Rest Of Forever
Summary: Logan Howlett x fe!Reader -> When you join the staff of Mutant High and meet Logan, neither of you realise you've just met your forever.
Disclaimer: Fluff, falling in love, friends to lovers, elemental control! reader, mutant abilities recognised through stress, mention/descriptions of tragedy and stress, domestic fluff, hurt/comfort, he fell first and harder, kissing, swearing.
You could remember when things started to change; youâd never forget it.Â
Between the stress of exams, home stress with the fear of being the one thing your family didnât exactly like, and trying to find some kind of balance between it all, you had driven out to the abandoned field just outside of town.Â
Most of the grass was either driven over or trodden on from people using it for all sorts of things. The last time it had been used was just a week before for the Spring break bonfire. You hadnât been invited, but from the stories that were told at school a few days later, you were glad of that fact.Â
The logs that once carried the fire were charred and slowly slipping away with the growing winds.Â
You felt like you couldnât breathe.
Throwing the door open, you were pretty sure youâd still left the key in the ignition. You wanted to scream. You didnât like to scream, but you felt like you needed to.Â
Somewhere between the whipping of wind, circling around you over and over, only getting more intense and the noise inside your head, you dropped to your knees.Â
A scream ripped out of your throat before you could stop it.Â
All you could feel wasâŚanguish. Pain and suffering over and over. You screamed some more, hearing more voices in your head than you wished to; and none were nice. People you wanted to forget, people you didnât want to become or be associated with.Â
You needed to ground yourself. You needed to find a pause, a way to recognise you were still on Earth, still on the ground.Â
Your palms fell to the dry dirt.Â
What should have been cold and damp as you dug your fingers through it, trying to anchor yourself to the miniscule pause your head gave you, instead started to vibrate.Â
It wasnât until the fence five hundred feet away started to shake and lift out of the ground that you realised a tornado was starting to be createdâŚby you.Â
Finally, you had peace in your mind.Â
But only for a moment because, just as everything else became silent, worry started to creep through you. The tornado wasnât small by any means and it was headed straight towards you.Â
âShit.â
Scrambling to your feet, you ran back to your car and tried to start the engine. It stalled for a moment, but with a hit to the dashboard, it roared to life and you moved as quickly as you could.Â
Checking on it in your rearview mirror, it was only growing.Â
That tornado became known as The Titan. It tore through the entire town, ripped houses from their concrete slabs and forever changed the townâs policy to tornado attacks.Â
âCan I help you?â A voice asked as you hung your coat by the door way and picked the large yellow plastic box up from the table.Â
From around the corner of the staircase, a man appeared. Tall, lumbering and a great head of hair. He sensed something about you â that much you knew.Â
âHi,â you smiled lightly, sticking your hand out to him, catching the heavy box with your knee. âIâm Y/n.â
He hesitated in taking your hand, but eventually shook it anyway. âLogan.â
You smiled. âThe history professor.â
âHow do you-â
âI used to work here,â you told him, quickly. You held onto the box securely once more as he let your hand go. âI wasnât meant to arrive til next week but-â
âY/n?âÂ
From down the hallway, Xavier appeared in his wheelchair with a beaming smile on his face. âI thought you couldnât get here until next week?â
You nodded. âI thought so, too. But I got my reviews handed in early and apparently thereâs meant to be roadworks on the highway again from Sunday so,â you shrugged.Â
âWell, thatâs wonderful.â Xavier smiled. âLogan, perhaps you can help Y/n to her old office?â
âOh, thatâs al-â
âNonsense. Besides, itâll give you both an opportunity to get to know each other.â Xavier nodded down the hallway. âItâs just across from yours, Logan.â
Soon enough, you and Logan were walking side by side down the corridors and towards your office.Â
âAre you sure you donât want some help?â
You shook your head. âNo, Iâve got it. Thank you. So, youâre The Wolverine?â
Logan nodded. âUh, yeah. Iâm sorry, I donât really know about you.â
You chuckled. âThatâs alright. I donât really have a superhero name, but my abilities are usually tied with elemental capabilities. Create, conjure, control â that sort of thing.â
Logan nodded. âWhen did you find that out?â
You paused for a moment. âUh, when I was younger. Just before mid-terms in my Sophomore Year.â
âLate bloomer, then?â
You smiled a little. âYeah, guess so. When Xavier found me, he told me apparently I had an extraordinary ability to suppress my emotions, but in doing so, it made themâŚgrow stronger.â
Finally, you reached your office. Logan unlocked the door for you and you walked inside. It hadnât changed.Â
âJesus, this is what was in here?â You heard Logan asked, somewhere behind you as he coughed.Â
There was dust everywhere, even on the paint-stained cover sheets. By the looks of it, Xavier had kept his word that Scott wouldnât be allowed to change your office in any way, shape or form.Â
You smiled, laying the box down on your desk before tearing the plasterboard from the window and trying to unlock the window.Â
âDo you mind-â
Logan stepped over some of the old cardboard boxes to get to the other side of the window. âOn three,â he told you.Â
On three, you both pushed at the window until it came free and finally opened. Taking in the scent of the honeysuckle outside the window, you smiled. Logan looked around for a moment, really taking in the room. Then, as he looked back at you, you graced him with a light smile just as a forceful but light breeze spun through the window and around the room.Â
He sneezed and coughed as a tiny tornado of dust blew past him and out the window, but when he looked back again, the office space seemedâŚalmost like new.Â
Walking over, you lifted the box youâd been carrying, watching as the trapped dust under it flew out of the window too.
