift. they survive in their own way.
during particularly desperate times, they two resorted to identity theft & credit fraud - getting away with it only by ditching the cards once theyâve made it out of state.
she drops out of high school officially when sheâs seventeen - they have to drive all the way back to california to deal with the wrath of their parents and to deal with paperwork, but itâs done. philomena doesnât know what path she wants in life - but itâs not that.
itâs during this time that the episodes occur - philomenaâs outside her body, philomenaâs wrapped in cotton, her memories are not her own. sheâs looking in the mirror and she doesnât recognize herself. they take shelter in a city for six months, long enough for her brand spankinâ new therapist to figure out whatâs wrong with her. sheâs diagnosed with depersonalization / derealization disorder - they think itâs stress. philomena doesnât get stressed. they think itâs trauma. she laughs - she never laughs.
there is trauma though, deep-rooted but somewhere inside - you just have to look for it.
you. just. have. to. look. for. it. look for it. look for it. look for it look for it look -
you were ten and she was thirteen, an off-trail hike in familiar woods in a familiar town, safe and familiar. it was your idea, to stray from the carved out paths, down creeks and up hills and round, and round again. youâre the one who spotted the scarf first, sticking up from the dirt and dancing in the wind like the beginning of reincarnation. it was not reincarnation, it was discovery. it was ruin. with curiosity drawn, you skidded down - with compliance, followed juno, followed your sister - clumsy in her steps and tumbling down quicker than you. you saw the corpse, but juno felt it. decaying flesh and maggot.
and she left juno, just like that - just five years later, when juno had finally gone to the end of her wits. philly up and left. abandoned her.
philomena and elektra leave the city after that therapy session. they do not return. sheâs always been good at hiding her secrets.
three years later and her parents want philly to have a higher education - desperate for it, really - worried for her future. itâs a battle that she loses, getting her GED and applying to a local college in florida in shameful compliance.
theyâre there for a year until philly gets (expectantly) expelled from the community college & the two of them are banned from the town theyâd residing in up until that point. they donât talk about it - but boy, was it one hell of a time.
they found refuge in lovell, a town that seemed to suit them well - it suited elektraâs desire to travel up and down the east coast, and it intrigued philomena enough to the point of her being content with staying. soon after, philly officially transferred to radcliffe for the fall semester & theyâve been here since!
UPDATE: another summer update! very simple ... she n elektra traveled the states again, as they always do ... like clockwork. had to be dragged back to radcliffe (doesnât like staying in one place for too long) bt also <3 likes a lot of people here n brought them all souvenirs. it ws very nice! nothing bad.
personality.
sheâs quiet but sheâs confident - her voice sounds like rustling leaves, if leaves smoked a pack of cigarettes a day.
often underestimated - phillyâs petite and looks like sheâd fall over if a plastic bag blew too close to her. sheâs independent - for the most part. elektra is the only person philly takes orders from.
has always been considered odd - weird, strange. still talks about the trees as if theyâre listening, as if theyâre old friends. sheâs vague and doesnât elaborate on the things she says.
believes in pretty much any superstition you throw her way. luck is very important to her. if you ask her if the earth is flat, sheâll say probably. believes strongly in bigfoot and the lochness monster. has personally seen aliens, and loves ghosts almost more than herself.
she can be amusing - whether you âgetâ her or not, her outlook is often bright - she talks about the negatives the same way she talks about the positives. can be seen as naive or gullible, but sheâs plenty smart. even if half of her education has come directly from google.
philly doesnât laugh. a smile, yes - often, in fact - not always reaching her ears, or bearing teeth - but these are not indicators of her happiness. philly is consistently content. she thinks many things are funny - she still will not laugh.
her voice is often monotonous - she doesnât sound dreary, she sounds far-away. her voice carries. her emotions are often unknown to others.
is apathetic in most situations. sheâs hard to bother - sheâs incredibly patient and enjoys the company of most - tolerates them at the very least. itâs hard for her to express her emotions, because she feels them so little that itâs very nearly not worth it. her affection is not verbal - itâs small touches and gestures of kindness, love in her own way.
is a fan of knock-knock jokes and bad puns. she wonât crack a smile while telling you them, nor does she expect you to laugh. she just enjoys them.
she owns a motorola razr covered in puffy stickers - hasnât ever had a smartphone. sheâs a fan of emoticons. her favorite is :o)
has a lot of bruises and scratches and scars - sheâs often getting herself into pickles. there are always, at the very minimum, three bandaids on each hand.
she has insomnia, so sheâs awake often. is often seen wandering town - even when she shouldnât be, even when it might be dangerous. her intuition is delayed. when she does sleep - her dreams are vivid and fantastical.
keeps a box of memories - sentimental bits and pieces sheâs picked up over the last few years. there are a lot of buttons and postcards, but any teeny tiny object will do.
her style changes every week - most, if not all, of her clothes are thrifted. one week sheâs baby spice and the next sheâs lydia deetz. she combines pieces from different styles often - she looks like a barbie clothed by a child. she feels most comfortable like this.
will either patch-up the clothes that get too worn or reuse them in some way. sometimes donates the clothes she gets tired off - isnât minimalistic, but sheâs learned to keep only a small amount of possessions.
the only consistency is her lucky ribbon - itâs pastel yellow and silky and as thin as a shoelace. she ties it onto her outfit of the day, everyday. if she loses it, sheâs lost. elektra has a matching ribbon.
