list of things I found devastating in the first two chapters of my assassin’s apprentice reread:
- fitz being six years old
- newboy and molly nosebleed
- the fact that later in rote fitz remembers his relationship as “simple” and “true” when the first thing he ever does for her is repel her father to protect her and “be grateful that Molly had not realized [he] was responsible,” lying by omission with good intentions since the very day he met her
- fitz thinking he has never been braver than he was as a boy running errands in Buckkeep Town, despite everything else he’s done
- truly understanding how young burrich is and the extent of his loss when chivalry abdicates
- fitz not knowing anything about the wit, his friends not caring that he does not speak and that the dog goes where he goes
- burrich’s hatred of the wit being so strong because of its presence in himself. his desire to protect fitz from it being so strong because of how much he loves chivalry. “If Chivalry will not have me with him, it’s the least I can do for him.”
- burrich comforting fitz after losing nosy in a way that implies he himself has lost a wit partner before. that, or the one he needs to “let go of longing after” is chivalry. maybe both
- “Utter loneliness was planted in me then, and sent its deep roots down in me.”
