.24/04/2017 - Workout

• Jogging - 1km - 7″20 / 78kcal • Elliptical - 0.9km + Runtastic Results W04S01 - 52″ / 364kcal • Walk - 1.4km - 16″ / 96kcal

Monday, 24/04/2017 -

Quite a great day. Which didn’t start well, actually. I got to work at 6:30, and I was kind of stressed because I knew the doctor was coming back after a week off so I had to tell her EVERYTHING that happened last week (I am a nurse workout in a medical retirement house, I take care of 40 patients each day). It went well, I guess. But before that, I felt so exhausted because of 3 patients who couldn’t help screaming in the hallway, I lost all of my patience ..It was awful. I am ashamed to say that I had to take 1/4 a pill because I really needed to calm down.. I was so angry I could have cried, I can’t even explain. Those are the times I wonder if I will be able to be a nurse my whole life, even I had chosen the right job ... But the rest of the day was great so I can say I had a great day.

I got really motivated as I got home, I cleaned my appartment, I ironed my clothes, and after that I went at my parent’s to feed Mia, their cat, and her 4 little babies, they are soooo cute. Then I bought some food for tonight and I had a good dinner. I guess I ate a little too much but it’s okay, I don’t even feel guilty. 

Still wondering if I have to keep on using Weight Watchers or get back to MyFitnessPal, because I found out that Weight Watchers made me eat a lot less calories than I should (approx. 1000-1300, and I think it is really low and kind of unhealthy). I don’t really know what to do.

Now I’m going to change, and to walk to the gym for my Runtastic Results workout.

Thursday, 27/04/2017 - Workout 

 - Attempt to do my Decathlon program but I had this awful ankle pain once again .. So I walked instead : 33" - 3,12km / 212kcal.  - Runtastic Results W04S03 + cool down : 28" / 154kcal 

Okay so it started as I thought was a great day : I didn’t plan a workout so I had the chance to sleep a little longer (even though the more I sleep, the more I feel tired). I had breakfast, went to feed my parent’s baby cats, did everything I had on my to do list for the day, and I was even looking forward to go to work because we had an intervention with the hygiene nurse (the path I’d like to follow, actually) about waste recycling (I try to sensibilise people at work but it doesn’t seem to work that well).

Even my work was great, it was calm, no emergency so I had the time to take care properly of my patients, to talk with them, etc. But I don’t know, I wasn’t okay. It’s been a long time since I felt this way. I was sad.

I feel so alone these days. My boyfriend went back to school after  weeks at home (he studies 250 km away from me), and my parents are on holidays. I feel great in my appartment, but yesterday, I didn’t want to come home to be alone. 

I’m so ashamed of myself, because I bought burgers from McDonalds on my way home (I really need to stop wasting money on fast food...). I ate clean the whole day and then I ruined it. I feel so awful ..

Today’s positive point :

I liked the intervention with the hygiene nurse.

I did my tax return this morning and I found out that since I only worked half of the year (2016,I graduated in july, so I worked from august to december), I don’t have to pay taxes this year !!

My day at work was great (13h30 - 21h (1:30pm to 9pm for some of you guys). Great collegues, time for my patients.

Today’s negative points : 

I found out that the group project I wanted to join at work (hygiene) didn’t have any place left. There’s only one place per ward and ours is already taken by one of my coworker for years.