Oh, great, I’ll take this as an opportunity then! (I mean, what's great is you saying that you want asks, not you having a bad day)
Actually I was also curious about Reki and your self ship with her. From what little I know about her, I just think she's cool and I love her vibe. Although I don’t have much information right now to jump off of, so I’m not really sure what to ask specifically… So really, I would be content with whatever you might tell me about her and your s/i.
Though, I guess, the most important question is – while you previously said that Reki takes the role of your caretaker in the relationship dynamic, I want to know how you interact apart from that. How do your personalities interact, what do you like to talk about with each other?
Also, I read Reki’s page on the fandom wiki, but still couldn’t understand a few things. Or rather, I have my guesses, but I’d like to know for sure. The dream she had in the cocoon – what exactly was it about? Do I understand correctly that she has committed suicide in her past life? And what exactly happens to a haibane on their day of flight, after they cross the wall? What determines when does the haibane take their flight?
ohoho!!! wow thanks so much for taking so much interest and reading thru her wiki page. so.
please please pleaaaase watch haibane renmei. it is one of my favorite anime of all time. it's a very existential, psychological anime that examines a lot of themes about personal identity, grief and life's purpose. a lot of the questions you have are intentionally open-ended questions for you to sit on while you reflect on the themes. nobody knows when a haibane's day of flight will be, it just happens and takes them swiftly and abruptly. it's an allegory for suicide, or at the very least the acceptance of death.
we never see what's past the walls either, and we just get to speculate on what their lives are like now, and never truly get closure.
the dreams in the cocoon are essentially the haibane's last look at their previous life, i think. or at least a symbolic dream about their previous life. we mostly see the protagonist, Rakka's, explored the most, but Reki's gets a bit of screentime near the end of the series. Haibane are named based on what their dream was, as that dream will help them find their true self. when they find their true self is when they will take their day of flight.
my s/i doesn't have a name yet but is heavily based on my fictive source, roxas kingdomhearts lol. i've been debating having xir name be Yuuyami (spelled 夕闇) as a reference to Yuuyami Doori Tankentai, and since 夕闇 's kanji is relevant to my personal story. 夕 being twilight / dusk and 闇 meaning darkness. I don't speak Japanese, I just have Japan Autism and like to do research. The kanji in names ends up being important in Haibane Renmei, gently, so I wanted to find something fitting. i'm not super sure on it yet
xir personality is heavily extrapolated from how i act in 358/2 days, where i'm kind of a nonfunctioning husk for a solid third of my existence, then get really sentimental about my friends, and then filled with a strong sense of justice as my day of flight approaches.
anyways- since i struggle with a really strong detachment from reality, and reki helped me explore ways to express that in art. i'm one of the very first haibane under reki's care after kuramori's day of flight, and right after she started exploring painting after losing her. so we hone our skills together, have a lot of long talks, and make a lot of beautiful art together :] . A lot of what we talk about pertains to the themes of the show, what it means to be a person, what reality truly is beyond the town, how to process emotions and what grief does to a person. stuff like that.
i also enable her rebellious tendencies more than we should. it ended up biting us both in the ass several times, which is why she's such a hardass with the rules with Rakka.
soooo anyways tldr: i need to work on my s/i more lol
