i felt alone, cold, hurt, and jealous.

all these things you've felt...for real....

i'm too stubborn to say anything. 

i wish i could punch myself in my face.

i wish it wasn't 100 degrees.

so i could wrap my body up in cotton blankets.

shaped like a shirt and pants.

today i woke up missing you.

you were laying right beside.

you came home late afterwork.

there was another energy here, feminine.

my senses are guiding me from sleep state to conciousness.

the whispers shared are for my sake, please do not wake the sleeping bear.

i try to hear your conversation, seems basic, im still jealous.

why are you awake with someone random whilst i sleep.

waiting for you to come tell me sweet nothings.

an hour goes by or more.

seems like this energy is leaving, its been quiet so thank you.

¥ou came to bed hoping for an embrace.

i was hurt and jealous, i pretended to be sleeping.

you seem concerned, still i'm stubborn and i refuse your kindness with sleepy groans.

you get fed up with this, turn your back to mine and go to sleep.

why didn't you try harder...why didn't you want to convince me more?

i woke up this morning missing you.