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💬 mengqi98 use the washroom if you have to!!!! don’t just dance!!!! ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ just kiddinggg this is from when we were recording our mini album~ you know, our leader might seem serious sometimes but shes pretty funny (looking) 😌 thank you for taking care of our group!!!! 💜💜 happy birthday sunmom 💜💜🎉🍰  

☆ﾟ.*･｡ﾟ 200501 BIRTHDAY VLIVE ˎˊ˗

AND*ROMA is LIVE! [ gif credit ]

the phone connects and sunmi is beaming to the camera. a stream of comments flow in: and*roma fans excitedly wishing her happy birthday and asking what she’s going to do for her first vlive broadcast. there’s already over a hundred thousand hearts. they’ve been working hard before the broadcast. she’s excited.

“hello everyone!” she greets cheerfully. she see a new wave of comments. many freaking out at her saying anything. it makes her grin. she sees a few comments asking about the other members of and*roma, what they were doing. sunmi blinks. “ah! they’re somewhere else right now. some are probably in their rooms sleeping, i think.” she keeps a wide smile. “it’s okay! we’ll do this video silently so we won’t disturb them, hm?”

she let’s some time pass where she’s just watching the comments. thousands of people asking different things at once. the comments scroll quickly. she hums. “are you guys coming to my birthday fan meeting? it’s tomorrow! check it out on nova’s website. you’ll come see me right?” there’s many english speaking fans. she figured she should talk to them as well. “i was telling them i have a birthday fan meeting. i know many of you aren’t in korea.....so i feel like a vlive can give everyone a chance to celebrate. and it’s late here so it’s earlier in other parts of the world.” this triggers an onslaught of comments of fans who are in shock with her speaking english. “i’m from new york! of course i know how so speak english.”

moondarae:

another year older ; happy birthday to me! 🎂 #taurusszn

@jsominrk

She feels like she isn’t meant to show up around any of the company’s idols no matter how she looks at it. It’s probably the concept that she might cause a ruckus or something, even though she only means well to try to give her fiancée a gift for her birthday. Instead, she asks Dahae if she can deliver the gift for her, hesitant to show her face anywhere near the fanmeeting site. 

She had worked on it practically every day, wanting to give her something that she could at least cherish, even if the teddy bear’s smaller than a sheet of paper in height.

Somin’s also attached left a letter inside, written so carefully so as to not arouse suspicion of their relationship if anyone discovered the note. Any attempts to try to make an acrostic poem riddle were quickly dashed when she realized how terrible she was at it, so it never made it to the final version.

Dear Sunmi,

Happy birthday!

I’m sorry I wasn’t there to be able to give you your gift, but I wanted this to get to you today without getting in trouble. I had thought about what to give you, and I know I tend to overdo it on the gift giving department, so I wanted to give you something that would make you smile.

It’s not my greatest work, but it’s not bad for the first try, right?

Being another year older isn’t something to grieve about. It’s about remembering the memories you made in the past year, for being able to survive another wonderful year and I’m thankful to have met you. We all have our ups and downs, whether it’s through work or with relationships with one another.

Please stay healthy, and take care.

Sincerely, Somin ♡

P.S. I wanted to tell you I went for a modelling audition the other day. I’m still waiting for the results.

Dahae looks around for the AND*ROMA leader, the gift bag neatly shut to encase the delicate gift wrapped in purple tissue paper. “Excuse me, Sunmi-ssi– I mean, Darae-ssi! I want to pass this gift to you from a friend of mine!” She can only hope that Sunmi would notice her among the crowd of people waiting outside to see her, and take the gift before she takes off. 

sunmi was actually kind of glad they decided to have a birthday fan meeting. it was a small intimate affair. she was a little nervous about it. it was a first for sunmi and she was all alone. it wasn’t a bad thing but it felt a little awkward not to have the girls besides her. there was no one else to talk to, no one else to joke around with. just her and her fans.

one could argue that this gives fans maximum engagement. that because there was no one else for her to joke around with that she could talk with fans more. they would be right but there was a sort of emptiness being seated at the long table by herself.

so many fans and so many gifts. and she tried to make a point to not let staff take away the letters. she has a nice pile right next to her that she vows to read when she gets back to the dorms. there will be no doubt that the staff will try to sort out all the gifts but she swears she wants to keep as much as possible.

when it’s wrapped up there’s still some fans who await outside who weren’t able to attend the meeting. she pauses as often as she can, smiling and taking letters and birthday gift bags. she spots a familiar face in the crowd. dahae. she doesn’t know her personally. that’s somin’s friend. but she recognises her from photos and posts on social media.

moondarae: yah!! you can't show them that i actually can't dance ㅋㅋㅋ thank you so much (baby) meiqi~~💞