âImpressive.â
You grinned, unclipping the box. âThanks.â
âSchool books? Are you going to be teaching here?â Logan asked.Â
âNo,â you shook your head. âBut I will be working here.â
âDonât you have a job backâŚwherever youâve come from?â
You nodded. âI do, but I need a break from the city.â
âSoâŚwhat will you be doing?â
âAnalysis for the team, and for Xavier. Help build packets for court cases surrounding Mutant Laws. And, if needed, covering a couple classes.â
Logan smiled. âSo, you are here to teach?â
âOnly if youâre out of business, Wolverine.âÂ
He raised his eyebrows, but tried to seem cool about it. âYou teach history?â
âUsed to.â
âFigured with the element thing, you would have been a science teacher?â
You chuckled and shook your head. âNo. Science was actually my worst subject. I might be able to conjure the elements, but that doesn't mean I understand their subject.â
Logan chuckled. âFair enough. I, uh, I guess Iâll leave you to it then.â
You nodded, smiling. âThanks.â
âIt was nice to meet you.â
âYou, too.â
By the time you officially started back working both for and with Xavier, you and Logan had gotten to know each other a little more.Â
And as the years went by, you grew a little closer with each and every interaction.Â
It was a random Thursday afternoon when someone cleared their throat at Loganâs open office door. âYou done ogling?"
Logan felt his presence get knocked back into him as Rogue coughed. He hadnât realised how long heâd actually been staring at you.Â
It took all of two days for Logan to realise, if he kept his office door open and so did you, he could see you sitting at your desk. And that was a seriously better view than the endless display of nature outside of his office window.Â
Logan cleared his own throat. âWhat?â
Rogue smiled as she walked inside and took a seat across from his desk. âOh, donât try to hide it. We all know.â
âKnow what?â Logan asked, trying to turn his concentration back on the papers he still needed to mark.Â
Rogue smiled as she watched him. Red cheeks, nervous shake of his hands as he readjusted his pen. âLogan?â
âWhat, kid?â
âJust tell her,â Rogue said, calmly.Â
Braving to face her, Logan looked up. âTell who, what?â
She smiled, sitting forward. âYou keep your office door open.â
âAs does any good teacher.â
She nodded. âYeah, and Iâm not saying youâre not a good teacher, because you are. But youâre not the kind to keep their office door open at all times.âÂ
Logan felt she had more to say, so saving himself a scolding, he just continued to listen.Â
âSheâs the first and last person your eyes land on when you enter and leave a room. And I know that when you canât sleep at nightâŚsheâs the only one you want to talk to.â
Logan just sighed. âMarie-â
She shook your head. âNu-uh, no.â
âWhat do you mean ânoâ?â
âDonât you think, after everything weâve been through- after everything youâve been throughâŚdonât you think you deserve something good for once?â
Logan contemplated her question as he turned and looked back towards your office. Your door was still open and you were finally throwing off your headphones and glasses to lean back in your chair and force a fresh breeze through your window.Â
Deep down, he knew Rogue was right. And it wasnât like he hadnât thought about it a thousand times before. ButâŚyou made him nervous.Â
Heâd lived over a hundred years, heâd met millions of people, experienced things in life that would make anyone have a cold sweat long after theyâd been buried. But his feelings for you and acting on them?Â
That scared him more than anything heâd ever faced before.Â
He knew he liked you the minute he walked you down the hallway to your office when youâd first met. He knew he found you attractive when he turned around and looked at you just before you showed him a tiny fraction of what your abilities could do. And he knew he fell in love with you the night you appeared by his side and he realised he wasnât dreaming.Â
Heâd been having a nightmare. Nothing too dramatic, but enough to have him speaking in his sleep, and toss around in a cold sweat. But when he heard your voice and he opened his eyes, he saw youâŚ
âLogan?â
He took in a breath as he looked at you. Your beauty, encased in the twilight, shocked him down to his core. His hand reached out, slowly, trying to make sure you were real and not some kind of Angel heâd dreamed up.Â
âY/n?â
You smiled, a slight curve appearing in the corner of your mouth. âYeah, Iâm here. You were having a nightmare.â
âI think Iâm still dreaming,â he said, his voice still barely above a whisper.Â
A breathy laugh escaped you as he reached out to touch you. For a moment, he played with the ends of your hair. âYouâre not dreaming anymore.â
