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But was he yours? Neither of you had made a concrete commitment to each other or even spoken about what this was between the two of you.

Right now that didn't matter, right now you just knew you needed him. The high of the show running through you. Adrenaline pumping through your veins as you meet the pace of his lips. Hands roaming each other as he manoeuvres you through a doorway and kicks the door shut behind him with his boot clad foot.

Nothing else mattered as he pushed you against the now closed door, your kiss becoming more and more hungry. 

“Oh baby, you were amazing out there” Eddie's voice was low as he moved from your lips, leaving hot kisses on your jaw and down your neck.

Your arms wrapped tight around his shoulders, scared if you let go he'd disappear.

All you could reply with is moans as his teeth would gently nip at your sensitive skin, running his tongue over the mark to sooth you.

BANG BANG

“Hey!! Guys why is the door locked?” Gareth's voice could be heard from behind you, on the other side of the door you were currently being pressed against.

“GO AWAY!” Eddie growled towards the noise. “Wait! Are you guys? COME ON NOT COOL!” Gareth continued to pound his fist on the door.

“Eds, maybe we should let them in, hey come on, we got all night remember” your hands now pulling eddies face up from the crook of your neck to meet your now flushed one, seeing the loss behind his eyes. You smile looking into those big brown eyes. 

“Ughhh, fine” Eddie reluctantly put you down, moving away towards the collection of sofas in the dressing room, adjusting himself, before plonking himself hard into the leather seats grabbing a cushion to cover the very obvious tent now protruding in his jeans.

Chuckling to yourself you smooth your clothes down and move to open the door. 

A flurry of bodies streamed past you into the room, and a suddenly blonde whirlwind flung her arms around you.

“Oh my god! That was amazing y/n/n!!” Lulas grip around your neck, and the force she ran into you forced all the air out of your lungs. Your eyes wide you could see over her shoulder Eddie stifling a laugh looking on at the scene in front of him. Watching you be crushed by your blonde friend. “Lu, come on loosen up!” your arms reaching up to pull her away at arms length to look at her. 

“Sorry, but oh my god that was amazing! And Eddie! You! You didn't tell us you were gonna jump on the piano!” Lula turns to question him. “Oh that,” Eddies responds sheepishly, rubbing his hand on the back of his neck, head hanging down. “ Yeah that was a bit, well, bit spontaneous, got a bit carried away” “Looked like y/n enjoyed it anyway!” Gareth's voice boomed across the room, walking by Eddie giving his friend a slap on the back as he passed, making his way over to Lula, to pull them both into a nearby sofa.

Eddie's ears started to blush red at his friend's comment, which you notice giving him a small smile across the room.

The room started to fill with excited conversion, clinks of bear bottles congratulate each other on a good show. You're watching Eddie from across the room, interacting with his band mates, your eyes catching each other every now and then. You would smile, he would throw a small wink your way, which would make you blush, and let a small laugh escape through your nose.

Looking around you notice two people missing. Jack and Kelly. 

As you head towards the door you feel a hand on your arm stopping you in your tracks.

“Hey sweetheart, you ok?” Eddie's voice was hushed and low.

“Yeah im just gonna go get some air”

“Want me to come with you?” a cheeky glint in his eye, as he moved his arm to wrap around your waist, his free hand reaching into his back pocket to reach for his pack of smokes.

Giving him a small nod he follows you down the corridor, followed by the noise of whoops, hollers and wolf whistles coming from the room.

“GROW UP!” Eddie's booming voice shouts back at them.

Walking instep with each other, the back of your hands brushing against each other, you feel that brave thought of just reaching out and grabbing hold of his hand, but he beats you to it. Warm fingers intertwining with each other, his thumb lazily brushing against your knuckles.

Little moments like these are still confusing for you. Your head automatically goes to those uncertain places. 

What are you and eddie? 

Does he feel the way you have started to feel about him?

You've always had feelings for him. You've both said you liked each other in high school, but now? Does he really want to be with you? Is he doing what you're doing just to keep you on side, and keep the tour going? Drop you at the end of the tour like nothing ever happend?

Does he want to be seen with you outside of the band?

The photocall at the signing made you feel like he did but was that just for show?

You wanted to ask him, you needed to know, you didn't think you could cope if he broke your heart all over again.

You're brought out of your thoughts at the sudden loss of his hand in yours, as the cold air hits you form the back stage door being opened. 

“No! Kel, I'm sorry, but I need more time! I'm sorry” Jacks voice was low and thick with emotion, it sounded as though she had been crying, her voice breaking slightly.

Grabbing your wrist Eddie pulls you into the shadows out of sight of your band mates. Pulling you to his chest he raises a finger to his lips to tell you to be quiet. “J, please I'm sorry, I was worried ok? I didn't wanna see him hurt again! It killed me the first time! I don't think I could go through that again!” Kelly sounded desperate. 

“You didn't even get to know her! You went in straight with the hate! You used me for info on y/n! You wooed me, got me to tell you things, to what? Use against her?! Well no more! I'm done!” Jack's words came out hard and fast, biting with venom.

“I thought he was better without her J! I thought if I made her feel unwelcome, we'd just do this tour, go home and we never would have to cross paths again, but that was before I got to know you properly!” you watched as Kelly moved cautiously towards your friend, reaching out tentatively. You watched as she moved a piece of Jack's hair out of her face, cradling her cheek in her hands.

Jacks seems to lean into Kelly's palm but pulls away quickly. 

“No Kelly! I'm sorry I can't forgive you! Not right now! You need to apologise to y/n. And properly!”

“Fuck sake J, come on! I'm trying! But I have to be honest with you! I don't trust her. She's using Eddie! She uses him to get where she wants to be, and then she’ll just drop him and we'll be back at square one again! Cause come on! Someone who looks like her? She won't make it in this business on talent alone!”

All of a sudden, Eddie was gone. His voice booming across the lot.

“WHAT THE FUCK KELLY? ARE YOU BEING FUCKING SERIOUS RIGHT NOW?”

“Eddie, it's not what you think it is!” Kelly retorts back looking sheepish.

Your feet are rooted to the spot. Looking between the three in front of you. You lock eyes with Jack, who looks so defeated. She mouths in your direction Im Sorry, and turns away and walks away in the direction of the buses.

“Tell me! Tell me what this is? Because to me it looks like you're belittling someone I care about!”

“Come one Eds, you can't be serious and tell me you really care about her? You want to be hurt again? Want me to take you to the hospital again?” 

“YES I CARE ABOUT HERE! She means more to me than you can imagine! Yes I've done stupid dumb things in the past but im not letting her go again!” Eddie's voice tails off at the end, turning to face you in the shadows, his hand reaching out for you in the dark.

“Sweetheart?”

Taking a tentative step forward you see all the colour in Kelly's face drain. "Y/n, I, I didn't know you were out here”

“Save it Kelly! You've said enough!” Eddie turns to take your face between his hands.

Looking up to him, you voice quiet, your voice unsure “You care about me?”

“Oh sweetheart, I've always cared, I'm being honest, I promise, I never want to lose you again. You're my girl” He's looking down at you with those big brown eyes, a  small curl on the corner of his full lips. 

It's as though he knew all your doubts, your worries and was erasing them one by one for you.

“I'm your girl?” staring back at him he can see the uncertainty in your eyes.

“Baby, You're mine, and I'm yours. If you want me, that is?” Eddie's thumb catching the small tear you didn't realise was falling at your cheek.

“This is unbelievable! I can't watch this!” Kelly turns heel and storms off back inside. “What about Kelly and Jack?” you ask, always putting others first.

“I don't want to talk to her right now, I don't think Jacks at fault here sweets, I think give her some time. Eddie's hands moved slowly down to rest upon your waist, pulling you into his embrace as you nod to what he's saying.

“I need you to know, I don't think what Kelly thinks, I think you are the most beautiful creature I have ever set these weary eyes upon. I should have made you mine years ago. But I was a foolish boy. Will you accept this foolish lads' past?” Eddie is looking down at you hopefully. “I'm just worried, I mean look at me? Do you really wanna be seen out with someone like me?” Your voice is small, sheepish.

Eddies lift’s your chin with his fingers to bring your eyes to his.

“Yes, I want the world to know that I'm with this amazing, wonderful, talented, gorgeous, smoking hot, did I say talented?” you can't help the giggles that escape you as he plants small kisses across your face after each word.

“The most beautiful woman I can't believe I can call mine. Y/n, can I ask you something?”

“Yes” your voice comes out breathy as you can’t tear your eyes from his

“Will you go on a date with me? A Proper date? I feel like we may have skipped some steps” his hair falls in front of his blushing face as he asks you.

Raising your hand to tuck his loose curls behind his ear, resting your hand on his cheek, you lift yourself on the balls of your feet and place a gentle kiss to his lips. 

“Yes”

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After spending the afternoon with Eddie after your confrontation with Kelly, you learned more about what happened after you left Hawkins. He tried so hard to graduate, took him 2 attempts but finally did it in 86. You were more shocked to find out it was actually Steve who helped him graduate in the end. Dustin would go on and on at Eddie that Steve was a good guy. Obviously Eddie didn't believe him, but after a few trips to Family Video with Dustin, and Steve driving Dustin to The Hideout to go watch Eddie play, Eddie gave in and in his own words “I guess I couldn't accept the fact that Steve Harrington was actually a good dude”

You told him all about college, how you met Lula and Jack and how nervous you were about auditioning for them. He would sit there and listen to everything you said, never interrupting you. He would be resting his hand on your knee, or brushing a small piece of your hair behind your ear that had fallen. Everything felt so right, but you couldn’t shake the thought swimming around your head. The same things over and over again, mainly ‘why me?’

The show that evening couldn't have gone better. Opening up more to Eddie definitely helped but you just couldn't shift that feeling of betrayal from your mom. 

You decided you were going to call her that night after the show. Eddie wanted to be with you when you did, but you told him it would be ok, but you would say hi to Dustin for him.

Staying in New York for a few days had its benefits. No more basic motels, no staying in the buses. The label had secured you a hotel a short drive away from the venue, which meant private cars to and from the venue, trying to avoid the crowds of fans you had seen lining up outside the venue early that afternoon, vying for the best spot.

After saying your goodbyes to everyone for the night you made your way into your hotel room. It wasn’t a large room, a twin bed situated in the middle with crisp white linens, a little folded towel at the end of the bed, which you think was meant to look like a Swan but a rather sad looking swan, its head had fallen down.

Checking the time before you dialled, not wanting to risk it being too late, you picked up the phone on the bedside table, laying back on the bed dialling your old home number.

“Good Evening Henderson residence” Dustin’s voice filtered through the receiver.

“Hey butthead!”

“Sis! Hey! Thought you were forgetting about me! Not heard from you since you got back after Christmas! Where are you? Why haven’t you called sooner? oh oh did you talk to Eddie?” Dustin blurted out.

“Woah, woah big guy, one question at a time! Look I called as I need to speak to mom about something, but hey you may know this too” 

“This about Eddie?” Dustin's voice was quiet 

“Yeah, look, remember you said he would ask you about me? Do you know anything about phone calls? Messages?” You kept your voice as level as you could not wanting to get angry at your little brother.

“Y/n/n, I think you need to talk to mom about this, I don’t know much but, yeah I believe he may have tried a few times” Dustin’s voice grew quieter as though he had his hand covering the bottom half of the phone.

Letting out a sigh through your nose, you could feel the betrayal wash over you. All this time wasted hating someone who didn’t deserve to be hated. 

“Y/n? Are you still there?” Dustin's voice seems a million miles away, you were too focused on trying to control your anger.

Snapping back suddenly, blinking hard you suddenly realised you couldn’t do this right now, least of all over the phone.

“Hey, yeah yeah I’m still here, look I’m sorry I’m gonna have to go, it’s late and we got a big show tomorrow, look about you coming to see us, I’ll see what I can do yeah?” You couldn’t get the words out fast enough, you needed to get off the phone.

“Y/n/n, you sure you're ok? I can go get mom?” 

 Before you could let him answer his own question you shouted back.

“No! No, it’s ok, I’m ok, no, look Dusty I gotta go, I’m sorry, I love you little brother” 

“I love you too y/n/n, say hi to Eddie for me?” You could tell in his tone he was worried, you hated to make him feel that way, but you couldn’t think of anything other than ending the call quickly.

“I will, bye Dusty” at that you hung up the phone with a bit more force than necessary, making the whole bedside table rattle.

Rolling over on the mattress you bury your head I’m into the plush pillow screaming your frustration out.

You needed to speak to your mom, you knew you did but not over the phone. She needed to see how hurt you were, needed to see what pain she put you through denying you the truth.

Pacing up and down your room you find yourself grabbing onto your blanket you brought in from the van and storming down the corridor, knocking furiously into the high gloss white door in front of you.

A flurry of messy curls came into view from the crack of the open door.

Eddie's face suddenly changed from joy to concern as he saw your tear stained face before him.

“Sweetheart, hey c’mere” his arms are suddenly pulling you into his embrace, ringed hand cradled the back of your head, your cheek pressed into his bare chest. You suddenly feel safe and warm. Your arms automatically wrap around his back, palms flat against his back holding him tight.

Your both stood in the doorway to his hotel room, saying nothing, just holding each other. Nothing needed to be said at that moment. He knew what you needed, knew you needed to be held, to feel cared for.

