See the thing is I DO love Ocean with OCD bc if there's one thing I'm known to adore it's an extremely high strung, usually religious character, who is extremely worried about their public image for reasons that seem completely absurd to other people, even people who share a lot of their background/views, and it turns out they just have very very warped and paranoid ideas on what qualifies them as a good person that they desperately and obsessively adhere to

What is the other name of Nisha?? Isn't there another fancy one fuck I can't remember

I'm currently thinking about how, Karnak says they've been stripped of their individuality by the accident, that he wants to give them a chance to be something other than how they were perceived by those around them, and how Ocean says she never got to know any of them in any meaningful way, it's so interesting and sad to me how we as the audience, like Karnak, get to know their thoughts, hopes, dreams, but not many people did. Focusing on Noel for a moment here; it seems strange to think that not many people knew much about him, considering how he seems to have such a strong personality and very particular ways of expressing himself- Yet he also comes off as very awkward and nervous especially with Kholby Wardell's line delivery in certain parts and the constant picking at his nails and fidgeting aimlessly with his hands. It just all makes me think so much about how they expressed themselves and carried themselves before the accident.

Vague thoughts spinning around in my mind... Catholic school and gendered uniforms... I should write something

Very curious how many members of the choir do you guys think are actually Catholic/were raised Catholic/etc and how many attend St. Cassian's purely out of a lack of options

Thinking about Noel and being told to "Dial it back"... I think even if they survived, fully came out, graduated, etc, I think it would be significantly harder for them to overcome that and allow themself to really be themself than they probably thought

I think it's really really beautiful how there can be two closeted trans women in the St. Cassian chamber choir