i think a person is most ugly when they look at themselves in a mirror or when they're trying to take a nice picture because at that moment, they're not stimulated by any emotion and their face is devoid of feeling. tbh, i used to strongly believe facial features are what define a person's physical beauty. i took pride in my facial features being superior to those of nearly everyone i knew. when i entered 10th grade, i slowly lost my bubbly charm and the spark in my eyes, lost my will and motivation to do daily tasks, emotionally distanced myself from people, and just felt burnt out in general. i used to turn heads and catch people’s attention with my appearance, but i don’t anymore. at some point, i lost myself. i stopped taking care of myself. every glance taken at a mirror takes away another piece of my self confidence and love i hold for myself. i used to think it’s because i’ve gained a little weight and my facial features have gotten uglier, but as i watched people who i used to think were ugly— people with diverse physical features and body types— post stunning pictures of themselves, i realised that nobody’s physical features changed, it was the view of themselves they held that had improved, thus making them prettier. i don't like how i look and i don’t smile as often, especially not from my heart, and that’s why i’m not pretty anymore.
i think a person is most pretty when they’re truly themselves and when they’re so engrossed in the moment that they forget about their physical self. when they’re going on and on about something they love or are passionate about, when they’re on the edge of the couch watching a long-awaited moment from their favorite tv show, when they’re enjoying ice-cream with a friend, when they’re screaming on a roller coaster, when they’re napping after a long day, or when they’re cackling at a meme they found online. i think a person is most pretty when they’re alive. cameras cannot capture your physical beauty, your glow, and your charm in these moments, only people can. sometimes we forget how beautiful we can be because we see ourselves from the pov of a camera or a mirror, and not human eye.
i’m most alive when i’m talking to people and making new friends; the more i converse physically, the more i thrive. when i started going to school in person and talking to so many people, i started turning heads again— not as much as i used to, but it’s a great start. it’s because i’m in my zone, i’m feeding and nurturing my soul. i’m the best version i can be and i feel my inner self pouring out, coating my skin, making me glow.
find those moments when you truly feel yourself, when your inner self thrives, when it is fed and nurtured. appreciate them, hold onto them, chase after them, recreate them, and let them heal you. let them bring out the best version of yourself and make you the prettiest you can be.
5 STAR by CL is one out of many songs that make me feel the same way.
there is a song out there that’ll make you feel more you than ever. use it to remind yourself to chase after the real and pretty you.
weirdly inspired by ish, also what i would reply to one of her posts with.
