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(thank you for having me in your thoughts. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3) I don’t know if I can vouch much of any good things about myself as I strive to be better than I was before in terms of being a decent human being or stronger in enduring life’s shit...But I can list what my friends tell me based on my actions from moral principles.

1. Kindness

This was listed as I have been shown to help people no matter who they are. This kindness does come to a fault that even when others haven’t been very nice to me int he beginning or eventually... I still try my best to help them out regardless. I have gotten in trouble of taking on too much than I can or need to. But, I do this because if we don’t show kindness, our world can’t become better or it won’t be a good place and will regress to something awful. I also know from personal experience that the smallest of kindness can mean the most or even everything to one soul. So, if you can do it and can afford too...why the bloody hell not.

2. Loyalty / 3.Dedication

These coexist together in a way where, to a point, I can’t not talk about these together. But... This really comes to a fault. I have seen it many times with myself. I have fallen into dark moments of sadness because no matter how bad some has treated me... I still stayed loyal to the point where I become emotionally in pain from them. I am that person that gets told others don’t feel safe at a con unless I am there, because more often than not, I answer to everyone’s calls when they are in a bad bind out there; from stuck in a party room,  creepers, or some person that has hurt them is there and mucked up their time . I would spend my money ....or go out there at 12 midnight to come to help you if I am not tied up at the moment. I have run out at 3 am in a hotel during the convention to take people out of party rooms... I literally just can’t ignore my friends and loved ones... and even just the ideals that you need to help people out in need when you can. There are some people I hardly know, just acquaintances, and here I am here to help out. Sometimes… I think I treat people better than myself a lot of time.

4. Compassion

The other day a friend I became close with within this past year had told me that I was one of the most compassionate people she’s ever know. I don’t think I can touch upon it as I think I wrote some of it in the last 3 listings. But I am someone that I know for sure relate to more or try to. I try to listen and see what others see. I try to help and support. I might not understand every emotion and experience felt. And that would be arrogant to say that I know. But I do know from my personal experiences that others have given me…good or bad… I just know most if not all need to be helped and supported… someone to care a bit… we don’t need to relate to all things but we should know how it feels when no one is there for you at all. I’m sorry if people know this kind of thing…and for those that don’t I hope you never have to feel it personally… it’s awful. I hope you have wonderful people in your lives.

5. Perseverance

I can’t say I am consistent. I’m human so I have my times where I just give up for the moment. But one thing I know for sure… is that even after everything that’s happened…. I come back crawling, even half dead, limbs falling, and yet… here I am. In honesty, with all the backstabbings I had from people closest to me up to even recent times now… I am still recovering after a whole year with more added to it…I am still here… I really believe there should have been a point where I shouldn’t have care to make relations with anyone anymore. But, I thought about this… why should a few people ruin your chances with others? Not everyone is the same. I sure as hell am not like those people…. So I have no right to say that everyone is that way. I gamble my morals and emotional states every time. I do have times where I believe that these good times will be over…nothing gold every stays…but the good moments won’t cover up the bad…and the bad won’t take away the good. I can only learn from it and be stronger if I dare try to keep on. Every day, I fight these insecurities but I don’t want these insecurities to drown what I have right now. Drowning in them will just make you unaware and not know what the good things you have are. These moments are fleeting but can last for a lifetime. And Honestly, I prefer to live and hold on to the good rather than the bad…even if I am struggling with that right now.

  TAGGING: Mmm… I think many friends have been tagged or did this already but,…