Happy Anniversary 28years to my best friend, my first love and to someone who has meant more than anything. We kept each other going. We weren’t perfect but what was nice is we never claimed to be or had to pretend. But you always made time for me and your kids your first priority over work, over friends, over life. It may not have had a happy ending but I bet you we had a lot of amazing years and times. Love does last, our was until death do us part. I’m sorry you felt that was the way you had to see it... it seems we were both battling to the end. I’m angry a lot now, what your missing. A beautiful grand baby who still talks of Pappy #pappysbestfriend to a daughter in #Purdue and a son who is single handing raising his son. Just like your love for him. You would be so proud. We may have done things wrong in life and made mistakes but we have two amazing kids we did do right. Our family and our lives are still the core 3 plus a baby makes 4 lol. We are family we are best friends and we are survivors. We never talked about life ending like this. We were going to be the old couple smack each other with canes (jokingly) but I know this world was hard on you your whole life and you always said you weren’t meant to take it. I’m sorry the 4 of us couldn’t make up for all the others who let you down. I sit and think now ... 2 years out... everything that was wrong could of been fixed somehow by now. Maybe not in the way you or I would of wanted it but you’d still and would of been here for everyone when we need(ed) you most. I can’t say I forgive you right now.... but I can say I understand a little more than most. So I will be spending tomorrow by myself for the most part. I’m honestly ready to get it over with, then hopefully this deep depression can lighten up a bit.. “and I who went to sleep in tears woke up in tears after all of the years as you slipped away....GOODBYE BABY.... I hope your hearts not broken, you were with me all the while and ILL BE WITH YOU ONE DAY” #suicidesucks #mentalhealthawarness #ripstephenphilburn #allthegloryyearsareovernowIMonmyown https://www.instagram.com/p/B23XO4-BQgyOTq9XXAPJsZsK8brPHFKEOyWE1s0/?igshid=n5fotz8ubp2t
