Raw transition update
I guess I’m technically transitioning into a raw food diet. It happened naturally where I decided one day to be all raw, just for the day. It was surprisingly doable, easy and I felt satisfied. I just looked up the easiest recipes that looked good to me and started making them. That was 10 days ago. I currently am “mostly raw” and plan to stay that way. I don’t plan to be 100% raw, although maybe over time I will just fall into that. Being mostly raw is good for me because if I do have something that’s not technically raw, it’s not a big deal and I won’t feel like I’m off track or anything. Strict rules do not work for me.
How I’m feeling physically and mentally is pretty good in some ways and pretty not good in other ways. Physically my hip hurts so bad, (it was hurting a lot again before I began transitioning). Because of the pain I stopped doing cardio exercises that I began a month and a half ago, and then yesterday I began doing my physical therapy exercises that I haven’t done for at least 2 months. :( I HATE THEM with a passion due to the monotony and I’ve been doing physical therapy exercises for my hip pain for at least 3 years, almost 2 of those years are post surgery now. But they did make my hip feel a little better so.....I will do them. I probably need to do other physical therapy exercises but due to having crappy health insurance I won’t be seeing a PT anytime soon. Otherwise physically I have been feeling significantly less bloated, significantly less of the heavy dead coma feeling that I used to get from food.
Which leads into the mental/emotional aspect. Mentally I feel sharp and clear, which is amazing! I used to and sometimes still am plagued with intense brain fog, and still have a terrible memory, it impresses me every day how good I am at forgetting things! As for emotional, that’s been odd. I am feeling a lot of stuff that I was probably repressing and it’s all coming out in the form of tears and feelings of insane depression and a strong need for connection and closeness (but not really finding it). I’m pretty pooped at the end of the day because my work schedule is kind of intense that I haven’t done anything social besides work and band practice this week yet. I do have things planned everyday for the weekend so that should help. Food and emotions have such a close relationship that food can numb and suppress our feelings, so since I was doing that before, it is much harder to do so with raw food, now I am left with actually dealing with the uncomfortable emotions that I used to cover up with food, by eating a lot and being in a brain foggy food coma for hours. I’m trying to use healthy coping skills to deal with these new emotions and clarity of my feelings. So I think all in all while new and uncomfortable, it will be good.
