And then I WOKE UP and I was like - no. Noooooo but I can see the AO3 page with the 'lettered' author in the AO3 font *so clearly* but clearly I dreamt this 25k fic up and now I cannot read it DDD: 2/2

This sounds amazing. I'm sorry that I will never write 25k of Spiderman fic. As for the damage superpowered people cause when they're superheroing and who's responsible for the emotional damage of normal people, that sounds like a very interesting premise and one I'd be totally down to write, if I hadn't already shot my wad ten years ago writing about the questionable ethics of superheroes in Responsible Science.

I accidentally replied privately, but @karpingly asked:

5. What’s your favorite scene in Responsible Science?

I can’t choose between two from The Kids Weren’t Alright.  1) When everyone else gets re-aged except Bruce, he freaks out, and Natasha comes to get him, and 2) When Tony has to do a scan of kid!Bruce and keeps joking around to set kid!Bruce at ease, but it only makes kid!Bruce more tense, and Tony finally has to ask Natasha for help.

I love those scenes because they do my favorite thing, which is being trapped in the narrator’s head but knowing what the other characters are thinking while the viewpoint character doesn’t get it really. 

But also I love the first one because I have felt that anger and that shame, and also what it feels like to come down out of that and you start to feel your own body again and it is sweaty and awkward and weird.  I wrote that in a way that made it feel EXACTLY how I have felt and that is not always achievable.

I’m kind of thinking about The Force Awakens and about how I want to write fic because I have Things To Say (but mostly about Luke Skywalker), but all the ideas I have feel really uninspired because they just take up directly at the end of the movie and say what happened next.  Anyway this was how I felt directly after The Avengers, so I went and looked at some old fic I started writing then.  I’m reading this unfinished fic that is like, the first thing I wrote after seeing TA.  It’s a fic about all of them getting schwarma and I come across this priceless gem:

“I just don’t think it would be a good idea to cut off a chunk of an alien you know nothing about, and go and start—testing it’s DNA and inventing serums and miracle cures,” Steve said.  Bruce thought that Steve didn’t mean to, but it didn’t matter--Steve still looked his way.

Bruce looked at his shawarma.  He had absolutely nothing to say about irresponsible science.

And I was like wow, I really have a one track mind when it comes to MCU.

Then I was like, who am I kidding.  The only fics I want to write about The Force Awakens are all about  the ethics of Force training anyway. 

I don’t want my heroes pure.  I want them fucked up and tangled and full of real drives and wants and desires.  This is a long series but I have read and reread it and it has yet to disappoint.