He didn't want to disturb you, move you from your position pressed against him, but he could hear you mumbling something into his chest.

“I couldn't do it, I ...I tried but I couldn't” your words came out in muffled sobs, your arms gripping to him tighter and tighter not wanting to leave his safe warm clutches.

Moving you into the room Eddies leads you over towards the bed in the centre of the room, sitting you down on the edge. Dropping to his knees in front of you, he looks up at you, brings a hand to rest on your face, his thumb lazily stroking your cheek brushing away the slow fall of your tears. “Did you speak to your mom? Is that why you're upset?” His voice was quiet as though he didn't want to spook you.

Stuttering you replied “I couldn't do it, I, I tried, Dustin, He, he said, he said, mom might know something, but I would have to speak with her, but, but, I, I couldn't do it. I was too scared to over the phone”

More sobs retched from your chest, you felt so small, pathetic. Any self worth you had disappeared. You couldn't comprehend that someone who supposedly loved you would keep happiness away from you.

All you wanted was the truth but you couldn't do it. You couldn't ask.

“Its ok sweetheart, shush, it's going to be ok, I'm here, i'm right here. I promise you i'm not going anywhere ok?” Eddie had risen from in front of you coming to sit next to you and wrapping his arms around your shoulders pulling you impossibly tight to him.

“Do you want to stay here tonight? I don't want you to be alone.” Eddies question was uncertain. He didn't want to cross over a line with you, only wanted to protect you. Show you how much you meant to him without pushing you too far when you were this fragile.

He hated seeing you like this. Wanted to protect you from everything and anyone who wanted to hurt you. 

You were his. You were always his to him. He just hoped he would be yours too.

Nodding, you allowed him to menover you up onto the bed more, pulling your blanket over you and crawling into the space behind you, pulling your back to his chest. Resting his chin on your shoulder he would whisper sweet quiet affirmations into the shell of your ear, stroking your hip with his hand that was resting there.

Your breathing has started to calm, and you could feel sleep take over you. Melting into the plush white pillow beneath you, you didn't hear his last words to you before you drifted off into a deep sleep.

“I’ll always protect you, my love. Your mine to protect. I adore you”

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You woke up to the sound of running water and soft singing drifting through the room. Feeling suddenly disoriented you had to take a moment to take in your surroundings. 

A heavy weight surrounds you, which you discover is a huge white duvet with your blanket on top. The room looked the same as your hotel room, but set up in the opposite direction.

Looking around you see a guitar case resting against a chair in the corner of the room but a large window looking out onto the city.

It suddenly dawned on you, you were in Eddie's hotel room. Which would mean that it was Eddie in the shower. It was him singing, this thought made you smile and giggle to yourself throwing yourself back down into the plush bedding. 

The bathroom door opens, with a flurry of steam, Eddies emerges, long wet hair dripping past his shoulders, white fluffy towel hanging low on his hips.

“Hey there sleepy head, how are you feeling today?” he asks as he sits on the edge of the bed next to you, leaning in to kiss your forehead, hair dripping into your face.

“EDDIE! STOP! You're dripping water on me!” You laugh trying to pull the duvet above your head to hide.

Climbing up more onto the bed Eddie starts pulling the covers down and brings you in for a big hug ignoring your shrieks of laughter. 

“OK, Ok you win big boy!”

“Big boy?” Eddie pulls away from you a little to look at you laughing at your comment and smirk pulling across his lips.

“Yes Eds, and yeah I'm ok, thank you for looking after me last night. I felt so lost and perfetic I didn't want to be alone” shifting into a sitting position leaning against the headboard, you lift your knees up under your chin. 

“I’ll always be here for you sweetheart” Eddie shifts his position to come sit next to you, adjusting the towel still wrapped around his waist.

Turning your head you look into Eddie's eyes, words were not needed right now, just a look spoke a thousand words. 

Tonight was the night of the duet and to say you were nervous was an understatement. You'd spent the rest of the morning with Eddie in his hotel room, going over some notes you'd made about your performance and what needed work.

Rehearsals that afternoon were no better. You'd miss notes on the piano, your mic didn't work, you were starting to spiral and Eddie noticed. 

“Sweetheart, look at me” Eddie came to sit next to you on the piano stool, reaching over and taking your hands into his. “Everything is going to be fine, I promise you” His thumb stocking across your knuckles to calm you.

The feeling in your gut isn't helping matters, but you looked up at him and nodded in agreement, giving him a small smile in return. The plan was for Paradox to perform as usual, introduce the boys and at the end of their set Eddie would talk to the crowd as the stage was reset for the duet. Watching Eddie interacting with the crowds always gave you joy. This is where he belonged, up on stage, entertaining hundreds if not thousands of people. You couldn't help but not be drawn to him.

This seemed to be the same for a small group of girls front and centre of the stage. Trying their best to grab his attention. Leaning so far forward across the barrier that and further they would topple over it. Tops incredibly low they left little to the imagination. And slim, proportions all in the right places, curves, where curves should be. You must have been staring hard as you jumped when you felt a small hand on your shoulder. 

“You ok hun?” Lula followed your eye-line and let out an annoyed sigh at the sight of the girls, arms now reaching over trying to grab at any part of Eddie that they could.

“Don't worry about those girls y/n, He's only got eyes for you, that's obvious, hey I nearly had to beat down on a girl the other day for trying to touch Gare” This you could easily believe.

Jack had still been avoiding you since the blow up at rehearsals the other day, it wouldn't be a lie to say that you were too. Honestly you were lost at what to say to her. Yes you wanted to know the truth but never found the right time to do so, as everytime you would approach her she would run off in the opposite direction, or lock himself away in her hotel room. She was even avoiding Lula.

Looking across the stage from where you were standing in the wings, you saw Jack, guitar strap already around her shoulder, tuning up. You tried to catch her eye but got nothing. After the show you thought, after the show i will go and talk to her, just you and her. “So it looks like everything is ready behind me, so we have a little surprise for you all. You are the first to hear this!” Eddie's voice was booming over the speakers, it pulled you out of your daydream and your eyes met as he beconded you onto the stage, to stand next to him. “You all no doubt sawe the news in the papers last week that the girls of Paradox have gladly agreed to be a part of the family with us, so to celebrate this we decided to do a special performance for you together!” Eddie's arm was now tight around your waist keeping you close, which you noticed got the attention of the girls at the front of the audience. He could feel you tense up next to him and gave your sides a little squeeze.

You had decided to change from your previous outfit into something different for your duet. As you were mainly hiding behind a piano you thought you could try something a little different. Opting for your doc martens, a long black skirt, with a double buckle belt, and an old Sabbath tee you had, which Lula had “Altered” for you. By this she had cut a large v into the front, which in her words “accentuated the assets” and would “drive eddie crazy”

The latter seemed to be true, as he seemed to now not be able to take his eyes off your chest. Leaning in towards you away from his mic, he whispers “you look absolutely amazing sweetheart”

All of a sudden a loud giggle erupted from you and echoed around the venue. 

The girls up front had faces of thunder but there were a few audible “awws”. “Right guys we hope you love this as much as we do! You ready Y/n, Eddie?” Gareth's voice cut through the noise of the audience, bringing you back.

Taking your seat behind the piano, you adjusted your mic. Taking a deep breath in you took a deep breath and gave the nod to the light tech, letting him know you were ready for the spotlights.

The performance couldn't have gone any better. Jack's acoustic intro, the lights, the audience's eruption to the recognition of the song gave you that confidence boost you needed most. Leaning into your mic you began to sing, you felt the world around you melt away and it felt like it was only you and Eddie on the stage. Singing to each other. No one else was there. No one could ruin this moment for you. All thoughts of your phone call home yesterday gone, the girls trying to get Eddie's attention gone, it was just you and him. Your confidence sawed the more into the song you got. Pushing your vocals to places you'd never gone to before. Eddie could see a change in you and couldn't stop beaming at you. He couldn't have done this with anyone else.

The lyrics spoke to you both, calling out to each other asking for answers, you ask if things will stay the same if you close your eyes forever. Will what you have with Eddie change now that you have expressed how you feel towards each other. The pain of love you were scared of. You didn't want to be hurt by him again. It also felt like a warning to him too, which you could see he fully understood.

“If I close my eyes forever

Will it all remain unchanged?

If I close my eyes forever

Will it all remain the same?” Eddie's voice ripped through you as he belted out his interpretation of Ozzy's lyrics. Your heart souring as you watched him perform, not once taking his eyes off you. You had only then noticed he didn't have his guitar with him. Frowning at him as it was getting close to his solo he gave you a wink and his toothy grin as he turned to the side of the stage arm out as a tech passed him his “sweetheart” a beautiful red and black coloured B.C Rich Warlock. Throwing the strap over his head he suddenly jumps on top of the grand piano you're playing, falling to his knees in front of you. Letting out a gasp of both astonishment and shock you couldn't keep your eyes off him. His knees parted so the body of his guitar was between his legs, his eyes squeezed shut playing his heart out. You watch as the muscles in his arms flex under his pale tattooed skin. Sweat beading under his bangs from being under the stage lights. His hips would lift slightly as he got more and more into the solo. 

Having him this close to you, playing like this, basically thrusting in your face, had you flustered, nearly missing notes. Oh and he could tell he was having an effect on you. 

This was his plan all along. 

This wasn't a part of the rehearsal. No one knew he was going to do this. His plan worked too, he got the reaction he wanted from you.

“I know I've been so hard on you

I know I've told you lies

If I could have just one more wish

I'd wipe the cobwebs from my eyes”

You nearly missed your lyrics from staring at Eddie who was still atop the piano, playing a longer than usual reverb in your direction, locking his dark brown eyes with yours, the holes in his jeans staringin under the pressure of him being on his knees.

Nearing the end of the song he slides off the piano to the side, taking his guitar off carefully leaning it against the piano, to come and sit next to you on the stool to close off the song singing together. 

Your head comes to lean on his shoulder, his arm coming to wrap around your waist, holding onto you tight, leaning into your mic to sing the last bars -  “Close your eyes, Close your eyes. You gotta close your eyes for me”

The audience went crazy. Whoops, whistles, and hollering could be heard bouncing off the walls. You couldn't believe what just happened. You did it! But you didn't hear anything. Your full focus was on him. You couldn't take your eyes off him. His stupid grin looking back at you.

You launch towards him, throwing your arms tightly around his neck, laughing and crying at the same time. 

“Hey babe, are you ok?” Eddie tried to pull you back to look at your face, his voice full of worry.

“Oh my god Eddie we did it! I'm honestly ok! This was the most insane thing! Thank you! Thank you so much” His use of the new pet name you didn't miss. It made the butterflies in your stomach stir violently, but gently, softy.

“Come with me” he grabs you by your hands, lifting you from the piano to the front of the stage where the rest of the band meet you. 

Lula had jumped onto Gareth's back, holding onto him like a spider monkey, leaning forwards leaving big kisses on his cheeks for the world to see.

Flashes of light were suddenly blinding you from hundreds of press cameras, vying for the best photography. Eddie still had a tight grip of your hand, not wanting to lose you in the madness.

“Y/n, I couldn't have done this with anyone else. Thank you.” Eddies suddenly leans over and kisses you on the cheek, flash bulbs erupted again. But you didn't care. Not at that moment. You didn't know what would happen next but right now, you were on cloud 9.

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“please promise me, I'll see you tonight after the show for the party? So we can speak some more?” his words echoed in your head. Of course you’d see him, you were not going to miss out on this. 

Of course you were still worried that he wasn’t being fully truthful but you had promised Dustin you would give Eddie a chance.

“Listen y/n, Eddie was in bits after that night, kept asking me why you weren’t around anymore, I’d never seen him like that before” Dustin had explained to you back at christmas in the garage.

 “He kept asking about you every single day, I never even saw him get mad, he just went quiet after a while. Once he finally graduated, he packed up his stuff and moved out of Hawkins. I didn't know where he was going, but I heard a rumour he’d gone to California, I don't know maybe in hopes to find you”

The show had gone amazingly, you kept seeing Eddie on the side of the stage watching you closely with a smile plastered on his face, watching his eyes roaming over your body. When you'd notice him doing this you would bluff a few notes, causing him to stifle a laugh and mouth “sorry” in your direction.

Laughing to yourself you get up from your position in the window making your way to the shared bathroom to grab a shower. Upon returning to the room, Lula comes bounding in with a large bag with a logo you don't recognise. 

“OK don't get mad, but we got you something for tonight” Lula places the bag on the bed between them, tipping it upside down letting the contents cascade all over the bed.

Your eyes went wide at the sight. All you could see was a sea of black. Black Leather and cloth, and the glint of silver.

“What is all this?” you look up at your friend confused.

“So Gareth may have spilled the beans to me about what happened at thanksgiving and tonight with Eddie - please don't get mad” Lula throws her hands in the air seeing the shocked look on your face.

“So with that in mind, I was saving this for your birthday, but I thought tonight would be better,” Lula explains, picking up a few pieces to flatten them out.

You couldn’t believe what you were hearing and seeing.

“Lula, im, WOW, i mean look at these, they are beautiful but i'll look ridiculous in this” you say holding up the leather jacket which you now see is encrusted with small silver diamontes.

“Now remember what we told you before we left for this tour? No self doubting y/n, you are gorgeous and beautiful inside and out and we are gonna to show Eddie what he's been missing all these years,” Lula had made her way around to you, hands on your shoulders looking you dead in the eye. “You got this?” She may be small but she can be intimidating when she wants to be.