âFeels like a dream,â he told you, half-asleep.Â
âWell, itâs not,â you assured him, quietly. You lay a gentle hand on his chest just as he covered your hand with his own to keep it there. âIâll stay til you fall back to sleep.â
âGoodnightâŚAngelâŚâ
You were shocked to say the least, but Logan didnât notice. Instead, feeling your palm over his heart, he soon fell back to sleep. In the morning, he had no recollection of what happened. At least, it seemed that way to you.Â
Not long after Rogue left his office, Logan was left debating what to do. You were sitting in your office, listening to the natural breeze blow by, every now and again floating the scent of honeysuckle and lavender inside.Â
âLong day?â
Opening your eyes, you turned and looked at him. âYeah. Iâm ready for summer break to start.â
Logan smiled, an idea entering his mind. âHow many papers do you have left?â
You blew a raspberry and nodded to the pile on the chair beside the entrance way. âAll of them. Plus the final review of new-comer classes.â
Logan exhaled. âWanna get out of here? For a couple hours at least?â
You weighed up your options. âSure. What do you have in mind?â
Logan smiled. âItâs a secret. Just grab your jacket and meet me by the truck.â
âNot your motorcycle?â You asked, a little shocked.Â
âWeâre gonna need something sturdier.â
You were intrigued so, with an excited look, you nodded. âOkay, then.â
Twenty minutes later, Logan was pulling onto the highway as you dug through the fast food bag.Â
Tearing the paper away from the straw with your teeth, you turned it over and pulled the straw out before slamming it into the cup and handing it over to Logan. You did the same with your own, placing it in the cup holder beside his own.Â
Carefully unwrapping his food, you placed it on his lap to reach for as he also concentrated on the surprisingly calm highway.Â
âSo, where are we headed?â
âStill a surprise.â
It wasnât until Logan was pulling off the highway and after a long stretch of road, started driving down a few smaller dirt roads that led towards a familiar forest that you realised just where heâd taken you.Â
It was the same safe space youâd driven him to in the early hours of the morning a while ago when heâd suffered the biggest nightmare youâd ever witness him have. He was still out of it by the time you arrived, and for a solid hour, you wrapped him in the silencing wind and enough scents of nature to calm his mind, body and soul.Â
âThought we could both do with some fresh scenery,â Logan said as he looked at you, both of you standing in front of the truck and looking out over the cliff edge.Â
For a while, you both just sat on the ground, talking. And Logan watched as you dug your hands into the Earth beside you and let the dirt run through your fingers, absentmindedly.Â
The longer you both talked and laughed and shared untold stories, the more Logan noticed about you â or rather, the Earth around you. He knew plenty about you, already. Not that heâd ever get enough. But it was a rare sight to see your abilities fall out of you so naturally that even you didnât notice.Â
The plants seemed lusher, the trees seemed to let out more oxygen, more flowers bloomed open, the wind offered a gentle breeze that would wrap around both of you andâŚyou brightened.Â
By the time the sun was starting to set, the freshness of nature remained, but you were getting tired. Conversation had stalled, naturally, and when you werenât looking, Logan found himself studying the same figure of you that he saw when you were in your office â only, this time, it was up close.Â
âLogan?â You turned and looked at him. But he was staring. He hummed.Â
You chuckled a little, your voice soft. âYouâre staring.â
His eyes met yours, a little frozen before he looked away. âSorry.â
âDonât be,â you smiled, reaching out for his hand. âI like the way you look at me.â
He met your eyes once more, taken aback by the colour of yours. âAndâŚhow do I look at you?â
You swallowed. âLike Iâm just as beautiful as the nature around us.â
âMore,â he corrected, not taking the feeling of your hand in his, or the fact you were meeting his gaze, for granted. âMore.â
You swallowed, nervously, averting your gaze for a moment.Â
âWhat? What is it?â
Logan watched as a crease became visible between your eyebrows. And then your voice cracked. âUm-â
âHey,â Loganâs voice was soft as he reached out for you, tilting your face til you met his gaze again. With a gentle thumb, he brushed away the fallen tear. âHey, whatâs wrong?â
You shook your head. âNothing, itâsâŚitâs nothing.â
âItâs something, clearly.â
âItâs stupid.â
Logan leaned closer to you. âY/n?â
Letting out a breath, you tried to steady your voice. âYouâre gonna think Iâm pathetic.â
âNever.â
