( rcdiohecd ) “ If we die tomorrow, I want you to know that you were the best thing to ever happen to me. ”
sentence and symbol starters – accepting
Stunned into silence, it’s all Hamuko can do not to burst into immediate tears as she reaches for Alex’s hands across the table. ( which is not comfortable by any stretch of the imagination, by the way — these seemingly cozy Disney tables outside the restaurants are just a little too big. ) There’s so much that she wants to say, so many half-formed thoughts swept up amid a tide of raw emotion, and all of it building right in the center of her chest where she can feel her heart suddenly beating in double time.
The clearest thought: ‘I can’t lose you too.’ Not after Mitsuru, or Henry, or Kirigiri. Not with Narukami acting the way he is, and definitely not after all Alex has done to help her. ( Hamuko’s pretty sure that that discoloration on the inside of Alex’s jacket sleeve is from blood, and none of it Alex’s. ) They have to stick together. They have to survive.
But Alex knows that already.
✤ - “…Thank you,” she eventually whispers. “And… I’m sorry. That we never got to know each other outside of this. I think… I would have loved to be your friend.”