reflections on what the hell has been going on with me since i came out as ace (greysexual) in 2022.
I'm still Ace! I usually go by acespec/aspec/ace spectrum because I like it better than "greysexual"
I have had "beef with gender" forever at this point, but labels are not really my vibe, so I couldn't decide which fit me best. I still don't like labels, however I feel like Agender is what describes me best. If Gender Chill was a label, I would claim that too.
I go by my default pronouns (she/her) but truthfully, I am okay with any pronouns. I announced this on a platform recently and one of my mutuals used they/them for me in a review post about one of my books. Euphoria was had.
Also sometimes when I pick up my kids from daycare, the other kids think I'm their brother. 😎 I'm also still good with gendered terms. I am both Baby Girl and Just Some Guy.
The way Trans lives are not being protected angers me beyond words. But a few weeks ago I was in New York (go knicks/you can suck my knick/Jaylen Brunson is my doctor) where Mamdani is actually doing real government shit, redirecting wealth to the city, and prioritizing the protections of marginalized groups, including Trans people. Being out there really gave me hope for the future because holy shit the world is not okay.
I'm really thankful for all of my online Queer friends/creators i've made over the years. Looking forward to more years of sharing creations and swapping stories.
Anyway, Happy Pride! gotta go update my bio now 🏳️🌈✨
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Oh damn. I’m about to give my actual 🧐opinions🧐 on the arcana. Scary stuff!
By the end of the Asra tale, I was pleasantly surprised that I enjoyed it as much as I did. And thankfully it wasn’t because I was practically asra-starved and surviving so long off my own damn content, but honestly because there were several key elements in the story that appealed to me personally. I’ll be going over those below the cut.
I’m also going to discuss how my apprentice Kipling and her specific connection with magic fits into all of this. Once again, that wasn’t really something I was expecting to develop so easily as I played the tale, but the experience was just too delightful to just keep to myself until I’m ready to write a fic.
There will be spoilers!
*Everything is under the cut!*
I’ll start with the basics first and then move onto Kip.
Locked boxes. Ok, not what you would expect in terms of things from the tale that are supposed to light up a reader’s brain, but whenever I see this little device (be it metaphor, motif, or just a plot developer) I go a little feral.
First of all, I KNOW the box is empty. They almost always are, but that’s not the point. Locked boxes (and to be clear, I’m talking about the chest Gavin hands over) could represent a lot of things — a personal challenge, an unnamed reward, possible disappointment, tiny little worlds that the characters are entrusted to protect. They spark questions like: why me? Do I have what it takes (to open this bad boy?) Is this what I’m meant to do? What does it mean if I can unlock/protect/discover its contents? What does it say about me if I can’t???
As a writer who LOVES to drag out simple devices until there’s not a single crumb left, I was LIVING for that chest as soon as it was placed in Asra and the MC’s care. If I could extend the tale, it would be such that Asra and the MC end up taking the box with them in addition to the Hyberian spices. Or at least some version of the box (which I am happy to elaborate on in a future fic!)
Asra’s character was sooooo consistent! Y’all. With the unfortunate decline of the quality of writing in Muriel’s route, I was losing faith in the devs’ ability to maintain Asra’s character. We all know that he’s a little flighty — a trait that I find endearing and also a little personal because I’m also kind of spacey as well as naturally prone to overlooking details because of either (1) daydreaming (2) don’t think it really matters.
Sorry — Anyway. Back to my point. Even though Asra’s supposed to give off the head-in-the-clouds vibe, they took that way too far in the last couple chapters of Muriel’s route to the point where (for me) he seemed rather childish and unreliable. For that reason, I was worried that this would be the case in the new tale. But it wasn’t! I felt like this tale showed all the sides of Asra that we came to know and love from his original route. It was so balanced and refreshing that for many points, I sat there staring at the sprites and the text, just processing all of the warm feelings I was having. And on top of Asra being consistent, he had also changed! The MC pointed out that Asra had been hiding his feelings for so long and now he no longer had to. I thought the scene where he got really protective of the MC was a great example of that. I don’t think that’s a side of himself he shows very often, especially in front of the MC because he doesn’t want to freak them out or push their feelings in a certain direction. For most of his route, it’s clear how much effort he puts into letting the MC make their own decisions and removing his personal desires from the equation in order to minimize any bias. But by the time this tale takes place, you can see that Asra is fully comfortable with being more open about his emotions. Instead of seething and shooting judge mental glares with salty comments, (because he also does this a lot) he actually elaborates on what he finds upsetting about the situation. He defends the MC without holding back as much as he has in the past. It was so hot 🥵 cool to see Asra stand up to Gavin like that! At the same time we got to see the bashful side of Asra in the bar. There were just so many sweet, fun small moments between him in the MC. I can’t wait to explore them in some way in the future!
