#ranttt

like, basically it’s felt like a chore? idk if that’s the right word or not but- basically i think i’m going to stop taking drawing requests

lemme just describe my feelings to y’all rq-

i love to draw, but lately i’ve been less and less focused on drawing what i wanna draw and more focused on i think y’all would like

and if i feel like something just- fails in some way, i get all upset about it (like the eye drawing i did, still not a big fan of it btw-)

i just wanted to let y’all know that none of y’all have ever contributed to these feelings (that ik of- but i srsly doubt it)

this is all me and my anxiety and perfectionism

it’s me getting scared of having my head bitten off because smth wasn’t of my usual standards or of my usual quality

anyways- enough ranting, i love each and every one of you so so much

ima prob take a mini break tmr and maybe another bigger one at some other point this coming week (i don’t wanna do it wednesday since that’s my first day of school and i’ll need yalls moral support)

also, anon, i don’t think i’ll do your request since it’s not one of my fandoms, i’m rlly sorry🫂🫂🫂💖💖💖

i just wanted to thank y’all for being so supportive and sweet to me ever since i joined tumblr

this is definitely one of the hardest decisions i’ve had to make in regards to my tumblr, but i do think this will help my mental health

i will still take suggestions from ppl in my community, but no more art requests

i’m sorry this post is so long omg- ;-;

aaaaaa i love y’alllll

ima tag the whole tag list in this cause this is rlly important imo:)

(also rq reminder that this is only for drawing requests, i’m still gonna take fic requests when i turn them back on:3)

I want to do it soooo bad but also I don’t wanna do it like DO YOU UNDERSTAND this is the worst brand of procrastination like my body doesn’t but my mind does and it sucks

I just really really don’t wanna do it UGHHHHHRHEHJEHSNSNSNAN *insert that one bluey scene where she’s moaning on the ground bc she’s lazy*

I’ll do smth else so I don’t have to do it like I’ll be productive in one thing to procrastinate the other and so on and so forth it’s nice but I’m still procrastinating yk

YouTube is one too like I’ll go on YouTube and watch smart people videos on how to improve life or the worlds most confusing theories just to feel better abt myself

this one I call the genius smart kid procastination like an assignment will be due in an hour and then I’ll procrastinate for 40 minutes and then lock in the last 20 and still get a hundred on it