this one time i told this guy i liked him when really i hadnt liked him at all and i only did it because i was twisted and i wanted to have something in common with this half friend of mine and the guy said i appreciate it and i fuckin blew up in the bad way you know but all on my own too llke that night it was all wow that fucker and then the next day i was just dumbfounded that i had found the courage to do that and it was the end of the year when i did it right so i thought if he rejects me ill never have to see him again WELL YOURE FUCKING WRONG RIGHT THERE because he ended up being in my drivers ed class (terrible ddriver btw , thank goodness he wasnt in my driving group but he was in the lecture part) and i never ignored someone so hard in my life
anyway somehow i imprinted the date of this occurrence in my brain and it was monday june 3 of 2013 so that damn date is coming up and i don't know how to forget it
oh damn november 17 passed already too and that was in 2007
fuck me and my dates that only commemorate losses and despair
