#rapha gomes

The more i've tried to decide about writing this, the more it's eaten away at me. I've always loved itsraphablueberry's videos on youtube, he seems like such a nice person and i always thought he would make a great friend to me. I've seen him many times at one particular gay nightclub in london as I go there pretty much every week with my uni friends for the past year, but i've always been i guess too shy to approach him for a picture, not wanting to appear as a 'fan' and be embarrassing. Anyway I've followed this whole Craig Dillon thing about how he's alegedly raped people and admitted to asking a 15 year old for nudes, obviously I think it's horrible and have no sympathy for craig, my immediate reaction was to go to raph's twitter and start refreshing to check that surely he felt the same, waiting for him to denounce his friendship with craig, and publicly call him out. Well, what seemed like forever later, he finally posted something about. It felt like a big cop out as he didnt mention any details nor even craig's name, but at least he publicly disapproved of these 'recent events' and suggested he was horrified by what he'd done. i guess that was all he was going to say. it was so vague tho that i wasn't sure if i believed him, but tried to as i thought so highly of him.

As my allegiance as a raphanator dwindled, it was very recently that was the final straw. i once again saw raph in this same club in london as i had before, but nothing had changed, he was once again still there with his friend craig (just the two of them i believe) like nothing had happened. i just dont get it, he was there joking around, dancing and having fun with his best friend who like 4 or 5 people have alleged to have been raped by him, and rapha was still there being his friend like it's an okay thing to do, being his friend after saying on twitter that he was so horrified and upset by what craig had done. this was the last straw for me, to completely lie in the face of us, his fans, tell us its wrong and then go on secretly being friends with him. that was it, i no longer believe i word he says, i think he knows exactly what he's doing, i think he thinks he's very clever in how he handled it all, but he's not, he lied to us and thinks he got away with it, but he hasn't. i cant let people, just like me until now, go on thinking that he's this super cool perfect guy when he lies to us like that, its just not fair to all his young fans, probably most of which are a lot younger and more impressionable than me (i don't even want to imagine them even possibly assuming craig's actions were okay because rapha thinks so). this whole thing has really upset me and made me question what kind of person i was to so easily believe his lies,how could i be that stupid? i just can't go on letting this happen to other people. im sorry if this has upset you like it still upsets me, but we cant go on supporting someone who supports a rapist (but pretends not to for his social image). people need to know the truth and need to stop supporting him whilst he keeps lying to us and remaining friends with craig.