Booster
It's been a long time since I felt confident in myself. Maybe because I see people around me have achieved so much while I'm just stuck in here. So, often, I doubt myself. Do I really deserve it here? Am I just a burden for my husband? Even though he always assures me that I'm not a burden, I'm enough. Sadly, often, the outsider's voice is louder than his.
And then, this competition happens. I got into the team, even though I'm just a replacement. I was still doubting myself until the announcement said our team had passed the selection and that we would go to Jakarta for the presentation. I'm happy. I am proud, but some discordant sound still asks me what I will do there. So, I'm constantly trying to prove my worth. And finally, the result is out. We won. We secured the grant. So, here I am. Kinda relief but still questioning my contribution :")
So, I posted it to remind myself. To, I don't know. Maybe just to write about it. So maybe, one day I'm doubting my self, I can see this post.