“Yes, YES, ok let's do this” you beam back at her. “Where's Jack anyway?” you ask 

“I don't know, she said she had some stuff to do after the show but would see us later back at the venue for the party”

Jack had been disappearing more so recently after shows, coming back to the bus in the early hours. She didn't think you’d both noticed but you had. You know not to question her about it. Like when she came out to you both it was on her terms, she told you when she was ready. And that's the rules you've taken ever since, Jack will tell you something when she is ready.

After about an hour or so of Lula backcombing your hair, applying more mousse and hairspray to your head, that it would even make Harrington jealous, you were starting to get really nervous, and she could see it. 

Squeezing your shoulder from behind you Lula gives a small smile and nod. That's the great thing about true friendships, you don't need to say much, and they will know what you need.

After applying your makeup it was time for your outfit. 

Lula had hung it up ready for you in the bathroom to get changed into while she finished off her own makeup.

Closing the bathroom door behind you you looked at the outfit hanging there and your body was awash with self doubt.

Thought came flooding into your mind of all the things that could go wrong. The pants wouldn't do up, even worse they would split.

You thought back to what Lula had said “we are going to show Eddie what he's been missing all these years”

Taking a deep breath you set upon getting dressed, trying your best to get those negative thoughts out of your head. 

This isn't just for Eddie this is also for you! You deserve this!

“LULA WHAT THE FUCK?” you shouted pulling the bathroom door open brandishing the bag in front of you.

“Oh yeah that, well you never know” lula trailed off raising her eyebrows up and you going back to the mirror to do her makeup.

“How do you know it’ll fit?” you ask annoyingly.

“Don't worry we know your sizes and made sure it would - you'll look amazing”

You shook your head at your friend making your way back into the bathroom, to examine the bag again. Inside were a set of black lace and ribbon bras and panties.

Putting it against your body you wouldn't believe you were going to do it, but you promised her.

Once your outfit was on, you couldn't stop moving your hands up and down your thighs, across your stomach, all the areas you hated. 

Taking a deep breath you make your way out of the bathroom, your new heeled boots clacking across the tiled floor.

“OMG Y/N you look amazing! He's gonna die!”

Looking at yourself in the full size mirror you start to feel a sense of power come across you. The outfit made you feel powerful, like you could take on the world.

You take in the leather trousers which are encrusted with stars made up of diamantes which matched the leather jacket which covered your torso which was in a tight black Harley Davidson tee, with a double buckled belt.

Lula had retired her plaid and vans for the evening and opted for a short little black dress, fishnet tights and borrowed your dr martens boots.

“Lula, aren't you going to be cold when it's snowing?” you express your concern looking at her outfit.

“Oh I'm not worried, hopefully someone can warm me up later” she giggled.

“Oh you are gross!” you laugh back at her. She had expressed that her and Gareth haven't gone all the way yet and she was hoping tonight could be the night. Looking like she did, I'm sure it’d be hard for him to say no.

Making your way over to the venue to get more and more nervous, walking a few steps behind Lula trying to take as much time as you could. Maybe thinking that if you walked slow enough you wouldn't have to go.

“Y/N, come on whats up?” Lula calls over her shoulder, noticing you behind her.

“What if it happens again?” you say in an almost whisper, “what if it's like halloween again? I mean look at me!” your hands gesturing across your body.

“Honey, it’ll all be ok, Eddie wants you to be there, he’ll be next to you, and if he doesn't he’ll have me to answer to ok?” She tries to reassure you, but you cannot push the daunting feeling away.

You nod slightly taking in what she was saying, you trusted her. It was everyone else you didn't.

Walking back into the venue, you see the room now transformed ready for the new year. Slivers of multicoloured foils hanging from the ceiling, lights flashing between different colours and the music so loud you could feel it vibrating in your feet.

Looking around you recognise a few people from Wyatts team back in California, over at the bar, he waves over to you both to join him, Jack already in conversation with him.

“Hello Ladies, you both look wonderful” Wyatt gushes, tipping his hat to the both of you.

“As do you Wyatt” Lula comments 

“So ladies, I wanted to have a quick chat with you before the party gets into full swing. I've been chatting with the boys and they are in agreement with me. This tour so far has been a triumph and once it's over, me and the team would love to sign you to add to our label, join the team! What do you say?” 

You all must have had the same look on your face as Wyatt quickly says “no need to rush to a decision now, but let me know as soon as you can ok?”

You all nod, watching Waytt turn and walk away back to the rest of his team.

“Oh my god what just happened?” you say exasperated grabbing both the girls arms.  

“I think we did it, we finally did it” Jack quickly responds.

“What do we do?” Lula asks, looking at you with a worried look.

“We say yes right?” you answer.

You're all looking between each other and slowly all nod in agreement.

No more words were needed between you all, this was it, you made it. Your only concern was you'd be on the same label as Eddie, no doubt working together, was this such a good idea?

You must have willed him into existence thinking of him, because as you turned around so your back was against the edge of the bar, he walked in the rest of the band in tow.

Tight black jeans, chains, black boots and a black sequined shirt, ludicrously open very low exposing his chest tattoos, with a chain dangling around his neck which you noticed had a pick attached. You wonder if this is the same one from high school he always had on.

You notice him scanning the room as though looking for someone, and as soon as your eyes meet, you notice him let out a breath, looking up and down at your body, raising his eyebrows in awe. This alone was making your cheeks heat up. 

He looks flawless, and there was that knot in your stomach again, making you shift your weight from side to side.

Your heart sank as you saw the band disperse but Kelly appeared next to him in a tight corset style black top with a long skirt attached, a large split going up one side. He must have noticed this in your face as he leaned over to Kelly whispering something to her, which must have not been good as she had a face of thunder as she stormed off.

Eddie looked back over to you with a look on his face as thought he was apologising on her behalf. Making his way over towards you, you were feeling hotter with every step he took.

“Hey sweetheart, you look, just wow, you look amazing” Eddie extends a hand out to you which you slowly take letting him spin you around so he can look at the rest of the outfit.

“Where have you been hiding this?” he asks you, his voice seemingly deeper than usual.

“Lula got it for me, early birthday present” you quickly respond looking down trying to hide your embarrassment.

Eddie's hand suddenly whips up, taking your chin with his thumb and pointer figure, tilting your head to look at me.

“No need to be shy sweetheart, you look beautfiul”

His words made your heart hurt, you always thought people were saying things like this just to make you feel better but never meant it. This must have been showing on your face, giving you away as he moved his hand from your chin to your cheek giving it a gentle rub with his thumb, leaning in close to your ear.

“I mean it y/n - i've always thought you were beautiful” Eddie's voice was soft and full of sincerity.

Your breath hitched in your chest when he said this. Taken aback by his honesty, you blurted out “I always thought you were too”

Eddie let out a little chuckle moving his hands to your waist guiding you towards the bar. “Ladies, how about you?” he asked Jack and Lula. You had completely forgotten they were still standing next to you, completely lost in Eddie.

“Thanks Eddie but were ok, i'm going to go find Gareth” Lula tells you both, making her way past you, whispering to you as she past “It’ll be ok y/n, you got this, don't forget he's got me to answer to if he hurts you again”

You give her a nod as you watch her glide across the room straight into Gareth's waiting arms, placing herself in his lap, on some of the leather chairs that were dotted around the room.

“You want shots again, or are you going to take it slow this time?” Eddie is asking you as you watch your friend leave, and noticing Jack was now missing too.

“Oh sorry” you quickly turn back around facing him “No, ermm, can i have a cranberry and vodka please?”

Eddie learns over the bar and orders your drinks. You feel awkward standing there. You feel like everyone is looking at you. Judging you. Talking about you.

“Y/n? You ok?” Eddie's voice from behind you makes you jump back to reality, standing there with a beer in one hand and your drink in the other.

“Shall we sit?” He tilts his head over to an empty booth area of seats.

Nodding you follow him to the secluded area and sit down opposite him, hands clasped tightly around your glass, knuckles almost going white.

Looking up you see Eddie's hand also tight around the bottle he was holding.

“I'm glad you came tonight” he says breaking the silence between you “I should of done this a long time ago”

“I spoke to Dustin over Christmas, he saw the letter you gave me and explained things to me, but I don't know what to believe. I was a mess that night, I felt so hurt, I felt small, I felt foolish. Foolish for thinking someone like you would like someone like me.” you thought if you never said it now you never would, taking a large gulp of your drink feeling the alcohol burn down your throat.

Leaning forward in the booth taking a drink from his beer Eddie have a defeating sigh “I thought you wouldn’t want to been seen with someone like me - like I said this afternoon I was an idiot teenager who didn’t know any better”

He reached a hand over the table between you reaching for one of your hands. You looked down at his heavily ringed open hand for a moment debating whether to take it or not.

You slowly extend your towards him, allowing him to encase his large hand around yours.

“Eddie, why did you react the way you did when you first saw us back in California?” You asked him with worry. You had been wondering this for sometime, not really wanting to know the answer.

“Oh that, well, I really don’t know” Eddie's grip on your hand becomes tighter and he searches for an answer lowering his head as though ashamed 

“I regret how I acted, I was a complete fool, you no doubt thought I was being some pompous rock star” he laughed the last few works trying to lighten the moment

“But I think it was the shock of seeing you after so long, you looked breathtaking standing there and I was afraid I was mess things up again”

You watched him try and explain himself, watched his eyes searching your face for forgiveness. Lowing your eyes you watch him adam’s apple bob in his throat and he swallows trying to find the words.

You didn’t say anything, just looked back at him moving your free hand to cover his that’s encased around your other hand.

“I’ll be right back” Eddie says as he moves out of the booth making his way over to the DJ booth. You watch him point to something behind the man and have a quick conversation and nodding between them both. 

Watching him make his way back over to your booth you see the man behind the desk place a record on the deck moving the needle carefully into place.

You instantly recognise the first chords of the song now playing over the speakers. It was the song Eddie was playing this afternoon when you saw him playing alone.

Scorpions - Still Loving You 

“Will you dance with me?” Eddie's voice is low as he extends a hand out waiting for you to accept it.

Taking a moment to consider your options you throw caution to the wind, shifting out of your jacket leaving it in the booth you stand taking Eddie's hand in yours letting him lead you to the dance floor.

Pulling you tightly towards him he placed both hands on your hips giving you no choice but to place your arms around his neck under his hair.

He let out a little noise from the bottom of his throat at the feeling of your hands on the back of his neck.

“How did you know?” You asked him looking up at him as he swayed with you to the music 

“Know what?” He looks down at you with a small crooked smile.

“This song, it’s my favourite, you were playing it this afternoon weren’t you?” You replied, questioning him.

“Ah well that would be telling, but I have my ways of finding things out” he learned forward pressing his forehead against yours.

The knot in your stomach was growing tighter, you felt like you had hundreds of eyes on you. You thought you could hear people talking about you.

Suddenly you felt the room was spinning, you felt your breathing get rapid, you were starting to panic, eyes darting around the room. 

You felt something on your face, snapping you back into reality you could see Eddie's face still in front of you, one hand still on your hip the other on your face.

“It’s ok y/n it’s ok, you're worrying again aren't you? Just breathe it’s all ok, I’m here I’m not going anywhere” His voice was calming, and soothing. You felt yourself settling again. 

“Eddie I feel such a fool” you lean your head into his chest fitting perfectly under his chin, which he rested on your head.

He didn’t say anything, just held you tight while still moving with the music.

He lifted your head of face him, wrapping his arms tightly around you, leaned into the side of your head and sang long with the song to you,

“If we'd go again, All the way from the start, I would try to change,Things that killed our love. Yes, I've hurt your pride, And I know what you've been through, You should give me a chance, This can't be the end, I’m still loving you”

For a split moment you meet his large brown eyes seeing them full of all the emotions he was trying to express. the knot in your stomach had gone, you felt calm and in control.

Wrapping your arms quickly around his neck again you pulled him down to you crashing your lips together in a hungry kiss.

No one else mattered but you both. You felt like you were the only people in that room for a moment. It was peaceful. Eddie responds with the same hunger, grazing his tongue over your bottom lip asking for access. The kiss was more intense than the one you shared this afternoon, both of you fighting for dominance over the other.

Breaking away from the kiss for only a moment you stared intently at each  other.

“I meant what I said this afternoon, I’m so sorry about what happened, but please let me show you how sorry I am” The tip of Eddie’s nose touches yours as he brings his face in closer again to capture your lips.

Letting your guard down you let out a small moan escape your mouth as he kissed you with more ferocity.

His hands moved from waist down to hips letting his thumbs graze your sides. You could feel his fingers slipping underneath your tee so his fingers could trace your skin.

The song was coming to an end, but you didn't want this to end. Eddie's hands still on your sides he pulls you closer, bringing your hips close against him.

He moves a hand up to tuck some of your hair behind your ear and whisper “follow me”

Your feet had a mind of its own to follow Eddie's command willingly. Passing the guests in the party you see a few faces looking at you with confusion, whispering to the person next to them. Your stomach sinks, and you abruptly stop, your arm stretching out, as Eddie still had hold of it.

Looking around he looks at your concern, slowly making his way abc to you.

“Are you ok doll?” His voice was full of concern.

“Everyone is staring Eds” you answer so quietly it was barely a whisper.

