I'm fucking gutted for Logan. I've seen all the shit about this sport not being fair and whatnot, but I'm entitled to my feelings, okay?

Logan spun out during FP2 and managed to not hit the wall. He ran the car and put some decent times on the board. He didn't do anything wrong and is being punished.

Something doesn't add up here is all I'm saying. Me and my strong sense of justice would never. Props to Logan for being calm around all the media.

Again, fairness aside, Logan should be the one in that car for a number of reasons. Like how Alex has a record of crashing here. Them saying Alex is their best chance at points not only breaks Logan's confidence but also shows that there is a mixed standard. Logan could crash, and he would get moved aside, lectured, whatever. Alex crashes, and all of a sudden, he's the one being moved aside when he performed better? That specifically doesn’t make sense to me.

I WILL REITERATE AGAIN! I understand the nature of this sport. It just ruins how people view the Williams team as a whole. It's more the reasons why they did it that I am struggling to comprehend. Not when it leaves them with more negatives then positives from a logical standpoint.

YEA SOFTDOM CARLOS PLEASE!!! Like it my mind, aside from a couple of guys from indycar and motogp, he is like the ultimate softdom. Like he is BUILT FOR IT and I don’t know why.

Oh and thank you, that means a lot 🥹 this is the first one I’ve had in a while (yay pills!) and it was really intense so I took the rest of the day off. Please take care of yourself and REMEMBER TO DRINK WATER!

-🏍️

I personally think that Carlos, Max, Daniel and Oscar would be the best softdoms. Pardon me as I go on a rant about this...

Max is basically a teddy bear. The man is dad coded and a provider at heart and you can't convince me otherwise. He might not be the best at reading the specifics of what you would need but would definitely take over once he understood what you needed. Would probably have you cockwarm him while he's SIM racing, occasionally stroking your back until he gets you to fall asleep.

Oscar seems to good at reading people to not understand what you need. Like, every fucking interaction he has with Lando is usually him adapting to what Lando needs. He'd know what you needed before you even did. He'd have you on your knees with his dick in your mouth as he answers emails and pets your head.

Daniel gives me playful vibes. Like he know what you need but makes you ask for it anyway. He would actually just make your brain melt to stop the thoughts and then make all the decisions for you so thinking is unnecessary. Goodluck moving since he's literally fucked you stupid but he'll take care of you afterwards, so it's worth it.

He just gives me the creeps. Like Max’s tone when talking about him reminds me of myself talking about my parents.

Detached. Wanting to move on but still try to be open about it even though it’ll make ppl ask questions especially if you avoid and don’t answer the question. (Did that make sense?)

So yeah. I don’t know him, but from what I can observe through a screen I’m not a fan.

- 🦒

IT DOESSSSS

(Hello new anon! Thanks for joining me and starting a rant!)

Don't get me STARTED on the psychology that is Max Verstappen. His mind is my obsession and how anyone could ever paint him as a villain hasn't been through trauma with a parent (or hasn't realized that they have).

Like, joking about trauma is a very clear indicator?? "My dad did that once to a mechanic??" I'm sorry??? Max, baby, that's not something you're supposed to laugh about...

Key word here is supposed. I laugh about my trauma all the time and it concerns my therapist.

It sucks that Max's personal life is out there for the media to pick apart. I've seen debates about Jos' parenting style and how he has given Max everything. I don't see any ungrateful bone in Max's body. If he was, then Jos would've been out of Max's life the second he turned eighteen.

So then people ask: if Jos is a bad parent, why is he still around Max?

Answer: Traumaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

(Rant under the cut about abuse trauma... you've been warned)

Thank you to everyone in my inbox who has been sending me love and support! I finally got the courage to actually look again and was so overwhelmed by the amount of people who have so encouraging!

I know I've been mildly inactive aside from posting a few fics here and there but I really needed to learn to write for myself. I have some amazing projects in the works and an even more amazing support group of people that have been helping me out!

Due to the influx of nasty messages in my inbox (again...lol), I'm going to be switching to AO3 as the platform where I post ALL my fics.

I'll still be around writing and active here on Tumblr, but all my work will be moved. I'm not sure exactly how it's all going to look. Probably a lot of links...

I'm aware that negative anonymous comments shouldn't get to me. However. These are the nasty comments that shouldn't EVER be said to anyone. I like talking to y'all, and I'm sorry that it's kind of ruined now since I'll be turning my anonymous asks off.

I think it should be said that when someone is open about their trauma; it should not be used against them. I'm tired of waking up to messages telling me I'm a horrible disgusting person, that I need to get a life, that I can't write about these dark topics forever. It's not fair to me as a person because in reality y'all don't know what I've been through. I don't write to make you happy.

I share my work because I like bringing comfort to those who don't always get it. I like helping build a community where others can feel safe when things get rough.

Not only that - but the majority of what I've written is from experience. Those dark fics I post? Either me or someone else close to me has experienced a version of it. Some are specific requests because there are those who want to throw themselves into fantasy land to feel comforted for just a little bit.

I will never understand how someone can send the kinds of messages I've been getting. I thought maybe I could handle it - that this is just part of being a writer... but it gets so tiring.

So, all that said, if you see things shifting around my blog, that's why! I'll still he writing, and I'll share it on here with links and stuff, but hopefully, that will help the messages to die down.

Thanks for all the patience!

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favorite color:

Green!

last song:

... The entire Ender's Game score

currently reading:

Six of Crow (for the thousandth time)

currently watching:

Helluva Boss

currently craving:

Egg and cheese sandwich :D

coffee or tea:

Neither! I drink Monster...