(okay first of all thank you so much for asking <3)
Wow, we were just a mess. But hey, we still are, and you might as well know now that being a mess isn’t always a bad thing. And you know what else isn’t a bad thing, you confused little angel? Standing up for ourselves. Take it from me (because I’m just now learning it), that we can speak your mind. No one hurts you more than you in those situations. We know you’re not happy, so do something about it. I try to keep that logic in mind so I can be someone you’d be proud of today. But you have to do something about it to make it better. Work for what you want, hun.
Even though it all sucks right now for potentially a plethora of reasons, I wouldn’t change it for the world because of not only chaos theory (you’ll learn more in your Jurassic Park phase) but because it makes us who we are today. And that’s a really good thing. So just tough it out sweetheart, just hold on for a little while longer. There will always be dark spots but, hey, that’s life. What’s so cool about us is that we’ll manage to make the best out of it and find something making life worth living.
Eventually you’ll feel like a slightly narcissistic goddess, and everything will have been worth it. Stay strong and keep your head held high.