“It's ok, look at me” Eddie's hands are now on your shoulder, turning to face him. “Focus on me ok? Let's get out of here, get some air?”

You quickly nod your head and you allow him again to lead you out of the venue. 

To your surprise you're standing outside beside Bertha. Eddies reach into his pocket and bring out a key unlocking the door.

“How do you have a key for Bertha?” you ask

“Bertha?” his head spins around looking at you amused.

“Yeah she's called Bertha, we thought it was a good name, she's sturdy, albeit a little unreliable” 

Eddie just chuckles at this explanation going back to opening the bus doors.

“Lula gave me a spare key at the bar before just incase” he explains walking up the bus steps pulling you with him.

You’ll be having words with Lula later about that. Everyone seems to be talking about the pair of you, except to you.

“It's nice in here, homely” Eddie remarks looking around, touching the wooden panels on the walls and making his way to the bunks at the back, sitting down on the bottom.

“Yeah Lulas folks helped us set it all up, they're great” you say as you kick off your boots into the corner and grab your blanket wrapping it around you sitting next to him on the edge of the bed.

“Y/n?” Eddie's voice is quiet, his hands move back to your face, bringing it to meet his.

You could barely respond to him as he crashed his lips into yours again. You felt his tongue graze your bottom lip asking for entrance again and you oblige.

Your hands moved from their position in your lap wrapped in your blanket to rest on his jean clad thigh. Feeling your hand on him he pulled away from the kiss leaving you wanting more. He slowly moves so he's facing you ducking slightly so he doesnt hit his head on the bunk above. You move yourself from the edge of the bed moving in further as to give him more room next to you. Seeing what you were doing he dove across so he was now positioned above you.

“Is this ok?” he asks tenderly, looking at you for reassurance.

“Yes” you whisper to him, leaving all inhibitions behind you, reaching up, grabbing him around his neck, pulling him into you to kiss him once more. 

Your both breathless moans, and messy wet heated kisses. He moves his lips from yours, moving his way to your neck, leaving hot kisses in places you didn't know could make you feel this good.

His hands started to roam your body, tracing down your arms and you tense up when he reaches your stomach. Feeling you he stops looking up at you.

“Are you ok y/n? I don't want us to do anything that you're uncomfortable with, we can stop and I can just walk away” Eddies says, looking at you reassuringly.

“No, no please dont stop, its just….. just , oh god, now I feel stupid” you shuffle form underneath him bring your knees up to your chest, hugging your arms around them.

“Sweetheart, I know what you're gonna say, and please, don't worry. I think you're beautiful and I want to show you how beautiful you are, will you let me?” Eddie inches back towards you, placing his ring clad hands on yours.

“You're not just saying that? You mean it? I've had people say these things to me, just because they can then brag they've been with a Fat girl, and, and” your starting to feel your body shake as tears start to form in your eyes. 

Eddie's hand flew up to catch the tear before it fell, wiping it away.

“Please sweetheart, I'm not that type of person. I see you for you, nothing else. Like I said before, I see before me a beautiful, talented woman. A woman who can belt out a song like I've never heard before. You have no idea how long I've dreamt of kissing you, feeling you in my arms, holding you, I was an idiot in school, I wish I had told you sooner, helped protect you from those who would hurt you, will you let me?” You had waited for Eddie to say something like this to you all those years ago.

Unfolding your arms from your legs, you crawl your way closer to him. Leaning in to the side of his face you whisper in his ear “show me, please”

Without another word Eddie dove at you, pinning you beneath him to  continue the assault on your neck. Hands roaming down your sides squeezing your hips making his way down grazing your thighs. His kisses become more heated on your neck, biting down slightly, making you moan at this touch.

His hands tugging at the bottom of your shirt, he makes his way under grazing his hands up your torso, the coldness of his rings causing goosebumps to form. He grazes the underside of your bra feeling the lace under his fingers. 

“What's this?” he comments breathlessly from his position in your neck.

“Another gift from Lula, she said to me ‘you’ll never know’” you stifle a giggle.

“Can I see?” you nod as you lift your frame helping him raise the tee above your head revealing your ribbon and lace bra, your breasts heaving over the top threatening to spill.

“Oh my god doll, you're gorgeous” Eddie's mouth moves quickly from your neck to lick across the peaks of your breasts making you involuntarily hitch your hips up. Feeling this you feel him smirk upon your skin and move himself so he is positioned between your legs.

“If you want me to stop, you need to tell me ok? Do you know the traffic light code?” he asks you quickly, face flush, hair wild. 

You nod, which he raised his eyebrows at.

“Don't forget, green is carry on, amber is slow down and red is stop ok?” he makes sure you remember, you nod again.

“I need you to use your words sweetheart” 

“Yes, Eddie” you reply, raising your hips towards him again to reiterate your answer.

“Good girl” his voice was an almost growl as he dove back towards your chest, nipping and sucking at your skin causing you to throw your head back letting out a small moan.

Eddie would continue to ask you if it was ok for everything you did and you answered promptly gaining more praise from him.

Hands roaming each other, you reach down to the buttons on his shirt, opening them up and pushing the shirt off his shoulders.

Your hands stoke down his chest to one of his pierced nipples, asking him “when did you get these?” 

“When I left Hawkins for California, you like them?” his answer muffled from between your breasts.

“Yeah I do, a lot” your fingers grazing over the bar, causing Eddie to let out a guttural moan, the feeling vibrating through you.

Moving his hand down lower to feel him undoing the buttons on your leather trousers, asking for entry. “This ok?” he asks.

“Green, please Eddie” you reply breathlessly looking down at his position now between your legs.

Eddie's hand pulls down the zip and gestures for you to lift your hips to help him pull down your leather pants.

“Oh wow, I'm gonna have to thank Lula when I see her next” he says, kissing his way across your inner thighs.

Before you could respond you feel him tracing his fingers across the frilly edge of your panties, continuing to kiss closer to your warm core making you squirm.

“Oh doll, keep still, you have no idea how long i've dreamt of this” Eddies voice is full of want

“Me to Eds, please… don't stop” you encourage him by tracing your arms up and down his bare arms.

“Don't forget, traffic lights” With that you feel eddies fingers move to rest above your clothed heat finding your small wanting bud beneath, rubbing slowly in small circles. This action caused you to cry out a small moan. 

“Eddie please dont stop” you reached for his free hand beside you bringing it to your covered breasts helping him manoeuvre the fabric down exposing yourself to him.

“My god y/n your so beautiful” Eddie moans as his hand massages your large breast tracing over your nipples making you gasp.

His other hand doesn’t slow down rubbing tighter circles on your now swollen bud.

“You have no idea what you're doing to me doll, can I feel you?” Eddie looks up at you from under hooded eyes.

“Yes, yes please” your stutter your words out to him 

“So polite for me” Eddie grins up at you as he moves his hand under the waistline of your black lace panties moving lover to your folds. Moving his body back up your body you feel his cold rings against your hot skin sending a jolting sensation up your body.

Eddie places kisses against your skin making his way to your now heaving breasts quickly taking your nipple into his mouth, swirling his tongue around it, as he pushes his fingers through your warm folds at the same time.

“You're so wet for me sweetheart, let me look after you, like you deserve” Eddie's voice was a low growl full of lust. 

Your head feeling all fuzzy from the sensations you were feeling just nodded, making Eddie stop.

“Your words doll, don’t forget” 

“Yes Eddie, please I want you too, I’ve been thinking about this for a long time too, please” you hurriedly said, thrusting your hips up into his waiting hand.

“Good girl, my good girl” Eddie growled as he continued his cruel pace on your swollen bud. 

His girl. His words sent your head spinning, lifting your hips to match his movements, wanting more. You could feel a coil in your stomach getting tighter and tighter with every move he made.

Stopping suddenly, Eddie makes his way up your body capturing your lips with his, reaching for the straps of your bra to manoeuvre it down completely. He looks at you with a silent question, eyebrows raised.

“Green, please green” your voice breathless.

Eddie is quick to remove your bra completely, moving his lips down to capture your nipples in his mouth sucking and licking, making you make noises you never knew you could.

Your hands move around his neck pulling at the nape of his neck letting him know you want more, pulling him toward your face. Moving a hand back down to your soaked panties he pushes them to the side tracing a finger up and down you, causing you to mewl.

“Can I feel you? I want to feel you wrapped around my fingers” Eddie asks seductively, not leaving your gaze.

“Yes, please I want to feel you, I want to come around your fingers Eddie please” you are practically pleading him at this point.

This was all the encouragement he needed, slowly pushing a digit inside of you causing you to moan loudly, pressing your forehead against Eddies, rutting your hips upwards matching this pace.

Dragging his finger slowly in and out of you, teasing you was torture, you wanted more. He must be reading your mind as he inserted another digit, slightly curling upwards hitting the spongy spot deep inside, manoeuvring his thumb to rubbing your clit quite vigorously.

You shut your eyes tight leaning your head back at the feeling of him pumping his fingers in and out of you, the coil was starting to get tighter in your lower stomach and Eddie could tell.

“Are you close y/n?” Eddie asks as he feels you getting tighter around his fingers, the moans and whimpers coming from your mouth encouraging him in speeding his pace up a little, making your legs start to shake.

“Y.. ye…yes” you could barely speak, concentrating on the feeling in your lower stomach thinking you might explode. No one had ever made you feel like this before.

Eddie learns down capturing your lips in an open mouthed kiss, tongue fighting for possession once more. Moaning into the kiss you try to find your words.

“Eddie please, i'm gonna come” you were now panting holding onto his shoulders tightly.

“Let go sweetheart, come for me” Eddie's tone was desperate, encouraging you.

With that, you could see stars behind your eyes as you came with so much ferocity, your legs were trembling, making Eddie grab one with his free hand stroking your leg to calm your muscles down. Pressing his forehead against your you open your eyes to meet his large chocolate brown ones. A smile spread across his face, one which you shyly returned.

As he pulls his fingers out of your aching centre, you sigh at the empty feeling, clenching around nothing.

Sitting up to reposition himself next to you he suddenly hits the top of his head on the bunk above.

“Jesus H CHRIST!” his curses rubbing his head with his hand, squeezing his eyes closed tight at the sudden pain.

“Eds you ok?” you sit up moving close to him, taking his face in your hands checking him over.

“Yeah, yeah I'll be good” he chuckles look back at you.

“That was err, that was amazing y/n, are you ok?” he's looking at you with concern on his face.

“Yes Eddie im more than ok, i just never thought we would do anything like this” you now sitting pulling the blanket back around you feeling exposed sitting there in just your now ruined panties.

“Well I hope we can do this again and maybe more?” he asks shly rubbing the back of his neck.

“I'd like that yeah”  you learn forward giving him a soft kiss on his soft lips.

“We should get back to the party, people will wonder where we’ve gone '' Eddie gets up, reaching out a hand to help you up, passing you your clothes.

“Eddie, can I ask you a favour? Can we not tell anyone what happened here? Maybe keep this quiet for a bit? I don't want to rush things too much” You felt foolish saying this considering only a few moments ago he had given you the best orgasam you've ever had.

“Of course doll, anything you need, just as long as I can kiss you at midnight?” wrapping his large arms around you pulling you close you giggled nodding at this request, leaning into his warm chest.

A/N - We finally got there, BUT how's Y/N gonna feel? Hope you enjoyed

Everyone was on board with the idea of both bands performing together to celebrate Paradox joining the label. But she seemed to want to put a downer on everything. Not turning up on time for rehearsals, making comments about the song choice, just overall annoyance.

After some rehearsals you would see Eddie in heated conversations with her on the back steps of whichever venue you were performing in that night. Smoke billowing around him as he frantically waved his arms around trying to make his point, but then throwing the cigarette down with force, and storming away.

Since then, Eddie had taken to travelling with you on Bertha rather than his own bus, claiming it was more rehearsal time for them, but you could tell he was keeping his distance from Kelly. Keeping up the pretence that nothing was happening between you both, he would sleep on the bunk above you, which used to be Lulas, but she was spending most of her time now cozying up next to Gareth in his bunk on the bigger bus.

It was approaching the end of January, and another new state. Pennsylvania.

Empire Rock Club, in Philadelphia was your location for tonight's show, and Eddie was giving you a run down of the place as you disembarked the buses and made your way to the venue's front doors. “Apparently this place is closing soon, no longer going to be a music venue, gonna have to give them a show eh? Sweetheart?” Eddie was way ahead of you, hair bouncing with every excitable step he took.

You were a few steps behind him, looking around yourself rooted to the spot. Everything suddenly hit you. You were here for two nights. Play a show tonight then two days later you will be your duet, in New York.

Thoughts wouldn't leave your head, You couldn't do this.Your gonna forget the lyrics, the notes, everyone is going to laugh at you for trying to be alongside the great Eddie Munson of Corroded Coffin.

“Y/N is everything ok?” Eddie's voice was quiet, sounding distant. You came back to reality at the feeling of his hands on your face, thumb stroking your cheek.

“Oh yeah, hi, yeah i'm ok, just tired” you said inconceivably. 

Leaning closer to you Eddie whispers so only you can hear “Are you sure sweetheart?” 

“Yeah I'm sure, come on what else are you gonna tell me about this place?” You tried your best to sound ok, but you could tell he wasn’t having any of it. But instead of pushing you he carried on.

“Ok pop quiz, let’s see if you remember this, which band hailed from Philadelphia, and even performed here many times?” Eddie asked, putting on his best game show host voice!

