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I am an excellent communicator.

something was brought to my attention back in January that I've been thinking about ever since... I've had both positive and negative thoughts about this subject for numerous reasons... I'm going to rewind to December. Some of my friends were talking about two of my other friends and commenting how they thought they might be together. They weren't (I think) I thought nothing of it until January when the friend who initially made the comment of those two others being together asked me if I was dating one of them. I was not. It bothered me because I don't really like people assuming I'm with someone. Even if it's true. I was wrestling in my mind about it for weeks. I asked some of my other friends what they thought and many of them thought I was with this other person. I was getting really mad about it. Then in April came around and a friend of mine was coming home. I ended up feeling heartbroken over him because I felt like our friendship was one-sided. But I got through it and I felt a lot better. But as April came to a close the subject of me and this other person got brought up again. This time by one of my superiors. Someone who should really stay out of my personal life. And I was angry all over again. But I decided to not dwell on it this time and instead think about what I wanted and what would make me happy. So I talked to a different group of friends of mine who know not to make dumb assumptions about my life. This led to me admitting that I might be interested in this person. So I told someone else about this today. She basically just said "I KNEW IT!" so did her family. and now I'm just angry again and I don't know who to talk to about this so i'm just making a shitty tumblr post about it.