#raygillete

oh god okay. 

So, to set this up, I was like… god, 10, I think at the time. (It was back in October of 2006) And, because I was 10 and on the internet, my parents were obviously worried about the people on there and didn’t want their 10 year old daughter giving her age and gender on a site(regardless of it being Club Penguin), which is reasonable. So, I did what any 10 year old would. I started going around saying that I was a guy, and my username at the time was an atrociously incorrect spelling of Seth, so to me, everything was fine. 

Skip to like… roughly a couple of months or so later, still holding strong to the whole ‘im a boy named seth here on club penguin’. In some fucking way, I end up befriending this dude who I can simply describe as an emo rock penguin. Black clothes, sunglasses, the whole kit and kaboodle. At this time, role-playing stuff was really high key happening in Club Penguin, and, I loved doing it. And this one player, I think his username was like Rick or Rock or Rict or something like that, was having like… something at his igloo and it sounded cool, so I went. Ended up meeting other players there who basically became my ‘friends’ on it. 

One of the players I met, her name was like, Arizona or something, ended up dating the Rick(??) dude and that was weird in and of itself but, me being a kid, thought it was just story telling, and I was like ‘oh wow, that’s so cool’. Months later, a new person comes in, and Rick and Arizona basically set that player, who happened to be a girl, up with me, who they thought was a guy and I distinctly remember that her username had Ice in it. Everyone would wear the same shit all the time because I distinctly remember Arizona wearing that original long brown hair wig, Ice would wear blonde, I would wear the short guy hair, and everyone would wear black hoodies and sunglasses for some reason(probably cause it looked cool).  

This shit, got legit. Like… the four of us would always be on the same server no matter what. It would always happen and this continued for… god, at least a year. So much so that it probably was fucking concerning that I was 1) having fun with this fake ‘relationship’ with this player on Club Penguin and 2) that it seemed perfectly normal at the time??? And then, the best part, was that the four of us would always sit like, opposite of the other one we were ‘dating’ and do those heart icons and stuff and whatever else. 

But then, one day, Ice just disappears off the face of the earth. No word, no reason. She’s just gone. And little kid me is heartbroken, because the player I had just spent years building a ‘relationship’ with was gone, and I had no one. AND THEN the rick and Arizona people reveal that they’re actually fucking dating in real life or whatever, which, even to me as a kid, was fucking weird, and they dragged me, a little heartbroken kid, in the middle of their shit. 

yellow: 

if you could have any view from your bedroom window what would you choose? 

a forest covered valley with a river running through it from atop a mountain

what’s your favorite thing to do on a sunny day? 

stay inside and fuck around on the internet

if its really nice sometimes ill just walk. its so nice to feel the breeze and the sun.

what do you consider lucky? 

yes in some aspects, no in others. lmao what a fucking answer

what made you smile today? 

talking to my comp sci teacher about stuff. makin plans for after my exam tomorrow! 

what makes you happy?

To All Of You- SYD Matters

9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most.- I have really small faint freckles on my face I like. I have a birthmark on the side on my neck I like. I like my small nose and small boobs. Sometimes after I wash my hair it gets really wavy and has the beach wave looks and I like that.

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library