“Oh I know!” Jeff shouts over 

“Shut up Jeff! This isn’t for you!” Eddie doesn’t stop looking at you but his arm flies up to shush Jeff.

“Oh erm, oh my god I can’t remember” you pause dramatically bringing your hand to your chin rubbing pulling your face as though you were concentrating hard.

“Does she need a clue? A glass slipper perhaps?” Eddie was bouncing on the spot.

“I know who it is, Ed's…. Cinderella!” You answer him by pushing your hand against his shoulder walking past him towards the entrance.

“Oh come on sweetheart! You only got that because of the clue!” He shouts from behind you, doing a little jog to catch up with you, get ahead of you and open the door for you in a most dramatic fashion.

“Come on boys! Don't know what you got, till it's gone!” Eddie shouted over his shoulder at Gareth and Jeff who started singing with him.

“Don't know what it is I did so wrong, Now I know what I got, Just this song, And it ain't easy to get back, Takes so long”

Turning around to see what's going on, you see Lula with tears of laughter rolling down her face at Gareth who is now on the floor on his knees in front of her dramatically singing along, arms outstretched.

“Gare, stop it, get up you fool!” Lula laughs at him, swatting at his shoulders as he shimmy’s closer still on his knees.

Rolling your eyes at your friends' antics you carry on up to the venue, and catch a glimpse of Kelly in your peripheral vision, getting off the larger bus lighting a cigarette as she goes. You watch as she keeps her head down making her way to where you were standing by the entrance doors, when Jack suddenly appears next to her trying to get her attention but Kelly dismisses her by throwing her arm in the arm jerking it away from your friend.

Making your way back down away from the entrance past Eddie and the boys still serenading Lula, you cross the sidewalk towards Jack, who is now leaning against the wall, hand rubbing the back of her neck.

“Hey, what was that all about J?” you ask concerned as you've never seen Jack look as distressed and distant as she did now.

“Oh, hey, no it was, er, nothing, truely, hey come on we best get inside and get sorted for tonight” Jack answered you, quickly pushing off the wall, walking past you.

“Hey doll, everything ok?” the feeling of his hand on your shoulder made you jump.

“I just dont know whats going on Eds” you explain turning to face him.

“I've never seen Jack like that before, she seems really jumpy”

Eddie looked down at you with a furrowed brow. “Hmm, I dont know y/n/n, maybe leave her for a bit and ask her later?” Looking around he added “No-ones outside anymore, no one can see us” before you could respond he dipped his head to yours, hands capturing your face, kissing you.

The sudden feeling makes you seize up, remember you were outside in public. Anyone could see you.

Pulling back he looked down at you, resting his forehead against yours. You melted under his gaze, full brown eyes staring deep into your, as though he was trying to communicate something deep within to you.

“Come on doll, let's get inside” His voice was soft and low, pulling you along with him across the sidewalk, up the steps and into the venue.

The show that night went without a hitch. No missed notes, no failing equipment. Looking to the side of the stage, you could see the boys looking on. Gareth turns into Lula’s personal cheerleader as you finish your set with one of your favourite songs to cover. Van Halen's Hot For Teacher.

Throwing her sticks into the end as you finish you can't help but smile. The song brought you so much joy to play, and Jack got to show off her amazing guitar skills. Even though she loved Joan Jett, she wouldn't admit it to anyone else but you and Lula knew she admired Eddie Van Halen, and his skill. Not wanting anyone to know she favoured a male guitarist as thought to diminish her feminist ideals. 

Looking across to the boys in the wing, you spotted your own Eddie Van Halen. Making a mental note to tell him that later. 

Blushing at the thought you went back to the mic and introduced the boys to the awaiting crowd. 

As they walked on the cheer was thundering. Girls rushing to the front of the stage to get closer and maybe a touch of their favourite rock star.

Meeting you halfway across the stage, Eddie quickly took hold of your wrist giving it a tight squeeze, flashing you a wink. In complete contrast, Lula dove into Gareth's arms, nearly knocking over the whole drum kit.

Watching Eddie perform has become one of your favourite things to do. The way he commanded the stage. He was born to be a performer. Even in school you could tell he would be destined for big things.

Later that evening you were all huddled into a booth at one end of a local diner, laughing, joking, sharing in the delight of the show that evening. You’d steal glances every now and again towards Eddie who was sitting opposite you, trying not to blush too hard to make it obvious.

Out of the corner of your eye outside the window you saw a frustrated looking Jack, arms animated, talking with someone you couldn't see. Jack was always the level headed one in the group. Yes she was fiercely loyal, but you'd never seen her so distraught before. 

Feeling a nudge on your lower leg under the table, you snapped your head around from the window to see Eddie's brow furrowed looking at you in a silent question of “what's the matter?”

Shaking your head quickly you came back to the conversion at the other end of the table headed by Lula and Gareth, discussing the plans for the last group rehearsal before the duet. Lula sitting on Gareth's knees, her arms draped around his neck. You loved seeing your friend so happy. 

THE NEXT DAY

One more night here, then it was onto New York. One more full day of rehearsals before you would be performing with Eddie. 

To say you were nervous was an understatement. You barely slept, tossing and turning on your bunk, all scenarios running through your head. You’d lose your voice. You'd lose your nerve. The crowd would hate you. Eddie could change his mind?

Your mood did not improve, when walking onto the venue for practice, you saw everyone congregating together chatting animatedly. Wyatts white stetson standing out amongst a sea of black, leather and plaid.

“Ah y/n! Come on over and see! The announcement has been printed in the papers and we have a copy!” Wyatt sounded overjoyed but you dreaded looking at the pictures.

Making your way over, leaning your bass case against one of the amps, you slowly saw the papers come into view.

Eddie beckons you over to his side, a huge grin on his face. “Check these out! Big article about the tour and us extending it. Plus some great photos of us all” Eddies excitement was adamant. Leaning in close to you so only you could hear, he turned the page of the paper, to see a larger photo of the pair of you. “This is my favourite” His arm creeping around your back, placing his hand on the small of your back, tracing little patterns with his fingers on the cotton of your oversize tee.

Looking down at the picture you could see you and Eddie. Both with huge smiles on your faces. His arm flung around your shoulders, and your hand rested on his chest.

You surprise yourself and actually love the photo. You've never liked photos of yourself before. Here you look happy and carefree. Your mood dramatically improved, you felt you could take on the world. Nothing was going to get you down. 

Or so you thought.

Later that day, you all wanted to get a full run through of the duet rehearsed in preparation for the New York show the next day.

Everything was going to plan. You didn't mess up on the piano, Eddie’s  choreographed moves went smoothly, his solo was perfect, Gareth and Lula worked so well together on their timing. 

Everything was perfect. But you could sense something was off.

Turning on the piano stool you see Jack packing away her guitar, having a hushed heated conversion with Kelly. You couldn't make out what was being said but you could tell by the look on Jack's face she was getting more and more frustrated.

“You know what Kelly? FUCK YOU! KEEP YOUR FUCKING OPINIONS ON OTHER PEOPLE TO YOUR SELF!” Jack's voice started quiet then fully erupted, echoing around the stage.

Everything went quiet. Everyone suddenly stopped what they were doing to look over at your friend.

“Jack, come on, you agreed with me the other night, you can't deny that!” Kelly's voice was pleading.

“Yes, NO! NO! I did not agree to this! Not this!” pointing over to you, you suddenly felt your face heat up.

“She is my best friend! I will no longer stand around and listen to you berate her! Either tell her yourself why you're being such a bitch or I will!”

Jack's voice was breaking, you'd never seen her so hurt and betrayed. 

You rushed over to your friend, who was now physically shaking, her guitar case in hand. Tentatively moving towards her you reached your hand out for the case handle. 

“Jack, hey it's ok, come on - let me take this from you” your hand now lightly over hers.

Jack jumped at the feeling of your hand. She snapped her head to face you, taken aback by what you saw. Her eyes were huge, and full of regret.

“Im so sorry y/n/n, Im sorry but you need to know” Jacks tells you in a voice thick with sorrow.

“And you!” she was now pointing to Eddie.

Turning you see Eddie’s face full of concern. Sheepishly his hand comes to the back of his neck, rubbing his neck, his eyes darting to the ground.

What was going on?

What did you need to know?  

What was Eddie hiding? Wait! Was there something between Kelly and Eddie? 

Did he lie to me?

Letting go of her hand you slowly stumble back from Jack. Your head was rushing with question after question. Looking over towards Eddie, hoping to see him there to tell you it wasn't true, but all you could see was a shell of himself. He was silent, eyes to the ground, the only movement you could see was from the slow shallow rise and drop of his shoulders as he breathed.

You suddenly feel like there are a hundred sets of eyes on you, your breathing hitching, getting faster, immense pressure begins behind your eyes. You feel the room start to spin, your vision blurring, the sound of rushing water in your ears. Suddenly everything goes black.

“Y/n? Sweetheart? Can you hear me?” Eddie's voice sounded so far away.

Your eyes flutter slowly open, squinting at the bright lights above you as you try and take in where you were.

“Eddie? What happened?” you ask, trying to sit up.

“No sweetheart please lay back down. You errrm, you fainted” His hand gentle on your shoulder, pushing you back down on to what you can now make out as one of the leather sofas in the backstage rooms of the venue. Taking a deep breath, you let out a loud sigh. “Eddie? I can't take anymore lies, I need to know what's going on” your lower lip started to wobble, you felt the burning behind your eyes. Shutting your eyes tight trying to stop the oncoming tears you knew were going to fall.

“I think I need to explain” This was a voice you were not expecting. Kelly. “No, no! What the fuck are you doing here? Don't you think you've done enough?” you shoot up, you can't stop the words from coming. You've been holding this back for so long.

“What's going on with you two? Eddie? Kelly? Are you going to explain to me? Anymore care to tell me?” you spin between the two of them, not getting the response you wanted.

“Y/n, please sit down, let me explain. I didn't want it to get this far.” Kelly was quiet, trying to calm you, but you were having none of it. “Get this far? What's that supposed to mean?” you spin to face her, face raw with tears running down your face.

“y/n, please, please sit down here and we’ll explain everything” Eddies voice came out small, and quiet behind you. Turning you see him sitting down on the leather sofa. His hands together, twisting the rings around his fingers. A trait you have picked up from him as nerves.

You fall quiet, looking down at the man whom you have come to care so much for these past few months, broken.

“Eddie?” your voice whispers. Moving cautiously forward you try again. “Eddie?”

“Y/n, sit down, I’ll explain everything.” Kellys hand was now on your shoulder, shrugging it away from you, you make your way to the sofa, sitting down leaving a gap between yourself and Eddie. Looking over at him, wanting to hold him, but you couldn't bring yourself to. 

You didn't trust him.

You hear a chair being dragged closer, and see in your peripherals Kelly taking a seat and reaching out towards Eddie's hands.

“Ed’s? You ok?” she asks in a tone as though she was approaching a baby animal not wanting to spook them. You noted the way his hands quickly would pull away from her reach, continuing to spin his rings around his fingers.

“Ok, look, y/n I just want to say I'm so sorry, for everything” you take your eyes off Eddie to look at her, your anger rising at her audacity to say this.

“You're sorry? YOUR SORRY?! HA! I have only tried to be nice to everyone, I have done nothing to you! So why? Why are you so mean to me? Degrade me? Make fun of how I look? Always making comments about how me and Eddie would never work’? What is it? You want him for yourself? You're already with him? What is it?” Your questions just rolled after one another, you could sense Eddie flinching beside you at each question.

“Those were cheap shots and I am truly truely sorry. Please, I understand if you don't want to believe me right now, but please please let me explain my actions”  Kellys face showed no ill intentions, but you had a gut feeling of distrust.

Simply nodding your head you let her continue. “Me and Eddie, there's nothing going on, we are just friends, I promise, really good friends. He's err, not my type” Kelly laughs at that bit but when she looks at your face she stops.

“So yeah, how much do you know about what happened after you left Hawkins? Eddies told me what happened that night. He, well, he was a mess y/n”

You slowly look over at Eddie sitting next to you, his hands now covering his face, elbows resting on his knees.

“I first met him when the boys held an open audition for a bassist, there was no band name, just a location and a phone number. Not many people turned up, but later I found out it was you he was waiting for. He had set this whole thing up in hopes to see you again. I know this because, well … Ed’s? Do you want me to tell the story?” Kelly's question aimed at the man next to you. His head nodded quickly, letting some of his curls fall.

“After joining the band, I got to know everyone better. Finding out they all knew each other in school, a big group of nerds, but fierce and loyal friends. After a night of drinking and smoking, we all played a game of truth. This is where I found out about you. The one who got away. The one he thought hated him, the one who never returned his calls, his messages”

“Messages?” you were now questioning Eddie. He still wouldn't look at you.

“Yeah, he would leave messages at your house, both phone messages with your mom and also notes written to you. He was broken y/n. You know our song ‘Dial Tone’ right?” Kelly asks - you nod.

“It's about you y/n. I came back from a date one night and found him flat out on our living room floor, empty vodka bottles strewn across the room, pill bottles empty, a needle sticking out of his arm. He scared the shit out of me that day. We got an ambulance to him just in time, we didn't know it had gotten this bad, we didn't....” Kelly's voice trails off thick with emotion, her head falling, fighting back tears of her own.

You try to remember some of the lyrics and it suddenly comes to you, realisation hitting you.

