I'm in a meeting, at least having a little (machine made) lemon tea. Not the most amazing tea in the world but it's something. Something warm and tasteless, LOL.
I wish I would be home, drawing, painting, doing anything but having a meeting about aspects of a VC I had yesterday.
I don't like sounding like a brat who is bitching about her job. I'm really grateful that I have the opportunity of working for a company that pays me good and has an OK environment. The building is amazingly beautiful, as well. But... I'm far from home, it takes an hour and half commuting here (with a company bus, a common one takes 2 hours and half!). And because it's so far from downtown, every little thing that implies doing something at the city takes almost the whole day if you don't have a car (half day if you do, but it's really expensive to move around for gas and parking expenses). And my boss is obviously not happy with me taking the day off to run errands.
It has a free cafeteria, too. And a gym inside the building. But the food is always the same (and hyper caloric, too) and my boss is not really thrilled with me using my lunch time to go to the gym. So, loosing the weight I must loose it's proving to be a complicated task.
I want to change my job. I think I'm just burnt out and I have lost the interest I had before about IT (or working for a big company). Maybe I just tasted how much of the saying "Big companies suck your life and give you a Swiss watch as a thank you for you wasted time and youth" it's, indeed, true. I don't want to put all the energy I have working for the success of somebody else. If I'm going to give my all for anything, I want it to be for my own dreams. My hopes and expectations (quoting Muse!). I want to look forward for things that make me successful in life and work, and not wasting this force on making some guy in Europe richer than he was before... while I'm struggling to make it to the end of the month.
It's not fair, and I cannot cope nor stand it.
I want it out of The Rat Race.
Never liked running. Maybe just a fast walk?