#reluctantmockingjay

No.

"Backing down from a dare?"

*stares a 23 y/o's stare*

A scream echoed in her room, and its only seconds before she realized it is her own. Shes darted upright, a cold sweat beading on her forehead. 

Hes not there. Hes never there. Why would he be? She pushed him away so hard for so long….and now it was to late. Katniss couldn’t pull him to her if he wanted. Her mind races, fragments of painful memories claw at her heart. 

A battle.

                                                                           A sword.

            Her bow.

                                               A push….

            His face….his scream…

 and then his blood, splattered across her face like a permanent reminder that if it weren’t for her, he’d still be alive. Katniss can almost feel the blood on her cheek now, still warm, a fresh reminder. Even though she tried her best to wipe the feeling from her face she couldn’t escape it. 

Alex was GONE and he had died saving HER. It was all her fault.

"I’m sorry Alex…I’m so sorry. I..I never told you that…I love you.."

The archer hugged her knees to her chest, her face buried into them as her tears flowed freely. “I love you…and now you’ll never know.”

What did I do?

DEAR KATNISS YOU STANK

Dear Katniss,

  I pray to the Norns you never find this but I have to have some way to get it out, and there’s no way in the nine I’m telling my brother or anyone else.

I love you.

I love your laugh, your smile, the way your eyes sparkle every time you call me bildeshnipe shit. Everything about you is perfect, every little flaw is perfection.

You keep me rooted. You’re the reason I’m able to come back from my lowest point. 

I love you, Katniss.

I just wish you felt the same.

If I get 10 "voice"s, I (the mun) will record myself voice acting the character I roleplay.

5/10.

*snuggles* hope things get better