You disappeared without a trace

You never bothered to explain

You just walked away

All I wanted was an answer

All I needed was to know

Give me a reason

I need a reason

All those messages I left you

All those nights I spent alone

Give me a reason

Cause all that I hear is

A dial tone

“Kels, it's ok I got it” Eddie's voice gave you a shock next to you. Your head whipping sound to see him looking at you. You see Kelly stand from her seat, making her way over to the work bench wall, mirrors above, strewn with your bags and makeup for the show tonight.

“I was a complete idiot. Kels is right, I was a mess. I would call your house nearly everyday, leaving messages with your mom. I'd ask if you were there, she would say no, I asked to know where you were, I wanted to see you. You know now I spoke with Dustin during that time. He was the one who told me you went to california. As soon as I graduated I packed my bags, picked up the boys and we drove across the country. I needed to find you.”  Eddie's voice was calm, but you could tell there was something underneath trying to get out.

“I wrote that song when I came out of hospital. I was angry, but it helped me. I thought it would have helped me get over you, but I knew that would never happen” He reaches his hands over to you which are now tightly held together in your lap. You're hesitant at first to take them, but you slowly melt and the feeling of his warm hands, allowing him to entangle them together. 

“Y/n, I care about Ed’s, but not the same way as you do. I just didn't want to see him like that again. It scared me so much when I saw you two become close, I only knew his side of the story and i didnt want you to hurt him again. But, please don't be mad at her, but Jack told me your side. And y/n, please forgive me. I've never seen Eds this happy, and I just, just didn't want to potentially lose him again” Kellys face was flushed, using the sleeve of her cardigan to rub away tears that were slowly falling.

Trying to take in everything you've been told your brain felt like it was going to explode. 

“Kelly, I can't forgive you straight away, you really hurt me. I went through enough of this in high school. But i will talk to Jack - I think you should too” your voice a lot calmer that you felt.

“Eddie, I care about you so much, why didn't you tell me this before?” You free one of your hands from his clutches reaching over to stroke his cheek, catching a tear falling from his lashes with your thumb, bringing his eyes to meet yours.

“I'm so sorry y/n, please forgive me?” Eddie eyes, big and brown pleading with you.

“Eddie, you're a fool, but you're my fool” leaning forward to close the gap between you bring your lips to his in a gentle kiss. 

You hear the door open and close, noticing Kelly had left the room. 

“Eddie, I can't just forgive her for what she said. But tell me, please, nothing is going on between you?”

“I promise you sweetheart, nothing.Nothing is going on between us, but she's right though, you need to talk to Jack” Eddie's forehead now resting against yours, your noses brushing against each other. 

You spend the rest of the afternoon, wrapped in each other's arms on that sofa, filling in the gaps between Hawkins and California. Sharing laughs, tears and small sweet kisses.

Tomorrow, you will talk to Jack. Tomorrow you sing in front of a large crowd with Eddie. 

You didn't know what made you more nervous.

The next week was a whirlwind of travel, shows, stolen kisses in deserted corridors, secret meetups late at night by whichever motel pool you happened to be staying at at the time.

One such evening you were sitting on the rickety white sunbeds, passing a joint between the two of you, watching Eddie blow smoke rings into the air.

“So sweetheart, I had an idea for one of the shows one night” Eddie says passing you back the half smoked roll up.

“Oh yeah? What's that then?” you quiz him, taking a deep inhale, and immediately start coughing.

“y/n/n, what have I told you about that? Dont inhale so deep when you don't really smoke this, c’mere, let me help you” Eddie holds his arms open, moving his legs to either side of the chair for you to join him on his sunlounger.

Standing up you saunter over to him, sitting yourself down between his open legs facing him. You can't help but stare at him. Taking in his features. And he notices. 

“What? I got something on my face?” He dramatically starts rubbing and patting his face with his heavily ringed hands.

“Oh stop it, what did you drag me over here for then?” You laugh at his antics.

“Ok ok, I need you to keep still ok? You trust me right?” Eddie answers moving closer to you, taking the joint from between your fingers.

Anticipation runs through you as all you can do is nod.

“Ok, all you need to do is open your mouth slightly and breathe in gently ok?” Eddie explains, nodding again as you watch him bring it to his lips, inhale deeply, and bring his free hand up to your face, thumb and forefinger on either side of your face, pursing your lips open slightly at his touch.

Leaning forward his lips a whisper away from yours he blows the smoke into your mouth.

Breathing in as he told you, you close your eyes feeling his hot breath on you. Something in you snapped and you pushed forward and brought your lips together. Eddie grabs hold of your hips for balance and your lurch forward. Meeting you with the same energy Eddies pushes back deepening the kiss, running his tongue against your lips begging for entry.

Granting him what he wanted, your tongues battle it out for dominance, all the sneaking around over the past week has got you frustrated. You had not been intimate with him since that first time at New Years. Not that you wanted to rush anything, but this just felt right. Eddie has made you feel so special since then. You were going to take your shot. Adjusting yourself in the seat you move forward bringing your legs over his so you were now straddling him, moving closer to him.

Your lips not yet separating, panting desperately into each other, Eddie’s hands move from your hips to your lower back, bring you towards him, moving back to your hips and he starts to feel you slowly start to rock back and forth searching for that little bit of relief you are so desperate for.

“God your beautiful sweetheart,” Eddie's breathy voice says between kisses. Wrapping your arms around his neck, tangling your fingers into his long hair you start to grind your hips hard into Eddies feeling the growling bulge in his tight jeans. 

This only spurred you on, wanting more, wanting him.

“You in a room on your own right?” You ask him, a slight pitch in your voice as his lips attack your neck.

“Mhmm, yeah” he mumbled against your skin.

“Can we, erm, Ed’s can we maybe, err, go to your room?” Your voice was now no more than a whisper.

“You sure doll?” Eddie's face came into view, focusing his eyes on yours.

“Yes, I’m sure Ed’s, please” 

Without another word Eddies lifts you from his lap, adjusting himself slightly in his jeans, and grabs your belongings from the chairs and takes your hand in his.

You both practically run to the room, not wanting to waste any time. Getting outside his door, wrapping your arms around his middle from behind.

“Babe, you gotta move your arms out the way I need to reach the door key” Eddie laughs at you trying to fumble for the key in his jacket pocket.

You reluctantly let him go, moving your arms behind your back, bouncing back and forth on the balls of your feet. 

“Finally” Eddie huffs as he opens the door after struggling with the keys.

He dramatically bows down at the side of the door beckoning you in, his arms open wide.

Once over the threshold you notice the bed in the middle of the room, looking very daunting. You knew what you came here for but you were still nervous.

It’s not that you haven’t had sex before. You have. It’s just that it’s never been great, and most of the time it was so the college boys could brag about the big girl.

You turn on the spot noticing Eddie looking at you. 

“Now it’s you staring, what is it?” You ask him, hands clasped in front of your body.

“Just thinking, I was an idiot to let you get away all those years ago, your so beautiful y/n” 

You inhale deeply at his words and move forward, closing the distance between you, your arms swinging around his neck, reaching up on your toes to kiss him. It’s a messy teeth clashing kiss, but full of pent up lust from the pair of you.

Eddie’s the first to pull away, looking down at you breathing deeply, trying to catch his breath.

“Sweetheart, I just need to hear you say it again for me, are you sure?” Eddies softly asks you.

“Yes, Ed’s I’m really sure, I want this, I want you, if you’ll have me?” Your reply is all he needs to dip his head back down to kiss you softly this time, hands resting on your neck, moving slowly down your arms, resting on your wrists, bringing them to his upper arms.

His hands ghost back down to your hips, walking you backwards, all the time kissing you lips, cheeks,and neck, until you feel the back of your legs hit the mattress behind you.

“I got you Princess don’t worry, lay back for me, let me take care of you again” Eddies voice was sultry and soft, full of kindness.

Doing as asked you sat on the edge of the bed pulling yourself backwards until you were in the middle laying your head on the pillows by the headboard, Eddies climbing up following your movements until he was above you, one of his legs between yours.

Hair cascading around you like a halo, the yellow light of the bedside table the only illumination, Eddie thought he’d died and gone to heaven looking down at you, the light bouncing off your hair, giving you an ethereal glow.

Hands either side of your face he lowered himself down, pressing your bodies together, feeling that familiar need to release tension your hips raise to meet him, causing you both to let out tiny moans.

Mouths crash against each other hungry for the other, hands roaming and grabbing over each other's bodies.

You shudder at his touch as his hands snake under your hoodie to find the bare skin beneath, pushing it upwards together with your t-shirt underneath. Raising your arms you allow him to pull the fabric up and over your head, throwing it across the room, leaving you exposed to him in just your bra and leggings.

Goosebumps form on your skin at the sudden feeling of the cold room. Bringing your hands back down to Eddie's shoulders, you just stay there, looking at each other, drinking each other in.

Your hands shaking slightly you trace your fingertips down to the hem of his shirt, pulling at it in a silent request to remove it. Sitting up he shrugs off his jacket behind him and crosses his arms across his front grabbing hold of the hem of his shirt and lifting it over his head, his hair cascading back down his back and framing his face.

Your breathing hitches in your throat as you take in what you see before you. His toned stomach begging to be touched, his piercings glinting in the light, almost winking at you. It was as though he knew what you were thinking.

“You can touch them, they don't hurt” Eddie says looking down at you as he takes one of our hands in his and brings it to his chest, helping you sit up slightly.

“Really?” there was uncertainty in your voice, but you couldn't deny you were curious.

Nodding and chuckling he took your finger tips and helped you trace across the balls of the piercing protruding from each side of his nipple.

“Its, err, mmm, actually really nice, makes them a lot more sensitive” Eddies eyes shut, his head tilting back, a deep sigh emanating from his nose, at the feeling of your fingers drawing tiny patterns across his sensitive skin.

You look up at his face, watching him try and hold it together as you trace your fingers, cross his chest through the small spattering of hair, to his other piercing tracing the same lazy circles. His hand mirrors yours, bringing them from your waist up your side, taking your clothed breasts in his hands, palming and squeezing, tracing his thumbs over your covered nipples, and back down to your hips again.

“Fuck, y/n/n, I love your body, your hips, your thighs, this ass” forcing each words with a squeeze of the mentioned body part. He felt you squirm as though to try and cover yourself up with your arms, but he wouldn't allow you to move, caging you in with his arms and legs.

Eddie suddenly buried his face between your breasts leaving hot kisses along the sensitive skin, causing you to throw your head back and let out a moan, which only spurred him on, gently biting and kissing those areas to sooth again. His hair tickling at your exposed skin as he moves lower down your body, leaving more open mouthed kisses down to your stomach, his hands following down to the waistline of your leggings, hooking his thumbs looking back up at your for permission. 

Nodding you watch him as he slowly pulls them down your hips, lifting them up to aid him, continuing to kiss down your thighs, you your ankles. Pulling your boots and socks with them he throws them to the side to the growing pile of your combined clothes.

From his position between your legs he looks up at you, eyes hooded by his hair falling against his forehead. He slowly moves back up muttering sweet nothings against your skin, the coolness of his rings against your skin makes your body tingle all over, feeling like there’s a flood bearing through your bloodstream, making everything heightened and sensitive.

You take a sharp intake of breath when you feel his fingers trace the lace hemline of your panties. 

“I got you sweetheart, we’ll take this slow ok? Just relax baby” Eddie's voice was soft, but still in control. 

Moving back up your body, he leaned over you for a few moments, the only sound coming from him was his ragged breathing as his chest heaved, the look in his eyes made you feel like he wanted to eat you alive.

“I just want to make you feel so good, sweetheart.”

Your reply was breathy and full of want for me “Please Eds, please”

He lowered his body ever so slightly to kiss you so softly, it felt like he was whispering against your lips. Breathy moans coming from the pair of you as his hand lowered back to the waistline of your panties, stroking across your soft stomach.

Not wasting any time, his long fingers manoeuvred under the fabric and stroked lazily through your folds.

“Oh baby your so wet for me already, all worked up for me” “Ooh, Eds please, don't stop” your voice came out at a higher pitch, enjoying the feeling of Eddie's fingers working their way around you, drawing tight firm circles around your now aching clit. 

Eddie free hand moves around under you to reach for the back of your bra unhooking the clasps. You reach up to the straps pulling them down, exposing your chest to him. His eyes flash with lust as he quickly is moving his lips down to capture your nipples in his mouth sucking and licking, making you moan loudly.

Your hands move around his neck pulling at the hair at the nape of his neck letting him know you want more, pulling him toward you. 

He slowly starts pushing a digit inside of you causing you to moan ever louder, pressing your forehead against Eddies, pushing your hips upwards matching this pace. Moving an arm lower, your hand going past his waistline palming at the large bulge begging for freedom from his right jeans.

Eddie's head buried in your neck at your touch letting out a low guttural moan, this is all the encouragement you needed. Moving your hand up slowly one handed you undo his belt buckle, undo the button at the top and slowly pull the zipper down. 

Moving your hand back over his crotch you trace your hand over the line of dark hair that descended under the waistline of this boxer shorts, Eddie suddenly halts your movements, removing his fingers from inside you leaving you feeling empty, moving your hand away from him.

“What's wrong? Did I do something wrong?” your words laced with worry and shame, searching his face for an answer.

