And finally to the man that gave me more encouragement than anyone on the planet @riskone Marques Lewis. He left 2 yrs ago on my birthday, and I’ve been trying to figure it all out since. This is a man who called me while I was boarding a plane after I’d just found out he had cancer. He called to see if *I* was ok. He told me not to cry, and insisted “all would be goodie”. Before we hung up, he said “go kill it for us” & “I love you.” And then his fight started. And let me tell you, he fought with all his might. We would speak when he was feeling good, and we would text when he wasn’t. Around the end of August, communication became more seldom. He would text me and apologize for not feeling well, but would always end on a positive note. We would tell each other we loved each other, and he would always end with how proud he was of me. I routinely responded with “I’m just trying to be like Risk One!” and he would laugh. I cried after every phone call, every text. I knew the worst was coming. A week later he told me “it’s not looking good now” but still insisted he had to keep fighting. We used the 💪🏽 emoji about a million times. Needless to say, Marques was someone I looked up to. He lived out his dreams, loved with all his heart, was the funniest human on the planet, and ‘KILLT the club’ like no other. I will always have our insane memories. I will always think of him. And even though the pain hasn’t gone away (not one bit), I made a promise to live it up, and always take Risks on his behalf. I love you Marques. How dare you leave me on my birthday....but now you’re with me “forever....forever ever? FOREVER EVER!” #riskone #riskoneforever #alittlebitbetterthandope #fuckcancer (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpVnUFhhyWe/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=laa63x0ec9ul
