Your Inner Child Mistook Inconsistency for Love
The Familiarity of Absence
If you find yourself drawn to partners who seem just out of reach, who keep you guessing, who offer just enough to keep you hooked but never enough to let you rest—your nervous system isn't broken. It's just following an old map. That map was drawn when you were small, when love came with conditions, when affection was withdrawn as punishment, when you had to earn closeness by being good enough, quiet enough, or helpful enough. Your inner child learned that love is something you chase, something that might vanish if you stop trying.
The Cost of the Chase
Every time you pursue someone who feels unavailable, you're reenacting a scene from your own history. The tension, the uncertainty, the hope—it all feels familiar because it's what you knew first. Your body mistakes that adrenaline for chemistry, that anxiety for desire. But what you're really doing is trying to rewrite a story from your childhood: if only you can make this person stay, maybe you are lovable after all. The problem is that this pattern hollows you out. It teaches you that your worth is conditional on someone else's response. It keeps you small, waiting, and exhausted.
Reparenting the Part That Still Hopes
To break the cycle, you need to become the parent you always needed. That doesn't mean being harsh or rejecting your own longing. It means meeting your inner child with steady, unconditional presence. When you feel the urge to chase, pause and ask yourself: What does this younger part of me really need right now? The answer is almost never more pursuit. It's reassurance. It's safety. It's someone who doesn't leave or make you guess. You can be that someone for yourself. You can sit with the ache without acting on it. You can remind yourself that love that requires you to run after it isn't love—it's a trap dressed in familiar clothes.
Safety Is the New Spark
Real attraction doesn't have to feel like a roller coaster. Steady attention, calm presence, and consistent care can feel just as electric once you retrain your nervous system to trust them. Let yourself be drawn to people who don't make you work for their affection. Let yourself rest in relationships that feel like homecoming, not negotiation. Your inner child deserves to know what it feels like to be chosen without having to perform. You deserve to stop chasing and start being found.
How to Start Today
Begin by journaling to the part of you that still believes love is earned. Write a letter from your adult self to your inner child, promising that you will no longer abandon them in the pursuit of someone who can't stay. Practice saying no to situations that require you to shrink or prove yourself. Let yourself be drawn to the quiet, steady presence of people who are simply there. Over time, your nervous system will learn that safety is not boring—it's the most healing thing you can give yourself.
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