“Oh sweetheart, don't worry, you did nothing wrong at all” Eddie says as he brings a hand up to stroke your face. “I just, fuck, I want to feel you so bad”

“Lay back for me, let me look at you” Eddie raises from the bed, looking like a vision in front of you. Messy hair, chest rising heavily, jeans undone, teasing what's beneath.

You start to feel exposed and try to grab a blanket to cover yourself up.

“No baby, let me see you, let me see your gorgeous body” Eddie's eyes were now blown out, but you could still see the softness in the chocolate rings surrounding his pupils.

Taking hold of the blanket you tried to cover yourself with, he places it on the chair across the room, and turns back to you, hands on the waistline of his jeans and boxers.

He slowly lowers them down, shaking them from his feet, before reaching down to his chain wallet in his jeans and producing a foil packet from within.

Upon standing up you can't help but stare. Swallowing deeply you feel your face flush, you knew he would be big from the feel of him outside his jeans but you weren't expecting what you saw. 

Seeing your flush face, he looks down at himself and you spot a red flush appear on his cheeks as though he's embarrassed. 

Leaning up on your elbows to look at him better you slowly part your legs open wider, bringing your legs up so your feet are flat on the bed, breathing heavily, waiting for his next move.

He moves so fast you don't have time to blink. He pounces back onto the bed, climbing up your body, kissing you furiously. 

“Fuck, Y/n, you taste so sweet, I need you, will you have me?” Eddie's voice is almost pleading with you, begging for your acceptance.

“Ed’s please, I want you so bad, want to feel you, but please, please be gentle with me”

“Oh baby, I want to take my time with you, don't worry, I got you sweet girl” He reaches down between your bodies, hooking his fingers into the waistband of your panties and pulling them down agonisingly slowly. Unhooking them from your ankles they join the growing pile of your clothes across the room.

Eddie starts slowly stroking himself, before sitting up, ripping the foil packet between his teeth, taking the condom out and rolling it down himself. Taking himself in his hand again he adjusts himself between your legs, and teases your entrance, rubbing his tip up and down your folds, coating himself in your slick.

Small quiet moans escape the pair of you at the feeling, being swallowed by each other's mouths as he brings your lips to his again.

Slowly he pushes his tip inside of you causing you both to let out a moan. Eddie starts slowly moving his hips forward, still guiding himself with his hand, moving slowly deeper inside you, resting his forehead against yours.

“That's it sweetheart, your doing so well, keep looking at me, don't take your eyes off mine” Eddie reassures you with every inch he moves forward into you, taking every inch until you’re so full it’s the only thing you can think about, he’s the only thing you feel. 

Holding onto each other like you felt the other would disappear, you tilt your chin up to his ear “Eddie, please, mhm, please move” your words breathy in his ear, swallowing hard.

Eddie kept a slow pace, pulling himself back out of slowly, pushing back in with the same slow tenderness, letting both of you ease into the rhythm of being together, but eventually, you felt your body loosen up. Finally, it wasn’t enough anymore. 

‘More, Eds please, more, you feel so good’ the words were nearly just an exhale, but it was enough for Eddie. 

He kissed you passionately with a grin, and he plunged deeper inside you. From then on, his thrusts were harder and faster. He grabbed your thigh and pulled up closer to himself. The new change brought in a whole new angle, letting you feel him through your entire body. 

“Fuck sweetheart, your amazing, you feel fucking amazing” Eddie moans into your mouth, his tonge expertly working yours.

The pleasure was intense, and beautiful. Your mind was scattered, so you didn’t even feel your teeth graze over your lips, locking in your voice. But Eddie noticed. 

“Let me hear you sweetheart, please, oh fuck” the thought of Eddies ringed fingers biting into your soft thigh, knowing they’d leave behind marks, sent your head dizzy.

Trying to match his thrusts you brought your hips up to meet him causing you voice to crack at the feeling of him stretching you out.

“So fucking warm, aren’t you? Yeah you are. So nice and warm, warm on my dick, fuck, love how fucking wet you are. You feel amazing wrapped around me” 

“Fuck, Ed’s…you….this…feels so good” you arms grew tighter around his neck, each word coming out of you with each thrust if your hips.

You feel a moment of confidence hit you as you try to wrap your legs around his tiny waist and pull him closer to you.

Eddie's thrusts become deeper and harder, causing you both to moan even louder, spurring each other on, feeling him hit those places you couldn’t reach yourself. 

“Eddie, please, mmm, please touch me” you're almost begging him, grapperling for his hand to move it down to where you were connected.

Eddie's eyes flashed to you, his hair stuck to his face, eyes wild, completely lost in you, as though he was making sure he heard you right as you moved his hand to meet your aching clit.

“Ed’s please touch me! I think.. I… I think I’m close” your voice is all high and breathy, feeling that knot forming in your lower stomach, feeling like you could shatter into a thousand pieces.

“That’s it sweetheart, cum for me, god, I want to feel you” Eddies movements quicken wrapping his free around your shoulders pulling you closer to him.

“Oh Ed’s, don’t stop, god don’t stop” your head thrown back into the pillows giving him access to your neck.

“Shit y/n/n, are you close? I can’t hold on much more” eddies eyes squeeze shut tight.

Your vision starts to blur as tears start to form in the corners of your eyes. Not from pain, or sadness but pure joy. Joy of being in this moment with someone you truly cared about. And you hoped the feeling was mutual.

Legs starting to shake, the familiar tight knot forming, you clung to Eddie's shoulders digging your nails into his back.

“I’m cumming, fuck I’m cumming, Eddie.” You screech out. Your whole body shaking, your release flooding through your body like electricity in your veins. 

“That’s it beautiful, fuck I can feel you, Jesus Christ! I’m right behind you, fuck yes” Eddies thrusts start to slow, as he stills and you feel him release into the  condom, his flush face dripping into your neck, feeling the cold beads of sweat now beading under this bangs.

Heavy breaths emanated from you both, hands caressing each other, stroking faces, arms, your hand pushing his face away from his face, seeing his flush face smiling down at you.

“That was, sweetheart, that was amazing, are you ok?” Eddies asks you softly.

“More than ok” your reply is no more than a whisper, trying to regain your composure.

You felt like you could lay there forever, wrapped in Eddie's arms, but you needed to move.

“Eddie? Ed’s, can you err, can you move please? Your heavy” you pushed gently at his shoulders, as he lay on top of your breathing heavy.

“Sorry sweetheart, yeah, err, just, err give me a sec” Eddie shuffles moving his hand down to grab the base of the condom as he takes hold making sure it doesn’t come off as he pulls slowly out of you.

Rolling off to your side he gets up from the bed and makes his way to the bathroom grabbing his boxer shirts as he goes. You couldn’t help but giggle as you watched him walk away, watching his butt muscles tense and he walked.

“I can hear you giggling! Leave my butt alone!” 

You quickly notice a small design on his left butt cheek, squinting trying to make it out before he closes the bathroom door behind him.

“EDDIE?” You shout through the door to him. “erm, what you got tattooed on your butt?”

All you can hear is a low chuckle coming from behind the closed door. 

“Come on you got to tell me” You say as you climb off the bed making your way to the door, grabbing your blanket as you walk, wrapping it around yourself making your way to the door.

Eddie opened the door, his hair now pulled back in a low bun, a few strands falling down framing his face, adjusting the waistband of his boxer shorts on his waist.

“I’ll tell you in a minute, I promise” Eddie says leaning down to peck your lips.

“Ok then, I’ll be right back out, I’m just gonna go freshen up” reaching down to grab your panties and your t-shirt you scurry away in the bathroom.

Looking  at yourself in the mirror, you don’t recognise the woman staring back at you. This woman was happy, this woman was confident, you didn’t believe this kind of happiness was allowed for you.

Smiling back at yourself, you splash your face with water. You see some mouthwash on the counter that you will have to do for now.

Looking around you see a shower connection over the bathtub, and jump in, only to find Eddie's body wash. Lifting the lid you could smell him, sandlewood and vanilla. 

Lathering the scent over you you felt like you were back in his arms, warm and content.

After a freshen up, you quickly get dressed and make your way back into the room.

Eddie was already under this covers, lifting up one side inviting you in.

“Come on, I’ll tell you the story of what happened” Eddie laughed, shaking his head from side to side.

Climbing in you gravitated straight into his side, like magnets, wrapping your arms around this middle leaning your head on his chest.

“So, not long after we got signed by Wyatt, we all went out to celebrate. Things got pretty messy, and I was very drunk, as was everyone else” Eddie starts to tell you the story as you snuggle in closer to him, being the blanket over the pair of you.

“So, after going to and from a  few bars, we saw a tattoo place, and I thought it would be a good idea to get a tattoo, now beat in mind I don’t remember any of this myself, I had Jeff tell me the next day what happened” Eddie started to laugh.

“Go on..” you poked his sides making me laugh more.

“Okay, okay, so back in high school I always used to say Gareth was always trying to kiss my ass, either it be in DND for me to tell him what was gonna be in the next campaign or during band practice..” Eddie's voice started to trail off.

Sitting up suddenly, your eyes going wide realising what was coming next “No!”

“Yes! Story goes, I shouted at Gareth ‘Kiss my Ass!’ And he did! No idea where he got the lipstick from, no doubt Kelly, and we got it tattooed on me, so now I can say that Gareth had well and truly kissed my ass”

You both couldn’t stop laughing, as Eddie rolled over and pulled down his boxers showing you the perfect pout of a set of lips right by the dimple in this butt cheek, with ‘love bites’ written across the top and bottom. ***

“Is that? Is that the Judas Priest song?” You couldn’t stop laughing that it was becoming hard to breathe.

“Yeah, apparently I was singing it all night. You know you look more beautiful when you smile sweetheart” Eddies fingers come up to your face moving a piece of hair behind your ear.

Blushing you sheepishly look down, but remember something Eddie mentioned before.

“Before we erm got distracted, you said something about an idea for one of the shows, what was it?”

“Oh that! Well I’m thinking maybe we could sing together? I have a few ideas, and it's just an idea, obviously we don’t have too” you cut Eddie off on his tangent.

“I’d love to Ed’s!” you beam up at him.

“Really? Oh that's great y/n/n, I can show you some ideas tomorrow” Eddies smile grows as you gaze at each other, all the time he’s stroking your cheek softly with his thumb. 

You sit there, wrapped up in Eddie's arms, enjoying the quiet. You break the silence, it was no more than a whisper.

“Eddie… tonight was special, I erm, I’ve never felt like this before with anyone, I just, I feel, maybe..most people just.. you know”

You look up, seeing Eddie's lips twitch at the edges forming a small smile. Placing his arms around your torso, he pulls you close, laying you both down under the covers, reaching over to switch the bedside light off. 

“Don’t worry sweetheart, I’m not going anywhere, your stuck with me now”

***Eddies Butt Tattoo from Gareth***

“Oh shit shit shit!” you rush to get up but feel a weight next to you. Looking over you see the back of a messy head of curls, pale shoulders adorned in tattoos.

Eddie.

Then it hit you. Last night, being on the roof of Bertha, staring at the stars together.

“Please, I promise you y/n, it's only ever been you”

“Ok Eds, I promise too” looking back up at him, you move closer to each other hovering over each other's lips. He doesn't move any closer, letting you make the next decision.

You break the distance, bring your lips to his full ones gently, melting into him.

It's a gentle kiss, but you can feel the intent behind it. Breaking away you lean your foreheads together just enjoying the moment of being together.

After what felt like hours of talking together staring at the stars, listening to each other's stories, you felt at ease, relaxed.

Turning from your position between his legs, you placed your hands on his thighs pushing up to be face to face. Moving your legs positioning them on either side of his hips, he lets out a little huff.

“Y/n what are you doing?” Eddie's voice is hushed and breathy.

You answered him by crashing your lips into his, matching your ferocity, hands moving to your hips, holding you in place.

Small moans start coming from you once you grant him access to your mouth, tongues fighting each other for dominance.

Eddie's hands start moving from your hips, moving down and around you grabbing hold of your legging clad ass, rings digging into the flesh, squeezing.

You feel yourself lose control at his touch, slowly moving your hips to grind against him, eliciting a deep noise from his throat.

Eddie's lips move from yours leaving hot trails down your jaw line, to your neck, feeling his hot breath just below your ear, making you whimper.

“Sweetheart, fuck, stop a minute” his hands suddenly come back to your hips halting your movements, his eyes full of something you dont recognise.

“Ed’s what's wrong?” your hands move from his forearms, winding around his neck, tangling your fingers into the soft curls at the base of his neck.

“We need to stop this sweetheart” His voice is small, hands now moving around your waist drawing you closer to him.

Your head drops, letting out a small “oh” you try to pull away from him, dejection in your voice and face.

“No, no, not like that y/n I promise” Eddie sees the sadness in your face, pulling you back to him to reassure him.

“No, what I mean is, I do want this, I want you, but not like this” he gestures with his chin at your surroundings reminding you that you are outside on top of your bus “plus I want to keep my promise to you and take things slow?”

“Oh, yeah” you let out a small laugh, your head falling onto his shoulder, keeping close.

“Come on y/n, let's get back down, we have a big day tomorrow, with the press conference” He brings your head back to face him, leaning forward and pressing a small kiss to the tip of your nose.

Making your way back to the motel rooms, Eddie didn't let go of your hand once. Lazily rubbing his thumb across yours, as though he wanted to remind you that he was still there.

