Word traveled so fast.Â
She had always been there for him, whether his issues were large or small. Tended to his injuries, minor or severe. Cereâthien saved him from many things, including himself, even when things had all seemed so very hopeless, where others would have deemed him a lost cause. She tended to the spark, and helped it grow. Â
He owed her so much, and so many words had been left unsaid. Â
Life was immensely cruel, and this night... His faith, in the Light, in all things pertaining to such that were beyond mortals, lay broken and scattered to the winds. He never thought heâd be without her, he always thought sheâd be there forever, childish as that thought may have been.
His thoughts were a chaotic whirlwind as he stood in his washroom, hands gripping the edges of his sink so tight his knuckles where white, and the surface of the stone began to crack. The sounds traveled through him, and gradually, he let go, took a step back... And felt something touch his leg. Immediately, his head snapped to the side, and found a child.
âCereâsai, what are you doing awake? Itâs so late, my goodness...â
He knelt down and scooped her up in his arms, then very gently brushed the blonde bed-headed curls from her face.  âAnnâda, you so sad,â she said. Though her voice was so very soft and quiet, it cut through the silence around them. A tiny hand placed itself on his forehead and she gently patted him.  âPlease, no sad. I feel it, makes me sad, too. Woked me up.â
For a moment, he gazed at her in wonder, but then, tears welled up in his eyes and he held her close.  âIâm sorry,â he whispered. Her little arms curled around his neck as much as she could manage, and she gave him the best hug she could.  âIt okay. Love you, annâda.â
Raserus couldnât help but laugh, even though it was very brief. She was a special child, definitely.  âI love you, too. Come on, letâs go to bed.â
He carried her back to her shared room, where little Dristan lay sound asleep, oblivious to the world in his crib. Raserus sat Cereâsai back in her bed and tucked her in, pressing a soft kiss to her forehead.  âTry to ignore my sadness, little one. Iâll be fine in time. You need to sleep, because you have to grow big and strong. Sleep is very important.â
âDonât need sleep...â And then she yawned wide. After she had finished, she wiggled under her covers and closed her eyes.  âOkay, maybe sleep.â
Quietly, he laughed again, and moved to depart.  âSweet dreams, Cereâsai.â She was out before his words even reached her, and he took a moment to pause, just... Watching. Some of the books he had been loaned while healing, and this child he bestowed her namesake upon... It was all he had of her.
Tears welled up in the manâs eyes once more, and he quietly left the room, disappearing to the darkened halls where he could pace, and think.
There would be no more warm summer afternoons with delicious tea, there would be no more random chats in the middle of the night, and there would be no more guidance. The comforting hand of yet another friend would be gone, and though he had so much around him... His children, his wife, so many family members... Â
He couldnât help but feel so alone.














