#rishifure

I imagine Fleki's life before the canaries paralleled Lycion's life pre-"transition" in many ways. Lycion canonically mistreated his body out of self loathing. Letting himself be beaten, abusing substances, all manner of self-destructive behavior with an underlying feeling of if i'm lucky, this will kill me. Fleki, in her own way, is quite similar.

I imagine Fleki spent much of her life homeless, barely eating and blowing most of her money on drugs. She has an addiction, not the sort where one has terrible chemical withdrawals, but rather an emotional dependence on drugs to feel any semblance of happiness. Flying far above the world that she hates and seeing the vivid beauty of what she considers the "real world", that's her escape. That was the only time she ever truly felt alive.

She's reckless with it, as well. Tripping alone in alleyways knowing she might vomit and aspirate and die alone with nobody to give a damn about it, and being just fine with that possibility. She doesn't exactly want to die, not actively, but she would welcome death if it came for her.

It's not until she meets Lycion that she really feels like there's reasons life is truly worth living. That she gets any sense of self-preservation beyond pure instinct.

Lycion was able to fix himself, but Fleki needed him to fix her. She's dependent on him to a degree. He takes care of her because she doesn't care enough to do it herself. Doesn't care about eating, doesn't care about drinking water, doesn't care about her own safety. But he makes her happy, sober or not. And that's something very rare for her.

And just like her, he too thinks the world is shit, but she is the light that makes it all feel worth it. They're both emotionally dependent on eachother, but Fleki is more dependent on Lycion, even though Lycion takes their relationship much more seriously.