Stopping outside your door, still wearing his vest jacket, you start to shift your shoulders to take it off, but he stops you.

“Keep hold of it for me?” Eddie asks you timidly.

“Okay, Eds if you're sure. You know back in school I always thought what it would be like if you let me wear your vest” You say looking up at him through your long eyelashes.

“Oh really?” you can't mistake the cockiness emitting from his voice, he leans against your door frame, arms crossed across his chest. “And how does it feel?”

“Feels good” you reply, moving closer to him, lifting yourself up on your tiptoes to reach him for another kiss.

You start to feel it get heated again, pulling away, your words blurt out before you can think about it.

“Will you come in with me? I don't want to be alone” you say against his lips.

“Are you sure?”

“I'm sure, Ed’s, we don't have to do anything, I, I just, after the past few days I feel like I need you close” your voice cracks on the last couple of words, trying to hold it together.

He pulls you into him close “I won't go anywhere, I promise”

Getting your key out of your hoodie pocket, you open the door, looking around at the mess you had left behind and the unmade bed. 

“Sorry about the mess” you move around the room, trying to tidy things up.

“Hey don't worry about it, guessing the maid took a week off?” he says with a smile trying to lighten your mood.

“Ha, funny one Munson” you retorted back.

“Ouch, why the formality doll? You haven't called me that since highschool” he grabs hold of his chest as though fatally wondered by your use of his surname, in the most dramatic of fashion.

Turning towards him you look back and forth from him to the bed awkwardly, your hands twisting in front of you.

“So how do you wanna do this? I’ll take the chair, you take the bed, I'll give you your privacy to get changed if you want?” Eddies quickly said, noting your awkwardness.

“Erm, will you sleep next to me?” You voice barely a whisper

“Oh, errm, are you sure? I don't want to push you”

“Eds please, you've already seen me naked, but I appreciate that, I’ll just go to the bathroom and i'll be right back out” You say with a shy smile, blushing.

Once in the bathroom, you shut the door behind you quickly, leaning against the shut door.

Your brain races. Fuck I havent shaved my legs in days, shit will he care? Gotta brush my teeth, brush my hair, oh my god what if he realises this is a mistake, what if, what if, what if.

You opt to sleep in the oversized t-shirt you have on, some sleep shorts you had in the bathroom already. Removing your bra from under your shirt, throwing it to the side, you look at yourself in the mirror. Taking a deep breath, you look back at your reflection rubbing your hands over your face. You got this, y/n. Deep breath.

Making your way out of the bathroom you see that Eddie has remade the bed, placing your blanket over the top, brightening the room from the plain beige cover that was already on there. 

You take in his appearance standing at the end of the bed. He was down to just his chequered blue boxer shorts, and socks.

Looking at him now you can see the difference time has made since school. He had more tattoos adorning both his arms and chest, one hugging down his left hand side to his waistline which looked like tree branches. You could also make out what looked like the tips of wings on the tops of his shoulders. 

Along his long muscular legs you noticed a tattoo wrapped around his left ankle. From this distance you could see it was a dragon, but not any dragon. 

“Eds, is that Smaug?” you asked, pointing down at his leg.

“Oh yeah, yeah it is, when I moved out to california, a buddy of mine heard I liked this kinda stuff and found a drawing form the film, god we must have been what? 11, 12 years old when it came out? I remember Wayne got a copy of it for me from a buddy of his. It reminds me of him and the good times I had with him” Eddie looks down at his leg, letting out a small sigh and a smile at the memory.

Not wanting to push him any further you smile at him, looking about the room noticing he had switched all the lights off to save the lamp on the bedside table, which let off a warm yellow light.

Rooted to the spot you didn't want to make the first move, looking too eager, even though this is what you wanted.

“Ermm thank you for tidying up a little you really didn't have to” you speak softly, slightly embarrassed.

“Hey sweetheart don't worry about it, give you one less thing to worry about” Eddie spoke as he walked towards the side of the bed lifting the sheets up and climbing in.

“You coming in?” Eddie raises his hand towards you.

Moving to the other side of the bed you lift the sheets up on your side and climb in, taking his hand for balance, quickly laying on your back looking at the ceiling, body tense, not wanting to look at the boy next to you.

You're thankful it's Eddie who makes the first move, shifting his weight slightly, lifting an arm up and tiling his head towards you in a gesture for you to come closer to him. Moving closer you rest your head on his shoulder, your arm stretches across his chest, and one leg drapes across his next to you.

“C’mere sweetheart, listen, I’ll be here when you wake up, I promise you. I’ll always be here, I will tell you everyday if I have to. I don't want to lose you again” Eddies voice is a whisper in your ear as he slowly strokes your hair, your head moving to his chest, you can hear his steady heartbeat. The sound is keeping you grounded, making you feel safe. You never wanted this to end. The sound of his heart aiding you to drift off into a dreamless sleep.

Leaning over toward Eddie's sleeping body, his hair cascading around the pillow, mouth open wide, snoring gently. You place your hand on his tattooed shoulder, which you can now see if inked with bat wings starting at his shoulder blades, shaking him gently. 

“Ed’s come on we have to get up, come on, we gotta go to the press conference in a few minutes” reaching over, you move some of his hair out of his face, seeing his face scrunched up.

“Come on princess, 5 more minutes, it's warm in here” Eddie's voice is all groggy and deep as he rolls over engulfing you in his arms under the covers.

“Ed’s come on, we gotta get up!” you laugh, gently pushing at him to get off you, but he would just squeeze you tighter, and start peppering kisses all over your face.

“Nope, we're staying here forever” Eddie's voice is muffled in your neck as he keeps kissing you.

Giggling you pull away from his clutches out of bed, making your way to the bathroom. 

“Eddie, get out of bed, you need to go back to your room and change, otherwise people will think things, if they see you leaving my room in the same clothes”

“Would that be a bad thing sweetheart?” Eddie calls to you, leaning up on one arm watching you move about getting dressed.

“I'm not answering that right now Eds” you say, looking through your bag for some clothes suitable.

“What do you think of this Eds, youve done this before, a press conference, will this outfit be ok?” you ask him holding up a maroon short skirt, Black belt, a slouch black and white striped long sleeve top, and your oversized denim Jacket.

“You’ll look gorgeous sweetheart whatever you wear”

“Oh shut up Ed’s, now come on get out!” picking up your pillow from your side of the bed and throwing it at him.

“Fine fine im up im up!” Eddie's hands fly up in surrender, throwing his long legs over his side of the bed, grabbing his clothes. Hopping towards you pulling his jeans up his legs “I’ll see you out there sweetheart” learning forwards, plating a kiss to your lips. Throwing you a toothy grin and a wink at you, he grabs the rest of his clothes and makes his way out the door.

Letting out a huge sigh, you rub your hands over your face, still in disbelief of how relaxed you feel, at having Eddie with you last night. You haven't slept so well for such a long time.

Looking at yourself in the mirror, you forced yourself to get yourself together and get dressed. Applying a light makeup look, nothing heavier than your winged eyeliner, you pull on your doc martens, giving yourself one final look at yourself. 

Breathe. You got this.

Lula and Jack spot you making your way over to them, both with knowing grins on their faces, waving you over.

“Have fun last night?” Jack nudged her shoulder into yours.

“I know you had something to do with this Jack, and seriously thank you. I'm so sorry I locked myself away from you guys, I just didn't know what to do and” you were quickly stopped by both of your friends embracing you so tightly you felt like all your troubles could melt away.

“Y/n you don't have to explain yourself, we will always be there for you, you know that right?” Jack's voice was quiet but strong, almost grounding you to the spot.

They had been there for every misstep you took, every time you felt like you didn't belong, every tear you shed, if it was over your own self worth, or a stupid college boy that ever hurt you.

You treasured their friendship.

“Jack's right y/n/n, we're always here. I'm sorry I haven't been present recently. I've been spending all my time with Gare, and I should be with you” you cut Lula off before she could finish her statement.

“No Lula, I'm so happy to see you happy, that's all I want for you, for both of you. And I think things might be working out for me, I don't know properly yet, but maybe” you blush at the last couple of words, as memories of last night creep to the surface.

Still holding onto each other you all start to giggle amongst yourselves, when you hear a cough from behind you.

“Sorry to interrupt ladies, but are we all ready?” Wyatt's smiling face greeted you all.

“Yeah boss, we're all good,” you say, pulling slightly away from the girls, nodding your head, running your hand through your hair.

“Excellent, let's go show you off to the world!”

Walking into what looked like a larger office of the venue, the walls adorned with posters of previous shows that had been here, your eyes are suddenly blinded by the flash of what felt like hundreds of flash bulbs.

You froze, couldn't focus on anything else, your mind went blank. Fear filled your entire body.

You saw some movement in your peripheral vision of a mass of white walking ahead of you and addressing the room.

You could get on a stage in front of hundreds of people and perform your heart out but this was something else.

Feeling like you were being scrutinised under a microscope, everyone in very close proximity.

Feeling very overwhelmed by the whole experience, you're brought suddenly back into the room when you feel a pair of hands grip a hold of your hips giving you a gentle squeeze. Looking up and back quickly you see Eddie's big brown eyes looking down at you with a smile, which you return fully beaming.

Leaning down to your ear he whispers “This is all for you, don't forget that, enjoy it, you deserve this” his hands remain on your hips, when your head whips around and the sudden flash of light from another flash bulb.

“We are making two announcements today. First of all we shall be extending this tour by another 3 months by popular demand, moving into Canada, including shows in Montreal, Toronto, Edmonton and Vancouver” Wyatt explained being cut off by more lights to flash and arms to be raised by the press in front of you.

Raising his hands in the air to try and bring order to the room, Wyatt continued.

“Secondly, we are so pleased to announce that the ladies of Paradox here who been supporting the boys here in Corroded Coffin, have graciously accepted our offer to join the family and sign with us, we shall begin work on an album as soon as we have this tour finished and should be with you before the end of the year” Wyatt waves his hands over in your direction, gesturing all three of you forward. You didn't want to leave the safe clutches of Eddie, but he gave you a little push forward of encouragement.

One by one you signed your names at the bottom of the piece of paper in front of you, smiling at each other still in disbelief that this was finally happening. 

Everything then seemed to go by so quickly. You were ushered here and there for photographs. Photos of the three of you with Wyatt, the three of you alone, then with the boys.

“EDDIE! EDDIE! COME ON THROW YOUR ARM AROUND KELLY!” The press shouted at them. Looking over at Eddie you could see him looking over at you uncomfortably, watching Kelly move in closer, her arm snaking around Eddie's waist, a smug grin on her face, posing for the cameras.

Before anything else could happen, Wyatt appeared next to you, shouting back over the noise at the photographers.

“Come on, let's get my two lead singers together for a photo, yes?!” There was some confusion among the photographers at Waytts request but they took your photos nonetheless. Eddie practically engulfed you in a hug, a huge smile on his face. He's done this hundreds of times, and you could tell. Knew actually where to look, what to say.

You feel him tighten his grip around your waist bringing him impossibly close to his side.

“Don't forget sweetheart, you're beautiful, show them, show them how amazing you are” Eddie encouraged you next to him, as he must have felt you seize up next to him with embarrassment.

Taking a deep breath you relax and throw your arm around his back holding onto his waist, while your other reaches up and touches his chest. You feel his hand tickle your sides a little making you laugh and blush, burying your head in his shoulder and the photographers love it, shouting for more and the flashes dont stop.

You look over the room and see your friends, smiling so brightly at you, cheering for you like your own personal cheerleaders. Gareth behind Lula his arms draped over her shoulders, cheering away with her.

Amongst the joy you notice Kelly, standing alone by the door, face full of thunder, raising a lighter to a cigarette hanging from her lips, blowing out a large plume of smoke, storming out the room.

“Don't worry about her y/n, i'll talk to her” Eddie's voice was a little sterner than before but it didn't show on his face. “Come on, let's get out of here, let's celebrate!” 

Turning to the press, but not letting go of you, Eddie's voice booms across the room “OK guys, thanks so much for coming out, but we gotta go get ready for tonight's show!”

You tentatively lift your hand in a wave as you follow him out the room, taking you down a deserted corridor. As soon as he knew you were alone, he swiftly took your face in his hands pushing you up against the wall, beginning his lips down to yours in a heated kiss, pulling a deep moan out of you. 

Your hands go straight to his belt loops in his jeans pulling his hips to yours firmly.

“Oh y/n… we.. fuck…” Eddie's words coming out in short pants between kisses as he feels your hips rock up to meet his.

“Not here, sweetheart, I promise soon” Eddie pulls away from you slowly, stroking his hand across your cheek, seeing your worried eyes looking about at him “Sweet girl, i'm so proud of you in there” 

Face flushed from your heated moment, you look up at Eddie, fingers still in his belt loops, yout thumbs lazily stroke the exposed strip of pale skin you see on his waist “Thank you Eds, for encouraging me in there. I, err I really needed it. Your a natural”

“I’ll always be there to help you y/n, always, you're stuck with me now” bringing his forehead to yours gently rubbing your noses together, you melt at his stare, bringing your arms up to loop around his neck, holding him close.

“Thank you Eds, come on what's this about you saying to go celebrate?” You ask, tickling the back of his neck.

A deep chuckle escapes Eddie's lips, and a glint of mischief flashes in his eyes “come on let's go!” grabbing your hand in his, he pulls along behind him running down the corridor, laughing loudly together.