You choked out a laugh and hummed as if to say yeah, sure.Â
âI mean it.â He told you. âNothing is more pathetic than Scott when it comes to Sports Day.â
You laughed a real laugh for a moment. Somewhere between the laugh and your words, you found enough courage to steady your voice. âI never thought someone would look at me the way you do, let alone admit it.â You swallowed, looking to where your hand joined with his. âYou already know most of my story.â
And he did.Â
Six months after meeting him, Logan learned of how you came to find out about your abilities. The damage that the tornado had done, the damage that it had caused you; both before and after.Â
He knew about where and how the team had found you; on the run after your high school graduation. No authorities were after you, and no family was coming to find you. But you had been scared of making a home and a family somewhere else in case they felt the same as everyone else did about the abilities they didnât know you had.Â
He knew about the friends you had made and the family that had helped you face the tragedies you thought you couldnât move on from. He knew about when youâd left to move to the city to start a corporate job and why you decided to move back.Â
He knew about your tragedies, your happy moments, your anger and your joy. He knew everything. And hadnât judged you but rather accepted you into his life with open arms.Â
âBut even some things Iâve kept to myself,â you admitted.Â
Even though you knew, if he thought about them, the unspoken things would be understood. But youâd never voiced them.Â
Youâd never voiced how, despite all the change, you still feared a relationship and a family of your own in case something went wrong. Youâd never voiced how you tried your best to accept things in your life but still craved the intimacy of what you had with Logan but still feared him turning you away one day.Â
Youâd never voiced that youâd fallen for him a year into working by his side, over a cup of stale coffee at four in the morning as you both waited on Rogue getting back from her three day long road trip from Canada.
âIâm scared about this, Logan.â
Logan felt a drag on his heart at your pain, but also felt a weight lift off his shoulders. You werenât the only one.Â
âIâm scared about this, too.â
For a moment, a look flashed across your face that he didnât recognise. So he added; âIâve had a lot go wrong in my life, but you are one of the best things that has. And I want to get it right with you.â
A range of emotions washed over you as he told you. The loudest being; heâs scared because he doesnât want to get it wrong? Not because heâs scared of you?
Without another deafening thought, you surged forward and kissed him. He leaned back a little, shocked by the unexpected kiss. But rather than tearing himself away from you, a cog turned in his head and he leaned in, kissing you back.Â
With a hand threaded through the back of your hair, he pulled you as close to him as he could before leaning his back against the tree trunk and pulling you onto him.Â
With the sun setting behind you, Logan took a breather for a moment to drink you in, in case the entire course of his memories with you had been nothing but his own imagination conjuring up his dream woman.Â
âFuck,â he breathed, soaking the vision of you in. The warm glow of the sun bounced off your hair, your cheeks were flushed and your lips slick with his kiss. âYouâre perfect.â
Unable to speak anymore, he heard you breath and his eyes fluttered closed. Heâd been through a lot in his life, but never once did he allow himself to think he could haveâŚeverything.Â
You were his everything. You would always be his everything. He didnât want anything more than just you. Ever.Â
He caught the rise of your smile as he leaned back in and kissed you again. You pressed your chest to his as he leaned up more, practically begging for you to let him deepen the kiss.Â
As you did so, you made a sweet noise at the back of your throat. A noise he would spend a life-time chasing if it meant he had the chance of hearing it again.Â
The kissing slowedâŚeventually. But that didnât stop Logan from reaching for you. The seconds between closing your passenger side door of the truck to getting in the driverâs seat felt like the longest seconds of his life. And once the engine started up and heâd backed the truck up, he soon had your hand in his.Â
Once he hit the back roads, he reached over and pulled you further down the bench seat until you unclipped your seatbelt and buckled yourself into the middle seat so he could keep his arm around you the entire drive home.Â
And the next morning as you woke up beside him, was the first of the rest of forever.Â