… 💌 ᵎ  ok ………………….. … 💌 ᵎ  i’m not mad ……….. … 💌 ᵎ  /// … 💌 ᵎ  just a little concerned  … 💌 ᵎ  about how you joined a reality show but was like nah at joining royal’s … 💌 ᵎ  not mad ….. just VERY CONCERNED … 💌 ᵎ  definitely not mad bc at least nova is FINALLY doing something for you … 💌 ᵎ  was really about to be CONCERNED at the fact that nova is Lacking af … 💌 ᵎ  but you were so cute in the first episode so i don’t know if i can be really mad … 💌 ᵎ  i hope you’re okay because … reality shows can be really shit … 💌 ˟  ik …. i was in three  –  ❪ DELETED ❫ ᵎ … 💌 ᵎ  but i really hope you’re doing okay

﹡* ❪  SMS ☎︎ ┊  MY LETTY 💓 ❫  ⨯   、 2019년 4월 23일

… 💌 ᵎ  this show is getting so annoying … 💌 ᵎ  i’m literally so mad you have like zilch screen time … 💌 ᵎ  how could they DO THIS TO YOU !!!

﹡* ❪  SMS ☎︎ ┊  MY LETTY 💓 ❫  ⨯   、 2019년 4월 29일

… 💌 ᵎ  im sorry im so ANNOYED … 💌 ᵎ  they stick you in a dungeon, berate you, and THIS is how they treat you on national television … 💌 ᵎ  it’s actually gross wtf

                      ﹡* ❪  CALL 📞 ┊  MY LETTY 💓 ❫  ⨯   、 2019년 5월 2일                                                                          VOICEMAIL ᵎ [ 00:00:59 ]

… “hi letty, LET ME TELL YOU – oh, sorry.” there’s some shuffling and the sound of a door closing in the background. “okay – sorry, i had to go to my room because the manager was giving me a really Bad eye, but oh my god. letty it’s your birthday and i can’t believe i can’t spend it smashing cake into your face. this is the saddest thing ever. but – anyways, happy birthday letty ~ it’s been 234912312 hours since i’ve last talked to you and i know you only get your phones on the weekend but i couldn’t resist leaving you a message. one that you can actually reply to. i miss you so much and honestly seeing you through the television doesn’t do you justice because nova is deciding to be a little shit with it’s editing AND I MUST SAY IT IS SHIT because what the actual fuck –” she huffs, pauses before taking a breath. “okay, that isn’t why i called. i called because i hope you have a nice birthday, and you’re able to be a little bit happier on this day being surrounded by people who love and care about you even though none of those people are me or jinkyung. but i swear, i love you most!” it’s all a tumble of words that she says way too fast that at the end of it she’s taking a nice, long breath and an exaggerated sigh before she continues: “and what birthday is a birthday without the birthday song?” honestly, you could literally, most likely, probably feel the smile coming through the receiver, “and a-one, a-two, a-three, two four! happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday my letty ~ happy birthday to y –” END VOICEMAIL. 

she wants to text mijoo back. she wants to explain why she didn’t join royal survival. she wanted to tell her how she wasn’t in a good headspace and royal survival ended up treating mijoo like shit anyways, so imagine how much worse it would have been for sunmi herself. it wasn’t her time to do it.

she regrets not doing enough. she doesn’t need reminders.

sunmi wants to let her know that she’s doing fine. nothing crazy happened yet. there’s some minor annoyances and she knows they’re not going to do to well but she can’t share that with anyone and it kills her a little. she has to live with this inside of her. she can’t even confess during interview times because it would only be used for drama.

when mijoo texts her again (and she sees it), she’s not surprised to know that she’s not given any screen time. she figures it would be mostly focused on the one nova trainee they’ve only ever given any kind of focus on in the last five years. she isn’t even annoyed to find out that that may just be the case. she wasn’t expecting any screen time or following during this show. she knows that nova will do whatever they want with her because they did nothing but lock her away when she was at the height of popularity by trainee standards.

sunmi wants to text back and tell her she feels like this was a glorified way of just promoting the boys solely because that’s all nova has ever cared about. she hates having the inability to share anything beyond courtesies when they’re on the phone. she hates keeping things from her best friend. they don’t do that.

they don’t do that.

things haven’t been going well. she can’t even face mijoo for the phone call this weekend. she really can’t think of anything to say to the other. if the show has been cut, edited and posted online before it’s even over, there’s no telling what mijoo has already seen. nothing for her to be disappointed in sunmi, apparently, because she still seeems to be on her side. it’s a reminder that mijoo has always been there through thick and thin and that’s not likely to change any time soon. it’s relieving.

she knows mijoo is trying her absolute best to make sunmi happy even when she’s under lock and key away from the general public. the voicemail makes her smile. it’s not that her best friend remembered -- it’s the fact that she took the time out of her undoubtedly full schedule to talk to her. to try and communicate with her. it’s been hard and sunmi has all but forgotten about her birthday but she’s glad that at least some people think of her on the outside even when her company doesn’t.

【 YOU HAVE ONE NEW MESSAGE .... 】

sunmi chuckled at the voicemail. “wow, what a blast from the past, eh?” she says to herself. she’s smiling while hyosung’s voice plays through the audio output of her phone. good job. sunmi shakes her head. if hyosung knew why she couldn’t pick up the phone then something about the project must have aired.

[ delivered on May 2, 2019 ]