has no problem with minor theft - she only takes bare minimum, puts herself and elektra first and thatâs how itâs always been. she tries to be good while in lovell / radcliffe - would hate to be forced out by mobs with torches and pitchforks
currently living in noland while elektra stays in their van, florence - sometimes philly stays there during the weekends.
they used to live in motels on the occasion, the cheapest room, and more often than not theyâd both go home with strangers for a comfier bed and a hotter shower.
it was a common occurrence - she didnât sleep with them - but somehow, she weaseled her way into their homes anyway. has come out mostly unscathed, on most occasions. this has been a practice ever since theyâve been on the road.
really, truly - has not slept with anybody, had her first and only kiss at thirteen with a frog. this doesnât bother her.
will consume a n y t h i n g you put in front of her - isnât picky.
listens to whatever theyâve picked up along the way but she likes instrumentals the best. her second favorite genre is 1990â˛s and 2000â˛s top hits. theyâre nostalgic for her. third favorites? florence, of course. fleetwood mac. the bird and the bee.
loves storms - will go out in the rain and will risk her life for it.
owns a pair of roller-skates and is often skating rather than walking. unless sheâs on grass - then sheâs walking barefoot.
has many hobbies, and gets bored of them often. her favorite hobby is welding. sheâs not certified.
also, juggling.
also, accordion.
the kind of girl whoâll do any job you give her. odd jobs are her favorite jobs. babysitting is her least favorite - but she does it anyway. has lost children before. have they ever been found? not by philly.
dyes her hair blonde often and cuts her own hair - bangs included - finds it cathartic, likes the itchiness of bleach.
everything she does is often in pursuit of feeling free, alive, and meaningful.
( like her frequent visits to the woods, late at night when the moon is high and full. itâs freeing to dance around a fire, stark naked in the cold. builds immunity )
comes and goes wherever she pleases, nothing & nobody can stop her (besides elektra). has befriended the campus witch, or as much as the witch will allow, and shrike as well. she knows to respect nature, and abandoned sites - sheâs practically free to explore as she wishes, her only pride is the trust sheâs gained.
the trust expands to animals as well, she has a certain knack for getting them to like her. has too many âpetâ rats that reside with her, alongside a baby raccoon & a few crow pals. has a new animal companion everyday, but she doesnât contain them or force them to stay.
leaves her window in noland wide open because of this, because her window is conveniently right besides a tree with sturdy branches. good for animal smuggling, sneaking in and out, hiding, etc. etc. world is her oyster.
though her room in noland is ??? frankly a mess ??? already ??? usually keeps most of her possessions in her memory box but sheâs also turned her room into a mini labyrinth of knick-knacks. very cozy, but very nest-like. think of howlâs room from howlâs moving castle.
wanted connections.
random encounters⌠itâs only her second semester at radcliffe, she hasnât met everybody yet iâm sure
random encountersâŚin the wild⌠alternately, people sheâs met before in a different part of the country. whether sheâs stolen from them or crashed at their place, or simply shared a dinner. anything goes!
unexpected sleepover⌠someone whose place she crashed at after a mysterious night. a party, adventure, etc. etc. maybe they donât even remember her staying over, maybe she hadnât been with them to begin with.
employers⌠she does a lot of odd jobs! knows how to make a lot of things in many different mediums just to earn a small living.
friends⌠yâknow ⌠people who enjoy her presence, likes her oddness. they may not understand her, but they appreciate her. or maybe they do understand her, in their own way!
not friends⌠philly doesnât consider anybody an enemy in the slightest, but some people may not be fond of her ⌠think sheâs a little too strange, or they refuse to understand her, or something of the likes.
closing in⌠someone trying to get closer to her, trying to figure her out on a level deeper than what she would like, and she keeps slipping out from between their fingers every time.
mom friend mom friend mom friend⌠older sibling figures! dad friends! take one look at philly and instantly want to swaddle n protect her.
caught red handed⌠someone catches her stealing or about to dine-n-dash. do they care? who knows!
late-night shenanigans⌠they just walk and talk at night ⌠very relaxing ⌠not actually very shenanigans filledâŚ
a dealer⌠because she wasnât born on 4/20 for nothing. sheâs not turning 20 on 4/20/20 fr nothing. donât fail us.
debating conspiracies⌠or superstitions, really anything. maybe theyâre frustrated at her apathy surrounding all situations.
no likey⌠:( they distrust her. probably fr good reason tho ⌠i donât blame you
thrifting pals⌠no explanation needed methinks
an eventual hook-up⌠maybe ⌠possibly ⌠itâs questionable, but it could happen! canât stay a virgin forever! (or well. she cld. weâll see!) sheâd probably have to trust yr muse a lot though
unrequited romance uwu⌠probably unrequited on her end because she doesnât usually think of anybody in a romantic sense - itâs possible, but youâd have to be something special for her to like you back. that being said âŚ
something returned⌠eventually, slowly. slow. itâll take time.
maybe something returned !! eventually. slowly. slow.
n like rly anything u want !! anything u can think of i am here 2 fulfill ⌠we can brainstorm all sorts of wacky scenarios!! sheâs a thief! sheâs an accordion player! she dances naked in the woods! sheâs been in the circus AND a small utah county jail!
