#rubyonline

i just wanna apologize again (i know i’ve done it a million times now i’m horrible i’m sorry) for just disappearing.

i’m just in a very energy consuming and confusing head space and i feel like nothing makes sense in my sentimental life (i’m probably being dramatic). i’m so disappointed in myself and done with this whole thing to the point that i have 0 energy to delve into a very creative project that needs energy and willpower, and also a good mood which is something i don’t have atm.

everything is ready and planned for the second season but i don’t want to half ass it and post when i’m clearly not feeling well; which btw i hate because it’s all on me for actually giving someone a fucking chance lol.

not gonna give y’all a headache with this but what i’m trying to say is that i need time to find that spark again and come back to you with everything i’ve planned.

knowing myself, it probably shouldn’t take too much time but i can’t guarantee you a guys a fixed date cause i don’t want to disappoint. i’ll just try to get my shit together asap and i’ll be back as soon as i do.

thank you so much again for your support and cute messages and again, i’m so sorry for being like this.

can’t wait to come back and delve back into out messy IHUILU universe!

i love you all 🩷

— ruby.

who’s your favorite character in the IHUILU universe ????? (i know we still haven’t properly met the new ones for season 2 but yeah) and maybe why??? like do they remind you of a certain somebody? or do you relate to some of their actions or thoughts??? it doesn’t also have to necessarily be your favorite but maybe a character that you find very interesting!

let me know!! i’m very curious about something and also because half of these characters have been inspired of people i know/used to know or events that have happened around me!!!

first of all thank you for the many asks and cute interactions you’ve sent, i’m beyond thankful and happy and i’ll get to them asap!!!!

as for chapter 40, which is the last chapter for the smau, i’m sorry it wasn’t posted today, i am still cooking….. i want to give you something you’ll enjoy even though the ending has been decided since the beginning and it hasn’t changed.

the ending will be posted either tomorrow or on wednesday, either way it’ll definitely be this week!!!

for the meantime, please please send me your asks about what kind of things you’d like to know for the additional chapters regarding some of things that haven’t been mentioned during the regular chapters of the smau!!! so i can prepare for them beforehand and not keep you waiting for long as i’m soon gonna move on to my new series which i’ll spoil now and say it’s called: reflections. (yayyy)

again thank you so much for everything and i’ll see you soon to respond to yours cute asks.

+ the fact that lara always calls him RJ

i hate doubting myself and my skills but i feel like i’m not delivering well and i’m not blaming this on anyone but myself.

i’ll let this simmer down a little and get back to you guys with updates about season 2 and its direction.

for the meantime, thank you so much to everyone that has been reading and reaching out and i’m always genuinely thinking about you which is why saying this has been very hard; but i wont disappoint you i promise. giving up on my little dear universe won’t be that easy but i just need time to think it over a bit more.

i love you all and my asks are always open if you want to talk or tell me anything, i’ll genuinely appreciate it!