THE CG???
ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME???? Y'ALL REALLY AIMED A MAGNIFYING GLASS ON THOSE DIMPLES AND LIPS AND SAID LOOK AT THIS???? I WAS SWEATING. I WAS CRYING. I WAS LIVING. I WAS DYING. HNNNNNNNNNN 😩🥴👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽🫀🫀🫀🫀
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Now I'm going to get a little bit into Kipling's magic...
For the record, my apprentice Kipling wields two types of magic: plant magic and teleportation magic. Though she relies on her plant magic more on average because of her job, it’s actually her secondary skill. Teleportation or grey magic is her primary and her mastery over it has taken much longer due to the fact that it’s tied to her culture, which she was not only separated from when she moved to Vesuvia, but also didn’t have a lot access to in the first place thanks to the centuries of cultural genocide that took place on her home island.
My timeline for Kip’s mastery of her primary magic doesn’t really sync up for when this tale takes place in the arcana timeline, so I have to repurpose it to fit the Door Lord timeline that takes place in my fics.
LOL I said all of that just to point out that during a lot of the chase scenes, Asra and Kip relied on her teleportation to evade the guild thieves. And since Kip is something of a locksmith when it comes to her magic, she was very intrigued with the box and was more concerned about opening it to see what was inside rather than delivering it to the marked location.
Also, in the Herbalist Hideaway, Kip’s first instinct to trade the box for the Hyberian spices because she felt that making Selasi happy was worth more than all this craziness with the chest. 😆 Asra of course, had to talk her out of it and encouraged her to give the merchant a reading instead.
There was definitely more that I loved about the tale, but these are the strongest highlights for me. Thanks for letting me brain dump on your dash!
I'm in the process of moving all of my really Arcana-specific writing over to AO3. This includes all reader x LI asks, Asra's Route Highlights, and the Vulpes Animus series (as well as any other Apprentice x LI writing)
Since this blog is mostly dedicated to the universe I have created for my ocs, I will continue to post writing connected to the Door-Lord-Nautilus timeline. I'll also keep using this blog to splash around with mutuals and explore other AUs
I do want to make it harder for users looking for arcana content to find me (more specifically those who are drinking the Dorian-is-good-actually koolaid) so I changed my blog name and hopefully that will make it harder for them.
If anyone looks up my old username (asras3rdeye), they will be redirected to a page explaining that I no longer write for the Arcana on tumblr and if you happen to see any of my ocs or writing anywhere else, to contact me immediately. I don't give my new url on that blog since it defeats the purpose of trying to escape arcana users.
With that being said, I still do encourage anyone who's following me to read and interact with my fics and any art I commission, even the old stuff. I'm not completely sanitizing this blog of arcana characters. At this point, characters like Asra, Nadia, and Muriel are very integrated in the door lords' experiences. I just won't be relying on arcana tags in any future fics.
If you have questions about any of my ongoing series, please just drop me an ask. I don't mind elaborating on certain things or answering questions related to arcana writing. I didn't want this post to get too long, so I only focused on what I believed was most important.
I’m writing vignettes for Midsummer Masquerade! Here’s all of my ocs that are open for requests:
Sun Bai
Solo
Kipling
Khleo
Ozy
DM me if you there’s a ship or prompt you had in mind. Preferably mutuals I’ve shipped with before, but open to consider new ships if you think it would be a good fit 😙
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just a reminder that this is a Fanfic Arcana blog with a heavy emphasis on OC development.
while i'm always happy to see my follower count grow, i can't help but feel like for all my efforts towards making things as organized as possible, most of my fics don't get read beyond my inner circle.
i'm going to try to get better about recycling old fics just as they come to mind. but also, if you're new and reading my stuff, i appreciate any interaction (likes/reblogs/comments) because i work really hard on my ocs and all my contributions to the arcanaverse.
and even tho i don't play as many ask games these days (bc they tend to overwhelm me) i welcome oc-related asks or even just drop-ins, especially if they are in relation to the Door Lords' albums or Sun Bai's pirate series. it may take me a while to get to them, but they're a nice way to let me know ppl are keeping up with my babies.