#renu rambles

Daylight savings is the stupidest fucking concept except for this year when it falls on Nov 5 and we get an extra hour of destiel <33

When Dean is on his knees and grabs Cas' wrist in the crypt, permanently breaking the connection between Cas and heaven, it should've left a handprint

After Dean and Cas get into a fight, Cas pours some oil under the Impala and watches Dean lose his shit as he tries to figure out what's wrong

Cas dating someone else would result in a very messy situations of Dean being overly encouraging and weirdly involved in Cas' relationship and then he'd go sulk in his room but Dean dating someone else would result in multiple attempts of murder <33

emmanuel's guilty pleasure is the supernatural series by carver edlund

Sorry I'll never get over Dean's love language being cooking and Cas' safe space being the bunker kitchen

Anyways I'm thinking. Stanford era Dean. After Cassie and everything. Going to Ikea when he can. Just wandering around and looking at the different room displays set up, hands trailing across the different kitchen counters and the thick duvets. He thinks quietly to himself, about which paint colours feel inviting and comforting, the wardrobes and desks. He looks and thinks and wonders and deep, deep down and it's so incredibly small but he hopes. And an employee walks up to him just staring at one particular display and asks if they can help and he shakes his head and very, very quietly he says, "no just browsing" before putting on his signature Dean smile and turning away. And he eats at the food court and his eyes keep drifting over to the families and couples at check out, most of the smiling, excited about adding to their home. And he hurts all over and he goes back to baby and he loves her, he does but he could never assemble a bed in here the way he desperately wants to. He parks somewhere far away, shoves his arm under his head and tries desperately to fall asleep

Sometimes I remember that John used to send Dean away for pissing him off without giving Sam any sort of explaination, making Sam think Dean just abandoned him, and I see red