#recrimination

Recrimination

責任の擦り合い mutual recrimination

Thou booby, say'st thou nothing but cuckoo? The robin and the wren can thee outdo. They to us play thoróugh their little throats, Not one, but sundry pretty tuneful notes.

But thou hast fellows, some like thee can do Little but suck our eggs, and sing cuckoo.

Thy notes do not first welcome in our spring, Not dost thou its first tokens to us bring. Birds less than thee by far, like prophets, do Tell us 'tis coming, though not by cuckoo.

Nor dost thou summer have away with thee, Though thou a yawling, bawling cuckoo be. When thou dost cease among us to appear, Then doth our harvest bravely crown our year.

But thou hast fellows, some like thee can do Little but suck our eggs, and sing cuckoo.

Since cuckoos forward not our early spring, Nor help with notes to bring our harvest in:

And since while here she only makes a noise, So pleasing unto none as girls and boys, The formalist we may compare her to, For he doth suck our eggs, and sing cuckoo.

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Of the Cuckoo

John Bunyan  1628-1688

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Today, lot of things had happened, but the most remarkable one would be that I had thrown, just now bought fresh milk on the road.

When I realized what I have actually done, it was already too late.

Just then, I start to feel bad, and I was about to get into that swamp of recrimination, then I could barely get myself away from that, keep on saying, “There is no good” “If you want to retrieve your mistakes, then you can put things back depends on how you act from now”.

Therefore, I am going to give up, listing the “mistakes” that I have made today, and concentrate on now. I won’t think too much, not because I don’t want to face reality, consequences, feelings, justification, guilt, or all. Just to approach for another step. 

Yes, I have done something wrong, but it’s okay if you don’t do it later. Just don’t waste animal products from now on, don’t waste your money on something that is not in need, don’t eat fast-foods and force yourself to vomit, be careful with your food choice, don’t get swallowed by your anger or other fluctuating emotion, keep yourself away from any argument until you get yourself fully recovered.

Yeah, you will be okay in that way. You have been doing great! What you have made or done till now, is still good enough. You’ve been staying up all night these couple of days, and I think things will be in a much better shape tomorrow with enough sleep today, Amy. It’s okay to take rests, and sometimes, it brings you better result! 

You’ve still done great. Of course, there were some mistakes you have made, have to admit, but past is past, and the most importantly, you recognize what should be changed. Relex and get some sleep without any bothering. I love you. You deserved it :)

I fear silence

for it leaves me

to my words.

Their whispers

mouth

my periphery,

like minnows

tear a worm’s

flesh from

the steel hook

glimmering

in a creek’s

slow eddy.